Her words pierced my heart
Like a dagger that was sharp
Sharp like the pencil I write my poems with
I had bittersweet feelings for her
I loved her
But I hated her
I also don't know how

Her conversations
Were convincing
Causing me to confide
Uncomfortably...
I always thought that her communication skills
Were honed at birth

Her confusing conversations
Filled with words that collaborated
Words that collided
Words that clashed
Together

As she spoke
Her tongue was like a paint brush
Painting all the thoughts in my mind
As she spoke
I could not help but notice
How her lips
Created an effect
That made her pictures seem so vivid

She hated summer
I don't know why
Maybe because it made her
Cold heart warm
Or maybe because she liked
The winter cuddles

She hated summer
Because she thought
Her body wasn't fit for the season
What she didn't know was
I loved her the way she was

I realised that 2am
Is the perfect hour
To maybe shower
My pages with ink
And really think proper
Before I write
The right words
So that I don't get left behind
By my mind
Cause I think fast
But write slow
So
Basically it shows
When my wrist flows
Don't match my mood

Read too many books
Had a headache of letters
Now I'm vomiting these words...
They said I'm sick
Went to the doctor
He said it's just an overdose
On language

You would say I'm crazy
When I express myself
With letters, coming from ink
But ****
There's no mental institution for poets

I usually listen to drums
Cause' it reminds me of my heart
My heart beat
That keeps me alive...
Even though I don't duck or jive
I knew I was bound for this
At the tender age of five

I have dreams
And they are bigger than the ones
I have when I sleep
Partly motivated
By nobody but me
Underrated individual
Who is fueled by words
Please don't judge, just let me be
Me

His words spilled to the floor
And spread like a virus
His words touched more souls
Than a pastor on a Sunday service
But for some unknown reason
His words were ignored

His words evoked unknown feelings
That onky God could explain
Feelings that make the heart
Emit rainbows
But for some unknown reason
His words were ignored

His combination of letters
Created words that spoke
An exotic language
That only the subconscious mind
Could understand
But for some unknown reason
People were in denial

His words were like a key
That would unlock every soul
That was trapped
His words would bring light
To the darkest of souls
Souls that were deep down
In the arms of the devil
And yes
The devil did despise him

All those beautiful words
Coming out that complex mouth
Came from a dark and lonely mind
Which knew
All the aspects of pain

Darkness
Darkness
all I see is darkness
Now this black vision has a hold in me
Like a harness
Lost and confused
Cause' the light bulb inside my eye room
Had a fuse
Does someone have a candle or torch
That I could use
How ironic that I see no colour
But this blindness gives me the blues

Eyes with no vision
But to see
Is the vision
If I had my sight
Before God put me to the test
I'd be busy with my revision
The touch
Is the precision
To braille?
Have no decision
Even with no dictionary
My hands and ears
Give ny life definition

I'm tired of living
I wish I could hibernate
My body is wary
My mind is wary
I wish I had a turn off
Or reset button

Wll
Life is hard
Like concrete bricks
Concrete bricks which I need
To build my future
But somehow
When it's halfway
The building collapses
Try to pick them up again
Place them one by one
And then
Sit down and rethink another plan

I should let go
Of my good guy tendencies
It gets you nowhere
Maybe I should change my ways
And be a villain
Cause' that black dot
Is consuming me
Consuming my soul
Until my mind, body and spirit
Are in a black hole

BodyWhen you're happy
Everything seems easy
Sometimes I ask myself
'How come the world spins
But we don't feel dizzy?'
'How come the best pickup lines
come offas cheesy?'
Last week I asked God if we could chill
And he said he was kinda busy

I think words carry more value
Than actions
Cause' you rwally much believe
What is received by the ear
Than the eye
And I
May come off as sly
If I use words
That create that strong feeling inside

I live my life in a prison
And here's my reason:
My thoughts are trapped
Inside my mind
And I find it hard to free them
Cause' I'm scared that someone would steal
My ideas

Blue and red flashing through his window
Ran away from the popo
Gasping
Cause' his wind's low
A loser in jail
But he has a chance
He could win though
Opened the door
And let the wind blow

Howling of the hound
Front door down
Police get in
Guess what?
No sound
Fast footsteps on the ground
Of the young **** who was bound
To be in school
But he took it like a joke
Ha ha
Pro clown

Running through the bush
Blood hounds behind
Adrenaline pumped by the fear
Running in his mind
Yeah he was cruel minded
But his love was one of a kind
This love was caused by the one inside....
Of the bag

Using...
Helicopter spotlights
Geographical spot heights
Cause' they knew this criminal was not light
What they were doing was not right
After a while he took a shot right
Through his heart then his eyes went low
Like smoking *** sight

The police surrounded the lying body
Blood on the floor
Bullets in his leg, arm, shoulder
And in his heart was number four
This time the popo were raw
No smackdown just *******
Dead was the ****
Everyone was sure

After a while of silence
After a while of pure silence
A crying voice went out
Everyone knew it
No doubt

One of them opened the bag
It was a lady
No one thought it would be possible
It was a baby

He
Met her when he
Was walking down the road
Eye contact so intense
Even their minds connected
But it was in
Utter silence

Both minds were talking
Talking with body language
Which he spoke fluent
And she could understand clearly

A week later
He
Invaded her space
A week later
He
Fondled her
And in that same week
He
Kissed her

Kisses from neck to toe
Going down slow
Past the stomach
Then to the...
Oh

The lip biting
Love biting
The
Heavy breathing
Touch pleasing

As his hand
Went down
He found out that
She's wet
Wet as...
The fish that swim
In the ocean

Every time he wanted *******
The course
Of her morals intervened
Creating that space between
Them...

The mind and body
Were one
But their souls
Were apart

Feels like...
I'm the black dot
Amongst the white
Feels like...
I'm the only dull star
Shining at night
Feels like...
People can't see me
When their get into contact with my presence
They just lose sight
It also feels like...
I'm in a glass at the museum
And people are watching me

They say I'm unique
They say I'm exclusive
Like the clothes at a boutique
But I
Don't have that kind of mindset
I'm different
And all I think about
Is how am I going to stand out

Its like my mind
Is a magnet that attracts critics
Then it passes it to the heart
From the hert to the body
Making me numb
As a whole

Acting like I don't care
But my ears are wide open
Er drum taking all those vocal vibrations
Sending them to the mind,body and soul
Exactly in that order

But hey
This is life
Lord knows why he made me like this
Mybe I'll be something big
But at the moment
I need to dig

I bask in the essence of words
I use these words as my toys
Cause' I can play with them
Without them getting broken
Or old

These words give a clear picture
A clear image
A photograph in the mind
Which evokes deep emotions
Within the human

These words are like drugs
Cause' I'm addicted to the pen and paper
My high
Is in the form of satisfaction
Which leaves my heart with a smile
When all else brings me down

These paragraphs of words is my way
Of sharing my emotion with the world
My way of telling my life story
These combined words diplay my mind
As a whole
What I think and who I am

The mind is a complex *****
But poetry
Brings out the simplicity in it

I don't know wht to call it
Lovers place or lovers lane
Where
The teen male and female
Encounter in
Physical contact
Eyes,skin,mind
And soul

Where they exchange words
Which build their relationship
Strengthen their relationship
Where they embrace each other
Never letting go
Like mannequins
Or statues

Although this corner is public
They really didn't care much
It amused them
As much
As it strengthened their bond

Time was limited
But why not break the rules

In the daylight
He would see her clearly
In the moonlight
They would kiss so dearly

What they didn't know
Is that they were alike,spiritually
Well
Like charges repel

Now
He walks that street corner
Alone

It feels like the world is spinning fast
It feels like I drank a bottle of *****
But this time
I'm alone

Drowning myself in thoughts of the future
Drowning myself in thoughts of death
Drowning myself in thoughts of....

Is it a bad day?
Am I going insane?
Or do I need someone
To comfort me?

Anxiety building up
Like a pile of papers
Stack on stack
Until it forms a tower
Until it just takes over
The whole of me

I can't wait for the day
I look fear into the eyes
And say
'Thanks for the lesson,
Thanks for making me strong,
And I am what I am'

Only God knows when that day will come

People don't believe me when I say
I have a drum as a heart
Every beat reminds my mind
That music is in me
Music is in my blood
Music is all that I am

This beat is the same beat
That keeps me alive
That keeps me going
Flowing with the rhythm
Showing my ability
Knowing what being alive is...

This beat is the sme beat
That pumps blood into my veins
So that my body can move
And groove
To the rhythm of the sound
As my feet tap the ground
I know I am bound
For this

Emotion of a monster
To over power
And to conquer
It is
Close to insanity
Vengeance and jealousy
Then it fills your mentality

It is deep inside you
Well mind you
Even the kind do
Have it

Disturbance,irritation
Best triggers the gun
Sending the bullet forward
Flaming hotter than the sun

Devil in the background shouting
'Feast! Release you inner beast!'
Then all hell breaks loose

This emotion...
Is the fuel for the muscle
Pumping uncontrollable strength
Pumping uncontrollable thoughts
To your brain
Much like going insane

This is a test from God
Whether you pass or fail
Is up to your inner self
Your inner peace
Mind,body and soul

We're living in a world
Where fake is the new trend
A world where
Falling leads to crash land
A world where
The devil gives you a helping hand
And in this world
Depression is my new friend

How can a friend
Break or bend,your trust
Whereas I'm looking for someone
To mend my heart
If lies were money
Everyone would spend their millions
They say 'If life gives you lemons'
Wait! What if mine gave me melons

Look at me,I'm not perfect
But at least I'm real
Got to stay strong
Mentality on steel
Wait for my soul to recover
Rather to heal
They disturbed my innocence
And then I broke her virginity seal
It was ill...

The killing
The blood spilling
All by one cause,ignorance
The dressing
The people impressing
Leads to one thing,arrogance
The pretending
Mixed with smiley sending
Makes me lose my,tolerance
My silence
My wise license
Will lead to my fame,2legance

Sometimes
Even if the disruption of the innocent
Leads to corruption of the imagrant
The caption of the happy moments
Will create the adaptation of the youth
At the moment

Its funny how someone can go from a friend to a stranger
While I stay innocent like Jesus in a manger
Or untouched like Walker Texas Ranger
And yet people ask me
'Are you really acting your age huh?'

Sometimes I lay there heartbroken
And all my thoughts remain unspoken
All my friends think its a joke and
When I try to express myself
My oesophgus starts to choke ****!

I just wanna change my mentality
'F you' is what my heart keeps on telling me
Its like I'm a product and people keep on selling me
And I'm going insane
But there's no one offering hospitality

I'm stuck between being a ****
And being a nerd
Whereas life is treting me like I'm a ****
I always have dreams
But they seem kind of obsurd
My heart is always shouting
But its voice will stay unheard

Don't you ever wonder
What being free is
I'll give you the answer
Cloud.

Not much of an explaination
Cause' you can see it for yourself
As its vapor form
Walks across the skies
With meaningless strides
With nothing to confide
Nor hide

No worries
No cares
Just a few stares
From human figures

As you shower the Earth
With your cries
Making it greener
And cleaner
Oh,what a generous thing you are
I envy you...

Oh
Poor soul
Never seen the world
Only from a hole
Controlled from birth
As the Earth began to roll
Perspective of the world
From you they stole

As time goes by
Your innocence is broken
Piece by piece
Kiss by kiss
And your knowledge rises
Much like yeast
As we wait for the day
You unleash your beast
And then we feast

Enchained in the depth of illusion
Being fed lies and confusion
And when delusion
Takes over
Its all gone
Cause' bove you the truth will hover

I see you
You and your sealed hole
You nd your controlled soul
I said I see you
You and your puppy eyes
Eating these fluffy lies
Yeah I heard her cries
But her attitude is what I despise

I would
Release you from your prison
But you'd change
Like the season
Without giving me a reason
Your day will come
Blood darkened deep red
Like crimson

Grow old young one
Grow old your child
See it for yourself
Whether hot or mild
Keep exploring
The cool and wild
Curiosity in your brain
Like papers
It piled

I don't know why
But its simple
Cause' I can see your shining smile
And your dimples
The moment I saw you
You grew a pimple
And really
It is that simple

From your head to your toes
I notice every detail
Why am I inspired
By this lovely female?
Love is in the air
I guess I inhaled
If this is a test
I swear I won't fail

The way you kiss
Is so bliss
And oh I miss
Your lips
Better yet your hips
Causes my heart to fly
Then it rips
With joy...
I can even see the emptiness
In your eyes
And that is what I'm trying to destroy...

We can compare it to a glass
Cause' its fragile...
Like a punching bag
Its always getting hurt
You can see it physically
If you're like me

It is easily shattered
And easily scattered
But t the same time
It is easily flattered

The chains
That keep her heart
And her mind together
Is her disadvantage
Cause' you take her mind
You stole her heart

Once broken
You can never fix it
Whether you're a therapist
Or a guru...
The feeling of being loved
Can put the pieces together
Its not the cure
But if the love is pure
It can speed up the healing process

Once broken
She's never the same
Cause' the heart has built a wall
For itself
Now the heart's...
Locked on safe mode
Now the defenses are up

Well I say...
Can you fix a broken glass
By hand?
Impossible
That's how he felt
When he found out about her history

We can compare it to a glass
Cause' its fragile...
Like a punching bag
Its always getting hurt
You can see it physically
If you're like me

It is easily shattered
And easily scattered
But t the same time
It is easily flattered

The chains
That keep her heart
And her mind together
Is her disadvantage
Cause' you take her mind
You stole her heart

Once broken
You can never fix it
Whether you're a therapist
Or a guru...
The feeling of being loved
Can put the pieces together
Its not the cure
But if the love is pure
It can speed up the healing process

Once broken
She's never the same
Cause' the heart has built a wall
For itself
Now the heart's...
Locked on safe mode
Now the defenses are up

Well I say...
Can you fix a broken glass
By hand?
Impossible
That's how he felt
When he found out about her history

Angel in her face
But a devil in disguise
Breaking and hurting these guys
An expert at composing lies
A confused and broken girl
I coild see it in her eyes

Seduction is her art
Cold is her heart
Abandoned from the start
Now she plays her cards smart

She's kind and honest
She's humble and modest
Her game is high
But her love is at lowest

She has...
Venom in her lips
That will penetrate to your veins
What you lose in humanity
Well
In pleasure she gains
Her ***** mind leaves stains
And when she cries
It rains

I searched inside of her
And saw that she was deep like the ocean
I did
Did it without a love potion
And then I whispered
'Why are you doing this?'
She told me
'This is my motto,this is my motion'

Right or wrong
Short or long
Agree or disagree
When singing a song
Ape or kong
Blunt or kong
When you're high
Its like you're living a life of a person from Hong Kong

Persuasive talker
Convincing stalker
Both of these are mind players
But I'd rather choose to ignore them with a bottle of Johnny Walker
Subconscious mind
Left behind
Likw a hypnotist I'll pursue this until I find

Blame it on the left
Decision making
The oven of thoughts
Busy opinion baking
Anxiety is close
Hands are shaking
All of the mess I made
I'll be out there raking

Mostly its pressure from your peers
Flowing through your ears
Seems like you've conquered most of your fears
And then peers begin to cheer
Sensors begin to hear
That you were wrong to listen to them,dear

Its...
One thought to another
Disrespecting you mother
Ignoring your father
Cause' you'd rather...
Party till the morning
Drink while you're yawning
Get drunk until you sleep on the lawn and...

Drink and jive
Drink and drive
An accident happens
Then you're no longer alive
But you thought you'll survive
That's because death gave you a high five

Do you know that girl who smiles all day?
Do you know that girl who likes to play?
Do you know that girl who's outgoing?
Everyone knows her
Cause' she's socially flowing

That girl is the same girl who...
Cries at night
Dies at night
She hears the lies with ears
And with sight
Despite
The fact she's trying to be strong
For long
But the memories are brought bck
By RnB songs

Hs a hard surface
But she's soft inside
Gave up on love
Left her heart behind
There's a whispering voice
Acting as a reminder
Never failing to remind her

Insecurities fill her head
In her mind
She has the coldest bed
Her hunger for cuddling
Remains unfed
And her wrists are covered
With red

She hides her pain
With the fake smile
Thinks love is in the form of
Doggy styles
She thinks the pain is temporary
While
It is stored
In the medula oblingata file
Well...
I told her
I see through your pain
Let go cause' there is
A lot to gain
Whether sunny or rain
Whether washable
Or long term stain

Negativity starts to grow
It physically starts to show
Emotionally she starts to blow
She covers it up
That's the reason why
Nobody knows...

Met a girl named Cynthia
Confusing like the media
My soul kept on needing her
But my temper flames kept on burning as hot as the curry from India

We went to sit by the river
As the cold breeze came
It made her body shiver
Although there was an awkward silence
Our eyes made a perfect alliance
Much like science

Eye contact
Was the pathway to give her my contact
From eye contact to ****** tension
No bluetooth
But we had this endless connection
Together with affection

Caressing
Body to body pressing
DMC confessing
We did the risky ish
Much like *** testing
Let me not forget the late night sexting

No love involved
From a man to a toy
I evolved
But I couldn't resist
I gave her my arm when she was looking for assist

We were going too fast
I knew this relationship was never gonna last
As I reflected on my past
I remembered the cast of the girls who broke my heart

We were passionately mating
But we were not even dating
As I realized we were only friends
Better wait for it until it ends

Its an......
Uncomfortable feeling
That needs ****** or family healing
Especially when you're dealing
With a depression level
That's higher tthan the ceiling

When kneeling
Doesn't solve it
When love
Doesn't inlovle it
When all hope
Is lost
And sleep is the only credit
To pay the cost

The winter breeze
That awkward sneeze
Leads
To my body's paralysis
Causing it to freeze
So please
August weather
Would you ease
The long night
Cause' it makes me sad
And I won't be able to say Cheese
For the camera

She's an uptown girl
Her place was unexpected in my world
She was an unexpected guest
Now she lives right between my chest

How can a girl have an impact
On a guy like me
Now I stay wandering if she really likes me
Or do we have things in commom
Is she really like me?

She's running in my mind
But this time its a never ending race
At an ever steady pace
On her every single case
Asking myself: If i went blind
Will I ever forget her face?