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Cheyanne Lynn Apr 2013
I cant put it into words about how i feel. It's like trying to describe the taste of water I mean, I don't know what it is about you but when I look at you I'm home. You took all that sadness away from me and gave me hope. I'm not sure where'd I would be without you but I'm glad you stuck around. The ropes that used to hold me down, they're not there anymore. You cut right through and helped me out of that mess and then made me fall more and more in love with you. You make my world so different from what it was before. Your sole presence changed me so much in a small amount of time. I'm so thankful for that. And now that I know how much you love me there is no way I'm going back in that darkness I once called 'home' . With just one smile my way you can change my day.

You love fiercely and I love that. Even with all my bitterness and stupidity you saw past that and loved me for me. I know that no matter what happens you'll be there .You've always been there for me.

Every time I think of you, hear your name being said or I see something that has to do with you it makes the butterflies in my stomach flutter their wings so much I don't know what to do when I'm around except smile like an idiot. A smile I cannot control.

You own my heart and of that I'm sure. I can't deny it.

I could go on for eons with the many things that make me happy when I'm with you. Lists and lists of all the ways you make me smile.

Nights like these I think back and I ask myself this: " How could someone as perfect as him love someone as broken as me?" And then I remember every thing you said to me and how many times you've made me smile and I don't worry anymore. I know that you're going to stick around, but I'm always so worried you're going to leave..... I'm just glad I finally found someone I can be myself around.
Cheyanne Lynn Apr 2013
Here's to you.
Another year with you gone.
I miss my best friend!
You were supposed to be there for me.
We were the three best friends.
I remember in music class you  used to love "trapping" me in your legs.
I miss that.
I miss the time we went down to lake all because you wanted to see me.
You told me to go down there so I did. I drove myself just to see you before you left.
We spent the day together and then you left. you left for two weeks without talking to me.
When you came home you said you were sorry and that you told your family about me.
At the end of the Summer you came back into my life.
You were with your other best friend. You guys are like brothers.
I invited you to my sisters party and you came. You almost spent the night but you didn't.
You decided to leave and he stayed. He stayed because he cared
You left me. Again.
I never understood why.
In the middle of January you came back.
You spent yet another day with me.
It was freezing cold and I asked you to come to lake. I asked this time. And you came.
We had to go in town to get something and on the way you grabbed my hand.
That was the first time in a long time I felt safe.
But that all changed.
Months went by and I kept asking myself why? Why do I let you do this to me? Why do you keep coming in and out of my life?
What happened to the person I used to call my best friend?
He's not there anymore and I miss him.
No, I don't want to get back with you.
I have a boyfriend and I'm happy with him.
I just want our friendship back.
I want what we had the first day you came into my life
I want that back.
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
When it comes to me being a part of your world it's like I don't even exist unless I'm at the rink.
You asked me to hang out and yet you were always with her having "Some big plans"
You knew that it was wrong yet you did nothing.
Do you ever stop and think " Could this have ended differently?" No, because you don't think.
I wanted this to finally be right, i thought I was finally happy.
Even your best friend thinks that this isn't okay,
He's been on my side and is there for me more than you.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Memories wander in the back of her head.
The darkness fills her more than ever.
Her words are silent.
She took a wrong turn in the stars above
She's living now, but slowly breaking
Start new with her.
Dance with her until all the bad things disappear.
Kiss her until the good memories come back
Don't leave the young child anymore
Let her rest easy in your arms
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
I don't know what it was
That made me love you
Or  what it was that made you
Hate me the way you do
I remember what you said
And compare it to what you did
And it never made sense

You were there
And then you weren't

You had my heart
And I had yours
You said it was love
And so I stayed

Maybe it was too much
Maybe it wasn't enough

But I will never forget
The way you made me feel
Like I was everything
And I will never forget
The way you made me feel
Like I was nothing
By: Antonio M Arce
1.0k · Feb 2013
I can't take this
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
Is this what we've become?
I don't want to feel this way because I know it won't work.
I love you but it's so wrong and I can't fix anything anymore.
I need your help and this isn't cutting it.
I was there for you when you needed me.
Now it's your turn..
1.0k · Oct 2013
Learning to Love
Cheyanne Lynn Oct 2013
If I ask you what you love the answers will likely roll off your tounge
You love to read,
you love to write,
you love to sing,
you love dogs,
tattoos music,
Your mom,
your brother,
your father,
your sister,
your best friend.
How long would this list have to go on and on for before you said I love myself?
994 · Feb 2013
We are more than anything.
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
The fact of the matter is,
I cared, I still do and always will.
You're mine and I'm never letting that go.
I don't care where life takes us I just want you there with me.
I wouldn't want it any other way.
993 · Jan 2014
Jealousy is a sin.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2014
Hearing that name come out of your mouth is like nails on a chalkboard.
irritating.
It happens all the time.
Obviously I let it slide because she's "just a friend".
None the less it still hurts.  
I mean I should be used to it by now but do you even realize what something like that does to a girl like me?
I want to be okay with this, I really do.
But I just  can't.
I can't not be the person I am.
It's my thing.
I care to much.
But I care a lot about you.
I love you.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
It's that overbearing feeling where you just can't let go.
It takes over your whole mind and you stop breathing.
Why are you letting yourself do this?
You still love him don't you?
Don't wait around for him to come back and get you.
You, yourself are the only powerful force in this relationship.
Keep that time in your mind. Even if it is long.
In the end it'll be worth it.
876 · Jan 2013
Why?
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Look what you've done.
How could you do it?
You let her imagination slip into emotion
She's broken, you can't even tell.
She was there for you, you left
Why would you break such a pretty youthful heart?
Tell me she was wrong to believe something innocent
She's sixteen now.
She wants to make her own decisions, She can't
Help her, just man up.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
I've tried so hard to mend the broken pieces.
All I've got is a broken heart and wasted memories .
You need to try.
I'll wait forever and a day if that's what it's going to take.
I've cried for so many nights.
I don't know what I did but I want you back.
I need you now more than anything.
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
It's like you're here and then you're not,
I feel as if I finally have you back,
but you keep disappearing with a new girl every week.
Do you know how that feels?
You act as if nothings wrong when it really is and you just can't see it.
You don't even notice if I'm okay anymore and you just assume I am.
I just want you back for real.
The brother I know and love and care about.
Where did you go wrong?
Just tell me what happened.
I love you.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
At times I push people away
I feel so empty and alone.
I don't  have all these high expectations.
I just want to trust someone.
I've locked my feelings away
It's eating me alive.
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2013
But see i know you could be a better person than this
I won't hold you to your past
That's not something I could do
I have one too.
We'd be good together I swear.
Please, can we try one time?
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You know that feeling?
When your so in love that you can feel your heart skip a beat,
Your chest feels like it's being crushed  right there in front of you
You've lost the love you loved the most, It's mind blowing
He was apart of you
he meant something to you and now it's gone
One stupid mistake cost you everything.
What are you to do now?
Did he ever truly care about you or was it just a game?
778 · Jan 2013
That's the worst feeling.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
I know you're going to be okay.
You told me so yourself.
But that pain, it hurts more than anything.
I need you ***.
Please come home to me...
747 · Jan 2013
6-5-4-3-2-1...
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Six seconds.
That's all it took for me to fall.
I fell hard to.
It wasn't fair what you did.
But I trusted you.
I loved you and now you don't know your feelings
What happened to you?
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
The way he makes me feel is like trying to describe water
I don't feel so empty anymore.
I'm starting to breathe again and it's all because of you
I don't know how to say thank you enough times.
You have changed me for the better.
731 · Jan 2013
Just go with it
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You try so hard to be like them
to have the perfect boyfriend.
the perfect grades, perfect everything
But that's not how it works sweetie.
You need to stop pushing.
You're losing everything.
I know what it's like.
I've forgotten what it feels like to be loved
You don't have to.
Everything will be okay.
679 · Jan 2013
Time
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
6:30
You start the day barely knowing whats going to happen
7:20
You're off to work. Perks of being 15
8:05
You're outside in that bitter air. You can't breathe.
9:15
You're back inside that warm building
10:02
Outside again. This time, less frigid.
11:30
Break time for the kiddos. You;re glad it's warm.
11:45
Once again outside. Last morning run.
12:10
Finally. Your break time. He runs out for you.
1:30
You don;' have a lesson. You free ride.
2:10
Lift rides and runs with someone new. I Love my job.
2:46
Check in
3:30
the day is almost over.
3:45
Debrief. The day is officially over.
676 · Jan 2013
Lessons In Love
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
I know I made a mistake, everyone does.
I just want you to know, I love you
More than Romeo loves Juliet.
You are the anchor that keeps me guarded
Never change
You told me to always look ahead
Never look back
You said we were friends
Never forget that
659 · Jan 2013
Tonight it's all yours.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Tonight is the night where you put your all into it.
You can finally be back out there.
You will try your hardest and you will accomplish something.
I believe in you.
Your stronger than everyone out there.
Do this for me,
Take
Them
Out.
635 · Jan 2013
Thank you
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
How did you do it?
You finally got her back in your realm again.
Don't mess this up.
You brought her happiness back
You don't realize how much better she is.
No more crying.
You broke her walls down again
You fixed her.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
He left you didn't he?
He gave you the world and then vanished.
He meant the world to you and you meant nothing.
That one time in the hallway. That's gone.
You can't get it back
But you want to.
He found someone else
It's not right though.
Fix it.
623 · Feb 2015
That's How I See It
Cheyanne Lynn Feb 2015
My heart
it beats at a steady pace,
but when I see you it leaps off the charts

That was then,
Now,
It’s a different and new feeling,
It keeps building up inside me.

When I see you,
I see secrets and mysteries as dark as the night,
I’ve never seen them before,
They’re hidden away like the depths of the ocean,
I’d like to find them.

I see the way you get angry,
I see how you bring yourself down when it's not your fault.
I don’t see the old you anymore,
I see someone new.

It’s not just you though.
I feel your pain.
I feel your guilt.
I feel the different person that I have now become,
I have been opened to a new light,
Seen a new life.

All that we have now is
Silence.
It’s a frustrating silence,
That takes away a part of me
Every single day.
This silence,
Is deafening
622 · Jan 2013
Dying Inside
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
That tear falls from her face like snow in the middle of Winter
You can't hear neither nor care about it either.
You could wipe it away, She wished you would
But you cannot.
Never let your emotions cloud your judgment
It isn't fair to her
She wants you, just doesn't deserve you.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You see that girl over there,
With the bright smile?
You gave her that.
You gave her, her childhood back.
Listen closely now,
This isn't the whole story, oh no.
It's not that simple.
She's afraid and lonely
But you're watching over her.
Your worth it and so is she.
594 · Jan 2013
Know This
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You can really understand a person at night
all those memories come rushing back to you like a bat out of hell. It hurts I know. I've been there.
Late night talks with your "best friend",
Those heart to hearts you love so much.
You can become closer if you want to. You just have to trust them first.
586 · Jan 2013
You Own It. It's Yours.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You walk in there, you own it.
just lay it out there for everyone to witness it.
Don't look at that board. You know you've won.
Calm down.
it's trying to hurt you.
You're bigger than that
Don't let someone get you down over that.
No one can take that from you..
It's your rink, It's your sport, it's your night.
563 · Jan 2013
Just know this, Time flies
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
You're the man face the long road ahead
It was wound for you
Tell new stories about things never seen
hold on to old thoughts.
You can do this
Those white years you're so worried about?
It's sweet, You end up with her.
Your best friend.
Try for her.
557 · Jan 2013
Where Did You Go?
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Where are you ....
I needed you, you left. I'm lost to the winds. A kite to your memory.
I needed someone to hold me, tell me it’s gonna be okay..
but you were gone like the Summer
I needed someone who would hold me wipe my tears, my fears away..  who wont give up on me get mad, get pushed to far and fall back into bad habits.. Someone who really understands…
You fade in my mind as the days go by
I thought that was you in my dream the other night
But where are you right now? Just show me you care.
557 · Jan 2013
Just Jump
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
“We never fall, we always jump”
Wise words from someone who was broken in the past.
It takes one to know one right?
I know that pain. You never want to take it slow. You jump instead. It's more of a rush.
539 · Jan 2013
She's Yours.
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
Your moments fleeting away from you
Go on, grab it.
You know you need it in your life
It's your support system
You'll always crave it when you least expect it,
Hold on to her.
She's always been there
She's not going anywhere either.
513 · Jan 2013
Only 15
Cheyanne Lynn Jan 2013
I worry about you a lot more than a fifteen year old should.
Is it ridiculous, I know it’s unrealistic and stupid. 
It’s just how I feel, I guess. I’m sorry.
Late night thinks are the worst thinks. 
I hope you’re doing well.

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