Leaving you and forgetting you was one of the hardest things I had to do and Lord knows I have passed through some of the hardest times.
I honestly loved you with what seemed like everything I had to give.
Love I couldn't even reward myself with was lavishly placed on you.
Oh, how I miss those nights we'd spend together, embraced in each others ideas and care. We'd ooze about how we felt like one entity, our love so strong and tender. Slowly, we'd drift away from the problems that plagued us both, problems that haunted our every waking minute.
Two lost, tortured, tragic souls we were. You, more out of control then me.
Silly how I thought I could contain you, settle you down into my cold heart with hopes that your faux light would shine the way through the never ending darkness I would hide from.
Ill love you forever I'd say so foolishly, knowing that I would regret every word.
I never allowed myself to use those words with anyone, to anything. That was childs play and I was never a child.
But you, you deserved every word in the universe. You deserved anything that made you feel like the beautiful creature I saw you as.
I loved you I loved you and I say loved because I would be a fool
to be in love with you
still.
if you knew me in person, you would think I was never capable of feeling or writing about this