Cry out your heart while it pumps blood out your eyes.
We've both been ripped apart and sewn together with
eachother's parts. Now your blood flows through me;
slithering through my veins like snakes from hell.

I can only hope that (my) life
doesn't wind out of control
or wind up killing me dead
(er) than a doornail to a door
to someplace better than anyplace
but here.
I have to keep the faith.
(in myself and my fellow humans)
We don't know any better
so we judge those
who don't know
any better.
(Anyone can do better.)

Times have changed;
we're not so topsy-turvey.
Well calculated always,
cautious in all ways.
Take a deep breath (and)
a deep dive through
the eyeball into the mind.
Float around forever;
bouncing off my
thoughts & ideas.
Swim, little mermaid.

I can feel the grinding
   (tearing and ripping)
             (apart)
my nervous system.
Out here in this deep black;
not a soul speaks back
to the whispers or the shouts.

I've been lost before,
but never past the confines
of my own imagination.
I am (lost) outside.

Sometimes it's better to sit and wait;
there's too much weight on the strings
in that mind of mine.
I've seen too much. (too fast)
I haven't sat long enough
to make any of it last.
(You've ran past.)

I've spent a night in the woods;
laying on a bench, looking at
meteors,
    thinking of the coulds and shoulds.

I've lit more campfires than I can count.
                             (I've never lit one with you)
I've climbed trees; dead, rotting trees.
Skipping rocks and laying out creek
soaked socks to dry, but I've never waded in
the water with (you) my hands in the air,
hooting and hollering at the stars.
I wish each day had been ours.
(as well)

(light candles and stare at the flames)
Black dots blot out your face.