i'm so sick
of hearing you
apologize.

if you
come to me
crying
begging for my forgiveness
and telling me
you're the reason
that i am
****** up
i will
punch
you
in
your
*******
face.

grow up.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I love you and I thought you knew that.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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What happened to the plans we made?

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Your mother called me today.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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You never did your half of the dishes.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Thank you. For everything. I mean it.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Why would you do this to me?

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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*******. You took everything away from me! Everything!

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I'm sorry. Please come back.

beep
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beep

Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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My sheets don't smell like you anymore.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Not even drugs make me happy anymore. You took everything. I hope you know that.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so ******* much.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I love you. I do. I always will. I promise. ****.

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beep

Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so much.

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Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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Your sister is shutting off this phone and I don't know what I'll be able to do if I can't call you.

beep
beep
beep

Hey, it's me. You know what to do after the beep, so do it!

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I miss you so ******* much. I visited your grave today. I can't believe I've survived fifteen days without you.

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The number you have dialed is not in service. Please check the number and dial again. Good-bye.

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I'll hear your voice again tomorrow. I love you. I'll see you soon.

morning cigarettes
never will be enough to
ignite a lost soul

Home was having my best friend
hold my hair back
because I'd had one too many shots.

Home was listening to him
play a combination of notes
that told the stories of lovers' pasts.

Home was kissing a beautiful dark-haired girl
and laughing because
her saliva tasted like sativa.

Home was a place of sunshine,
peasant skirts, reggae.
Boys covered in dreadlocks smiling up at me from their yoga.

Home was falling asleep
on Vicodin
and sadness.

but now I am just lost.

when my lips touched yours i knew it was a lie
but you never let me taste the truth.

when i saw you, my thrilled, sparkling eyes
never matched your red, faded ones.

when i traced the curves of your body
you moaned harder than you should have.

when you touched me
i finally felt right

but you were never there when you were with me
so i know that i am still wrong.

when my lips touched yours i knew you were a lie
but all i ever gave you was the truth.

I'm shooting people again
And ignoring your texts
Staring into an alternate reality
Trying to forget

I don't even ******* like this game

I took 3 Aspirins
I said I was hurting
A pathetic excuse for trying to numb my thoughts
It didn't work