It’s just
You were one of the few people who helped me
When I really ******* needed it
You never once ditched me
Or made me feel like I was bothering you
So why now
Everything has changed?
Is it just me?
What happened to you?
It’s just hard to forget the ones
Who helped you in a way you can’t repay
Who didn’t let you slip away
If you didn’t let me before
Why are you now

I am a vicious combination of too many wrongs and too few rights.
I am a toxic mixture of hatred and depression that will leave you sick to your stomach.
I am the acid that melts castles to the ground, and unfortunately, I am what melted those castles together in the first place.
I am weak cement and crumble under pressure.
I am everything I wish I wasn't.
And my greatest fear is becoming more self-aware.