The rivers were overflowing
But still I knew where I was going
Fires came and burned in glory
But still I knew where I was going
Directed others down different paths
Delivered them to their destinations at last
Lost my way
Lost my life
Down each road
Down the knife
Open wounds
Open eyes
Closed the tombs
Closed the skies
Guiding others is a lonely journey
A simple life
But ain't  it funny
How something so small, could have great depths
A treasure trove of pain and death
Guiding others is a lonely road
Which one will take me down, below?

Must I fight for peace
When I never stood a chance
Must I fight this beast
Must I **** a man
To reawaken my conviction
To cast my pain aside
Must I try to hide it
Or should I just die
Swallow every pill
To **** me slowly
Saving my demise for my one and only
Screaming out the truth silently inside
Dying a little bit every time
I wish this loud voice in my head could be silenced
But hate is love
And heaven is violence

You wrap around my body
You tie me up with your charm
You break down my defenses
I lower my guard
Infected my heart
Infected my skin
I cannot let you go
I'll always let you in
Your vines embrace me
They hold me tight
Your love is heaven
It gives me light
Unconditionally you love me despite my harsh words
You hold me high and put me first
Gentle kisses and beautiful green eyes
A green fever I cannot deny
My Dear
My Darling
My Counterpart
You carved out a special place in my herat

I danced for the king
And those of the court
To entertain the masses,
no matter the rapport
I laughed off the laughs
I laughed off the lies
Told myself they'll never see you cry
I danced on the tables
I danced on the chairs
I danced in great halls
I danced during grand affairs
Thought I was loved but it was a lie
A fool was all I was in their eyes
I wanted to be loved so I sold them all lies
But the fool was all I was in their eyes

You were the light when the dark came in
  You were the air when I came crashing down
  To soften the blow before I hit the ground
  And broken bones tell no lies
  And broken hearts hide deep inside
  To avoid the pain on the outside
You were the rain when the fire came
  You were the sound when I couldn't hear my name
  To awaken my bones and bring me to life
  From the dead where it was oh so quiet
  And broken bones tell no lies
  And broken hearts hide deep inside
  To silence the drumming
  To silence the thunder in my veins
  I remeber that love is blind
  The love I had for you burned me alive

Born with tragedy in his veins
Set his heart into flames
Ashes are all that remain
Hollow on the inside
But warm to the touch
Seeking a heart to devour
Through the world he scoured

Echos call to me
Distant voices longing
To fall on open ears
Traveling for miles
Traveling for years
Over land, over seas
Love is a yearning beast

Searching in chasms
Looking through bars
Running through deserts
Canvassing the stars
Chasing the moonlight under my feet
Following the rumble
Moving toward the beat
Of every heart in every chest
I am in a state of unrest
Moving toward the beat
Faster and faster go my feet
Love has turned me into a beast

Shed the demons from my breath
With every word I said
Aloud
Cold nights show the walking dead
With strangers lying in my bed
And regrets running through my head

Black Tongue
Moves the words around in my mouth
My heart
Wants the words to come out
My head
Knows what the words are about
Black Tongue
You wag about
But now I'm going to cut you out

Sinners are always yearning for salvation
All they need is an invitation
To be saved
From games I don't really want to play
Instead of leaving out the door I just stay
To let you walk on my grave
To **** me in every way

A girl waits for prince charming
To be carried to her on the wind
Arriving on a white horse
To quickly swoop in
To save her from the dark
To save her from demise
One glance at him will bring stars to her eyes
Her heart will beat louder than a drum
Her skin will turn white as if she’s seen a ghost
She will believe that he’s fallen from heaven
He will be hers and she will be his
Exchanging loving words through moments of bliss
Sometimes love is amiss
But not when you’re hit with cupid’s kiss

The words that I knew to be true
Once said from me to you
Echo throughout this hollow room
The life that I once knew
Ended in the fire that purified you
And left me to linger in this hollow room
Now a memory of who I used to be
And now a ghost
Still haunted by every lie
And now a memory of what once stood before me
And now a ghost
Now so hollow and lost in the shadows
Now just a ghost
In the in between for eternity
Every thought fades away from
Every word is a whisper that cannot be heard
I will fade to darkness
I will stay where I am
With no light in my hand
I will stay in darkness
I don’t even recognize myself
I don’t even know who I am
Can I be free from this hell?
Or will I become like the wind
Transparent and void
Will I hear my name again?
I don’t think so
For now just a ghost
Lost in the shadows
For eternity
I’m only a memory

From the sun
Born golden
Darkness in our hearts
The chosen
Water fills our lungs
Drowned in the sea
Words leave us as we pray
Saying what we were never meant to say
I am nothing
Living on faith and time
My heart’s a window
For the devil to creep inside

A daydreamer with eyes of blue
Untarnished by the world that kept you
Bathed in days of gold
Never knowing the cold
With his head in the clouds
Never once had to look down
Spinning all around
Reaching for the stars
Although you’re miles apart
Happiness floods your heart
A daydreamer
Floating so high
Flying with birds in the sky
One day realized
The world is not as it seems
Monsters lurk in the seams
And call to those whose hearts are dark
They ravage worlds and tear them apart
The daydreamer comes crashing down
Now reality is the only sound
And evil is abound

Shelter me in a deep blue
Hide me in the ocean
Warm me in the light of you
Turn me to gold
Take the stars from my eyes
To see through black
Guide me to the one who knew
I cannot turn back
For the screaming is behind me now
Bathed me in dark red
And I know what it is like not to exist
The spectrum entered my world and illuminated
Every dreary place I once hated
The spectrum entered my world and illuminated
My cold, clear skin

Been floating for so long
Head in the clouds
Never before did I have to look down
I’m not used to walking around
My legs are weak and buckle beneath me
And real life is now my reality
The home I knew has faded away from me
I don’t recognize this place
And I don’t recognize these faces
Even the air is different
The world I knew is in pieces
And I’m afraid
And I’m alone
I want so badly to return to my home
But I cannot and that’s okay
I think I am better off this way
I must venture on
I need to embrace this change
Although my life will never be the same
I must change
I must grow
No longer can I live my life in the shadows
Hoping for the day to come
Praying for things that may never come
So I will be strong
And I will hold on to my memories
But I cannot be who I used to be
All alone
And a long way from home
Is where I belong

We exchanged a breath to fill our lungs
So words would sound from our tongues
In darkness
We lied still and silent for so long
That we forgot where we belonged
And the faces that were so familiar are gone
Now we are surrounded by strangers
Tall and nightmarish figures
Stalking us like prey
Listening in on every word we say
The cold air brings the death of the day
And the strangers move in close
So I hold you in my arms
To let you know I will cause you no harm
I will not let them tear us apart
The words that once broke your heart
Will not chain you to the dark anymore
The light of the dawn is our savior
And the strangers will disappear
Along with the dark and along with our fear

I am alone in how I feel
My knees buckle and my blood runs cold
My heart drops to my feet
The words that I repeat in my head are the ones I wish you’d say to me
But I am alone in how I feel
The scenes that play in my mind are not real
But still I act them out as if the past can be changed
As if I can undo time
As if I can change your mind
Again I am alone in the way I feel
This love is a fabrication
A simple miscalculation
That has been synthesized
To soften the blow of rejection
When I am nothing close to perfection
I am alone
Because I am afraid to bare my soul
To tell secrets that cannot be untold
A burden that I must hold
Love has turned me to stone
In the darkness I am alone

I am fighting wars and winning battles
All for the sake to claim the heart I lost to shadows
Raising fists and raising arms to beat back the rising dark
Calling all who will defend and all who will fight to the very end
Looking to the heavens
Looking to the stars
Searching for the faith I lost along the way
Searching for the light to guide my feet
Marching with fierceness
And marching with fire
Scorching the ground with one desire
To hold what used beat
Inside my chest
My body is in a state of unrest
So build your armies
And your walls as high as the sky
I’ve come to end your reign
Over my mind and over my heart
You will not be the end of me
My king of nothing

White horses come to take me away
From the hollow song that repeats on and on
From the whispers that echo throughout the air
Spilling from mouths without a care
White horses come to take me away
From the many lies that I told myself to survive
From the hollow words that were promised to me
Crumble to pieces as they lose meaning
White horses come to take me away
From the sun that used to shine so bright for me
Now all that is left is a dreary light that fades to grey and hurts my eyes
White horses come to take me away
From the ones I loved the most
They hurt me more than they will ever know
And to them I am like a ghost
Cold and invisible
Although white horses come to take me away
The pain will still remain
In my heart and in mind for all time

I can't let you leave alive anyways
Cause in the back of my mind
I know you'll always be there
Hiding somewhere deep in my thoughts
Twisting, bending them until I break
And submit to you and your will
You are the dark
and I am what's left of the light
Trying to fight
but losing the battle
Trying to hide
but lost in your shadow
Trying to run
but continue to stumble
Everything is taking its toll on me
Everything is just what it seems
Your face, your eyes
Your deceiving little smile, your lies
My life was never what I thought it would be
But your death will always be
The day I let go and love myself
And the day I climb out of this hell

Broken heart
Broken mind
Falling stars tear the sky
Ask me anything
I bet I'll lie
To hide what I know to be true
From me and all of you
I hate me
Bury me, Bury me, Bury me
I can't breathe
with all this dirt surrounding me
I don't know what to say
Life is hard
my life anyway
Take me, break me
do with me as you will
I don't care
I don't care
I don't care
Life is unfair
How can you leave me here to die?
How come I can't reach the sky?
If you won't lift me
I'll just lie here bleeding

Old life dies as new life begins to breathe
Rising from the ashes of my former self
Becoming much more
than I ever expected to be
Transcending
Reaching the heavens
Screaming out all the pain
Living, never regretting past mistakes
Receiving
Believing in what the white light sends
Standing, fighting until the very end
Hoping when everything is all said and done
I will soar disappearing into the atmosphere
To never return again
Like the phoenix
I will never die again

I don't know why I always relapse
I just want to touch the sky
and never come back
I hate me
and every breath I breathe
Can't shake sudden urges to fall apart
My mind's cold
and my heart is the frostbitten snow
Rage consumes me
and thoughts of happiness fade
Into a world of my own
where dark spirits invade
They reign deep within me
I pray for death
but he won't accept my plea
Stitch back together my torn spirit
Make me whole again
But how can I ask such things of me
When I love the misery
Within me

Alone I break the silence
With a scream of intensity,
paralyzing this feeling
Numbing the pain
Tormenting my mind with thoughts
of twisted imagery
Alone I break the habit
By hiding myself from the world
And grieve to magnify the hate
To make myself believe I can't be saved
That salvation is for those who deserve it
And hell is a special place just for me
Everyday I wake
I don't want to be
But I know this feeling will never leave
Forevermore my life will take
so much away from me
Forevermore I will break

What you see on the outside is only superficial
My thoughts and feelings go deeper than you know
To love myself could be more than just a dream
One day I pray it will show itself to me
My mind goes blank
My heart's so numb
I feel nothing for myelf
No compassion, no mercy
and no feeling of love
I bleed like everyone else
I breathe like everyone else
And I'm no better than anyone
I'm equal to everyone
Like they are equal to me
In God's eyes it seems
I am vain sometimes
But I feel heartache all the time
I must be hurting
Can't you see?
Me, Myself,
and my perception of me

Keep it moving
There's nothing to see here

Why are you staring at me?
Fearing all the things I see
Lost in my own misery
Bound by the lies inside me
Why are you staring at me?
Tempted by what you see
Losing control to know me
Wanting all that's left of me
Why are you staring at me?
Nothing but my thoughts and me
Keep your thoughts to your self
Cause I don't care what you think

When I look back
I see you there
I'm haunted by your face
and yes the fear still remains
I'm haunted by your face
and yes the fear still remains
You don't know
how you've haunted me
I can't sleep
you're in my dreams
All your hands
they're all over me
Don't want to see your face
cause it's haunting me
Surrounded by the lies
and pain you've caused
I'm sitting in the dark
to hide from you
But you invade
my every thought
When I look back
I see you there
I'm haunted by your face
and yes the fear still remains
I'm haunted by your face
and yes the fear still remains
You don't know
how you've haunted me
I can't sleep
you're in my dreams
All your hands
they're all over me
Don't want to see your face
cause it's haunting me
It's haunting me

Life I can't take
I feel like I'm gonna break
Inside
I can't hide
In my mind you'll still be there
Beating me down without a care
Take all you can take
You make me try so hard
To please your every thought of me
I want to fall into a hole
So dark I cannot see the light
**** my feelings and spit on me
You see the pain in my eyes?
If I ever needed you
Now is when I need you the most
But you see only what you want
Your words have haunted me
more than you know
I can't trust you anymore
You make my pain immortal
It lasted through the years,
I've been on this earth
Drowning in a pool of heartache
There's no mercy
No relief to help me
Revive this shell that walks this plain
Shock this heart of mine
Let me breathe
Let me live again
Why do you make me feel this way?
I'm dying...
Hear me scream
and not a sound come out
I'm deaf, blind and numb
from pain I can't refuse
From me to you
You've had your fun
Now my life's on the line
The line I hang from
Why do you make me feel this way?
I'm dying...
Inside...

Broken soul
Twisted thoughts run through my mind
Lullabies try to silence this screaming inside
Shattered wings, torn halo
I can't fly anymore
Losing grip
I can't hold on to what I'm searching for
Innocence is gone
All hope has flown away
This path I live on
I'm circling this road again
Everything is stolen
Shadows fall upon me
Blinding the sun that I long to see
Burying the pain, deeper
Down in the darkest place of me
Holding the rage
Hating the thing that brought me here
Missing every part of the old me
Even though he was naive
Even he knew when to leave
All I want to do is bleed
Bleed it out and never return to me
I'm stolen, just  broken

Lying in this empty room
Nothing's here
except the silent sound of darkness
I refrain from speaking
so I can't break the silence
Breathing in and out
Everything in me wants to scream out
But I can't cause I'm broken
Everthing in me
Why can't I be put back together again?
Is this how my life will end?
No longer can I pretend
That I am who I used to be
When I know the truth
It lies deep down within me
It wakes with me every morning
And breathes as I breathe
I know it won't cease to be
My truth will be the death of me

I stand here hollow
Screaming
Deafened by the sound
Crying
Blood streaming down my face
Memories of broken innocence,
cannot be erased
Angry with myself for falling to the ground
Giving up,
Not putting up a fight
Easily defeated
Lost in endless night
Crashing down in flames,
with no relief from the pain
Nothing and no one to catch me
Free falling
Until I meet the end of my journey
Predestined fate awaits
Twists and turns my life takes
Forever in hell is where I'll stay
For sins are crimes
And I must pay
With torture
My life must taste
For one day,
One moment, rapes everything from me
And I am left with nothing
For I feel nothing
And I am nothing

Every morning I awake is another breath, I wish I didn't take. And no one can convince me otherwise. You can say there's so much more. In life, that's worth living for. But I can't seem to believe you. I fall away. Farther everyday. I can't see past what's in front of me. In life's embrace. This world is a crowded place... And I'm just passing through it. Confined to an empty space... I know my spirit feels the same way... And he cannot stay here... I used to want to have someone, to love and share the path that I am on... But how can I, when I don't love me... Love is just an empty word. Especially when we don't know what real love is and I believe that more than ever... God is love and he knows me, in and out and everything that runs through my head... I asked Him to let me die today... But no reply I guess I have to stay... And I'm passing through
passing through...
Flying away...
Passing through
Passing through
Passing away...

Broken soul
Silent by nature
Spewing malicious words in anger
Spiraling downward in a fit of rage
Destroying everything in its path
Making sure there's nothing left to stand
Casting away every helping hand
Self-destruction is the plan
Secluding myself in a room,
with no doors or windows
Lying on the floor,
the breathing slows
Thumbing through the memories
All my pain and fault I see
This broken soul lies deep in me
Commit me to the ground so I can be
Alone in a dirt room
Lifeless
Bring me to serenity
One step closer to heaven
At peace...

Tell me if I'll survive this tragedy
Will I be more than just a casualty?
For this war in me is raging
Ripping me in half
I can't find a safe haven,
in which to hide
All the hate in me makes me cry
Everyday I just want to die
Try to clear my mind but,
thoughts of suicide
It won't even feel like...
I'm taking a life
Everything in me has already died
Surpress all the hurtful memories
Forced into the darkness deep in me
Bury it until it kills me
Bury it until they bury me