Sometimes,
I'm not where I want to be.

Sometimes,
I see things I don't want to see

Sometimes,
I hear things I don't want hear

Sometimes,
I say things that shouldn't be said

Sometimes,
I think thoughts that don't need to be thought

Sometimes,
I wish for things I can't have

Sometimes,
I follow instead of lead

Sometimes

We are not free
We are slaves to the system
When we as for help
You just pretend to listen
But when we speak out
We as individuals are shut put

So go ahead and tell me where you went to college
Looking down the barrel of a loaded gun, which is your knowledge
You tell me that I don't have potential
I don't give a **** about your ******* credentials

But still
You shove it down my throat
expecting me not to choke
you expect me to listen to you
when you won't even listen to me

Now here I am

What if you heard that the next day I chose the rope instead of the books
Do you feel how wrong this looks
What would you do then?
Would you still be sipping drinks in your den
Or would you realized that you should have handed me a piece of paper and a pen

STILL
You continue to feed the flame

So I say **** the system
They won't listen

Yet again
I have more thoughts

I looked into your eyes
You are in love
So in love
You can't look away

I hear your voice
You are in love
So in love
Your voice stutters

I feel your touch
You are in love
So in love
Your hands shake

I hear your breath
You are in love
So in love
Your breathing becomes faint

I feel your body
You are in love
So in love
Your body comes closer everytime we touch

I listen to your words
You are in love
So in love
You say you love me

I feel your heart beat
You are in love
So in love
We are the same

We are in love

So in love

It drives us insane

I'm not sure why I think this way
But it seems to be the only way I think
There is no right or wrong
No left or right
No up or down

My mind is lost
In a pool of thought
No one knows the thoughts I've thought
No one but me
And I leave it that way

I silently wish for a new day
But they are all the same
Same people
Same places
Same stuff
Everyday

And my mind continues
Pondering
Wondering
loosing itself in its own though

I try to grasp onto the slight hope
Of what I call reality
The only reality I will know
The light that once was shined
Through the darkness

I begin to miss that light
that light that brought me happiness
joy
and love

Now I am here
In the darkness
The darkness of my reality
The only thing I will ever know

The things I once knew
Are now lost
Old habits begin to start

And slowly
My mind
Becomes darker
darker than absolute black

And there is nothing.