Feeling Low;
Not sure if it's any lower than before.

Heavy Expectations;
Weights strapped to backs of unwilling divers.

Can't ascend too quickly for fear of the bends.
Can't descend indefinitely or I'll never resurface again.

It's unavoidable some say;
Persuaded paths led me the furthest I've ever been away.

Just one tree in the forest of many;
Suspended solitary in swaying breeze
Waiting to be turned into a magazine.

Apathy is contagious,
It slips through lips.

Effortlessly navigates winding channels
Discerning certain sweet spots.

Sapping any will as its own.
Lingering, it never deteriorates,
Every breath bringing in more.

I never cared much for catching water drops
So now I don't try.

Into each life some rain must fall
Too much,Too much has fallen already.

When the world is ****
People are quick to place blame;
"You caused this!" They exclaim.

For centuries small weights accumulate:
Every time someone had to do something they didn't appreciate.
Every time someone lost something that can't be replaced.

My back accepts their momentary complaints.
Their discomfort soon passes or they find another distraction;
However it has yet to leave me.

If I decided things would be this way,
If a **** world is the product of all my decisions,
Then as a creator did I make a mistake?

In creating you, that is.

I'm wondering now if
Tomorrow, when I wake up
I'll forget this day ever happened.

Its wake of consequence absently
Sounded in white noise voice,
Soft whispers of a great taboo.

Pathological History:
Even for Me there were nice things

Sociopath Society:
Persuaded subtle rejections of pain

How dense can conventional apparatus be?
Contriving comfortable ignorance,
An inconvenient dream.

Postured hope urgently praying for
Well behaved inevitable endings.

Fittingly meticulous, finicky
Precisely mitigating routine
Tracing excessively
Over cornered mezzanine

Stray penciled lines
Candidly contrived
Archaic dossier
Balanced centers
Unavoidably erase

Guiltily lost the way
Confused compass oscillates
Irregularly unanticipated
Perpetually transitory

Tender heart insecurity
Ego sensitivities in vain glory
Sacrificed arrogance dignity
On the day of defeat

It's nice to have temporary friends again, when they decide to visit.
Sharing stories of underwater animals from a
Viewpoint of an observer blowing bubbles.
A fish that defends its purple eggs till the death.
Sea turtles still breathe air, it seems like such a hassle.
I just want to feel weightless;
Into vacant space.

Still learning what can people can amount to:

Blurry myths of sadness anxiety
Letting go of trick happiness
Hype trend excitement
Constant detail examining
Hummingbird heart beating passion
Assumed reactions endless distractions
Occupy one-track minds
Recycling uninspired questions.

Sagacious in Patience
The Hollow and Empty kind
Finding Solitude priceless
Drifting images of third-eye kind;
I tried at least I thought I did.

              I don't
want to break;
             Silenced Glass.

Lucid Summer dream
Moon shines brightly, a beacon
The lone white balloon

Hot Sun and Cold Beer
Valley Wind blows twin eyes dry
Grand Mountains vibrate

Summer Night stillness
Poised Glass swimming pool surface
Eager to shatter