you capture the butterfly
in an upside-down jar.
watch it's wings flutter
madly trying to escape
the glass prison.
listen to the steady
beat pounding against
the glass walls.
if you listen carefully,
the rhythm of it's wings
sounds like the on-going
beat of the heart.
though, the butterfly
becomes weak in it's
prison of glass, and
the rhythm of it's wings
begin to slow, and
abruptly fall silent.
just as the beat of
a broken heart.
let this beautiful
creature out of this
prison of glass, and
maybe it's wings will
have the rhythm of a
steady beating heart.

she's the on he speaks
of in his dreams on
hot sleepless nights.
she's the one who steals
his breath away
whenever she walks past.
Guinevere is beautiful.
she is the fatal drug
that runs through his
veins and into his heart.
it stops beating just
as the needle enters
his vein and the drug;
his Guinevere; ******
has been injected.
Guinevere has become
dangerous and deadly.
his beautiful Guinevere
is the ****** he bases
his untimely life on.
the breath she had
stolen was yet his last.
love destroys you,
just as addiction.

you keep your love
locked away like
a secret wanting
to be told.
the key is hidden
in your heart,
kept safe behind
the constant beating.
who can capture
the key in your heart
and unlock the secret
to your love?
it's waiting,
pleading to
be let out,
set free.
let loose it's fiery
barrier and let go
your untimely secret.
love wants to be
found, and if you
stop looking, it's
bound to find you.

invisible thoughts.
midnight tears.
running away from
the monster that
you now call your life.
falling into oblivion.
the black of night
swallows your soul.
tears become oceans.
screams become echoes.
hearts become empty.
time ticks by.
centuries seem to pass.
eyes open wide.
the dream seizes.
consciousness returns.
thoughts and dreams
have collided,
creating a hurricane
full of nightmares.
nightmares called reality.

you come back into
my life all too quickly.
It seems more like you've
invaded my mind rather then
just stopped by to visit.
silence has erupted
between us.
It almost seems like
nothing has changed,
but it has.
everything has changed.

things seem all to awkward
to actually be happening.
nothing seems real anymore.
my life has become a
never ending dream.
a dream that keeps
replaying in my head
over and over again.
it's frozen, burned into my mind,
stuck on repeat.

I fall into lust, head first,
just to have it end in
absolutely nothing.
there's no attraction between us,
yet things still seem to fall into
all of the wrong places when
the two of us are together.
just with your mere presence,
it all affects my life in some way.

I want to forget you.
I want to forget that there
was ever an 'us'.
you're not exactly what
one would call cute.
you expect to get what you
want no matter the consequences.
there's no reason for you to
have such a great affect on me.
yet the love that I once had
for you will forever stay
somewhere hidden deep inside.
I will never be able to forget you.

confusion erupts
from all corners
of my mind.
loneliness filled
the void where
love was once kept.
I am full of so many
different emotions
it causes other pain.

lost love;
longing to be
loved by the one
who I can never
love again.

confusion;
false hope;
anger.

they all flash
through me with
such immense force.
and causes unwanted
tears to fall.

I try amazingly
hard to hide the
feelings which
should lie dormant
inside of me.

though when I let
them out, they
go wild and take
complete control
of my actions.
causing more and
more pain for
those I care about
most and not to
mention, myself.

If only my feelings
would fall dormant
and let me have peace.
If only...

I am your mistake
no love, no hate
the scars that are
shown upon my wrist
are memories of my past
the bruises which
appear all over my
legs are caused by stress,
I'm your cupcake,
extrodinary and sweet.
so call me cupcake.mistake