I know to seek comfort in a man, only if he's gonna do me right. I knew I was in love when he was all I'd think of, morning and night. Drives me crazy the way he do the things he do, I stopped questioning my feelings when my mind accepted that I knew I was in love with him. Every time I see him, I seem to fall in love all over again. I fell for him so unexpectedly, it caught my attention the way he was so honest, he wasn't spittin' lies. Waiting for time to go by, but even now I'm his, and he's mines. Steady hoping time flies, so I can show the world that he's not like the rest, the way he make me smile, the way he holds it down. It was always his mindset that caught my attention, it seemed he would be mad enough to hold me down and make me smile when I frown. I stay up late thinking about how lost in love I am with him ever since he stepped into my life. Love the gentle way he hugs me when we lay up, when things are going wrong he makes things feel so right. The way he makes his voice enchant me, it feels like it's meant to be when he holds me. The way he looks at me makes me get lost in his eyes, crave for his presence, for his smell, for his touch. He says I'm still young and one day I'll find someone better, and I tell him I'll never give away my love, I'll never love someone this much. I don't want someone better, I want him, the way he is, I accept his flaws and completely love everything he's about. He holds my heart, the way he is makes me feel so lucky being by his side without a doubt. The way he has me all infatuated with the way he shows how much he missed me, makes me have him constantly on my mind. I never worry bout these females cause I know he's mine, just like the way he shouldn't care about these ******, cause they're just a waste of time. I lay back every night and reminisce on all our moments together, the way he laughs, the warmth of his body, the touch of his hands, the softness of his skin.. Counting down till we don't gotta hide no more, it's not even about the ***, I'll let him undress my mind, and even my thoughts explore. He has a burning desire to love me the way he does, I trust he keeps it real with me so I make sure to never fuss. If being with him was a sin, then I'll live my life sinning. & when I tell him I don't want our love to end, he tells me
"Baby this is only the beginning"

No one ever gave it a chance to try to understand why I overthink too much, through hell and back, I still admire myself for staying strong. Working on myself trying to better who I am, you hear me but you don't feel me, my actions are something you might never understand. No one was ever there, being alone is all I know. Pregnant, dropout, ******, is what they said my life would be, but it's not the way I will allow things go. Understand that I have goals, I demand respect. Loyalty is what I live by, my mind is never mislead, so whatever you give me; is what in return you will get. Understand. It's not about relating to me, or else I'd be misunderstood. Just don't fail to recognize all the hard work I put in to make it out the hood. In order to understand why I'm isolated at times, you'd have to know that I grew up always being pushed to the side. I don't understand how he made me fall in the most beautiful simple way, in return I wanna prove that I'm not like the other girls who lied. Everybody has their own experiences, which makes them look at certain situations in a different way. Until I'm able to show off to the world the boy who owns my heart, I wait anxiously as I cross off my calendar another, and another, and another day. Understand that although I make a lot of mistakes, they've made me the person that I am today. With no guidance, I conquered my childhood alone, facing different problems, overcoming difficult situations, with no one to turn to when I was being consumed by loneliness. Don't know when the day will come, when I can  understand why things happened the way they did, but I know it is. Every day I assure myself into understanding that something good will come from the bad. I try to ignore the negative thoughts that emerge when it's 3:00 a.m and I'm contemplating about the days when I was once all I had. Understand. Open your mind and let my thoughts sink in deep as you put yourself in my shoes and feel the numbness my heart contains. Understand how it's hard to trust someone after all the betrayals by trusting too much that my mind sustains. After all the pain that I've been through, I realized how empty inside I am, you need to understand why I carry myself the way I do. I hold so much anger because growing up I had nobody to depend on, I was always on my own. I just need him to understand that I've been let down my whole life, I'll always be his back bone. By understanding why I am who I am, understand why I feel lucky and fortunate to have my boo. Understand why I never question his actions, and at the end of the day, I realize I'm not the only one who's lucky, cause he has me too.

I see underneath the lies, the pain, the hope, the sadness in someone's eyes. Underneath the despair, & the doubt, I reminisce about those romantic contemplations. I interpret his silence, & hear underneath what he doesn't say, crazy how he can always make me smile during those late night conversations. I feel like a fool before him, but when I'm underneath I see beyond that & ignore what's true. Because, laying there, underneath, he's all I see. I forget the pain, the scars, the loss, the lies, and the emptiness. I know because of what he's been through, he hides the feelings he has beneath. He throws on this mask to hide what's underneath; going around getting high to forget the lows, like that's the only way to cope he knows. He built this barrier to protect himself from getting hurt. Simply lay underneath and forget the past, I want to ease his pain as I take off my shirt. Underneath all this love I have for him, it's loyalty I will always grant him. Underneath what we may not know, there seems to be a reason for why we both can't let it go. Let US go. My attention and my time will be invested from him to another guy? I don't think so. Because underneath all the sweet comments, the passionate kisses, the hidden emotions.. These other guys don't give me the vibe that he do. Underneath all the expensive clothes, underneath someone's appearance; it's his character and mindset that always stays true. Underneath the stars, I lay, contemplating about my boo. Underneath all the fronts I put on to not fall for him, his eyes and voice hypnotized my mind and heart, I hope one day to say I've been able to hypnotize his too. Underneath his past experiences, lies a layer of doubt. He's been hurt in the past, which left him emotionally detached to everyone, and not interested in what "love" is about. He says he'll wait until I'm 18, underneath all the time we'll have to wait, we make the best of what we are. The longer I lay underneath the stars, wishing I was underneath you, I realize love tends to leave hearts with deep scars. Underneath all the relationships I've been in, there are lies and false emotions. When I think about you, and the way I feel about every little thing you do, I accept that there's no way my mind and heart can forget you throughout all these commotions. Now I'm underneath.. Feeling you press up against me, my heart is in your hands, my body is under your control, and my mind is infatuated by your touch. When we lay up, and I memorize every detail of your face, the same adversity keeps running through my mind...
"Underneath all the obstacles, I will never find someone other than HIM, to give all my love to."