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Chris T Feb 2014
(if i pretend) it doesn't hurt (it might stop hurting)
(It really isn't good advice.)
Chris T Feb 2014
it's been two nights and at this same hour
i've thought about you and felt empty.
i go on looking for you only
to see again that your picture is
gone and you're gone and i'm alone for
good this time. i expect every
night to be the night when we'll make up
and go back to how it was. god i
miss your voice and face and eyes but what
i miss the most is that smile that'd fix
any bad feelings lurking about.
i need it now more than ever. you.
(but i don't blame you for wanting to
end whatever it was i thought we
were having. i'm not angry i just
miss you too much to put into words)
Chris T Feb 2014
sister:
you smile too much
and i
hope that doesn't change
because
if there's one thing
i'll tell
you is that life
is a
game with so few
winners.
so smile, don't stop
for me
or anyone,
smile and
win it for us,
'cause hon',
big bro has gone
and lost.
Eh.
Chris T Feb 2014
later i will            write.
                              for
now, tv rot my     brain.
hehehe lazy
Chris T Feb 2014
You majored in breaking hearts
at the university of shattering dreams
and ****, you got far in there,
expert, PhD level, and I was just
another research paper in your
continuous studies for whatever
magazine it is you publish in.
I knew I was just a subject
ready to be learnt and thrashed
after a semester but i remained a hopeless slave.
to your thinking of
'credit approved credit forgotten'
you remained loyal to the end
and once this textbook was read
I was sold and you moved on
to the next big requirement.
and boy I should've listened
to those with experience,
all those people that'd been broken,
the ones that'd raised their voice
but I was deaf to their shouts,
now I'm nowhere, somehow still enslaved
by those phantom white chains you call hands
and I can't find the keys. I guess I'm hooked,
sick as that is, to your poison, that drug,
while some dealt *** you were giving out
false love and fake attention,
it made me feel like I'd found meaning
but it was all a bad trip, I'm an addict
to that unknown cause and I was happy
to go along with and I abused it
and I can't get off the roller coaster feel.
The rush is gone replaced with sudden fits
of emptiness, my dealer is gone: you're gone,
and I'm dissipating away too.
I traded everything to be apart of you
and you're graduating Magna *** Laude
while I'm some random drop out.
Well, congratulations and good luck,
the future is bright for students like you.
I don't know what i'm trying to say. I'm confused with all these feelings in my head. THIS IS A DRAFT. Not sure if i'm done here.
Chris T Feb 2014
i've dreamt of you
for the past 5 nights.
that sunshine hair and
that almond milk skin

won't let me be.

i'm tired of kissing
your ruby lips and
holding that body
tight in these dreams that

won't let me be.

the fact that i can't
run these fingers down
that goddess back of
yours makes me mad. it

won't let me be.

every night your
angel face appears
and your angel voice
says "i love you" and

i can't handle it.
you're so far
from me
and
i can't
have you. it's
all so twisted.
Wrote it like 2 weeks ago?
Chris T Feb 2014
A sealed letter
rested on
a rocking chair
at a house
that overlooked
a blue sea.

The ink recent
black and wet
waited for the
young man to
come and read it.
Sea foam rose.

And the rocks kissed
by the soft
lips of the sea,
someone joined
their *******
forever.

The letter read
"...I'm sorry..."
and the young man
wept on that
porch, on that chair.
"...Goodbye, love".
(Not as well as i hoped for)
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