I searched for your love
Down the wishing well
Every last coin
All I was worth
Tossed
Invested in hope
You went from a symphony of white noise
To a plague of space in my heart
I was so thirsty for you
I guzzled you down
Tizzy and drunk on your silence
And for my thirst
It never did quench
Dry mouthed
And alone
I drowned in the idea of you x

You fought your timeless crusade
only in search of a point of surrender
To be eased of the mindlessness
Rid of your deepest qualms
You fought almost to the death
With an army of nothingness
with invisible soldiers
who’s bullets have torn you apart
You fought valiantly
for all that you already had x

I tripped over you yesterday,
The floor became lost,
The sky’s became dark as you spoke of your qualms,
In the night your love was tossed.

I cared for you so much that I fell in my sleep,
Down a well of pity I cried for your wellbeing,
I worried the moon with my midnight shaking of fists.

Ive prayed for your safety,
I know you play in the drain,
Ill still care for your heart forever,
However much you smirk at the pain.

Tho you scream in the hall,
Ill still care for your noise,
But from distance,  
in all of my love **

My love bled for hers,
From Somewhere deep,
yet nowhere found!
And now all that’s left,
A child stood brandishing swords,
Defending his beaten heart,
Giving us a breath in the space we never wanted.
I always loved her
But my greatest fear,
What if she loved me?
Truly!
Then where would I run?

A moon milky white,
tossed shimmers to the trees.

The branches danced modestly,
As the leaves then whispered to the breeze.

Clouds lined with silver look to be sketched out of ash,
As brashly strewn sequins dance on black glass! X

Deep in the bowels of my pulsing heart there is winter,
A derelict house without doors,
A photograph battered and stained.

My fists grip thistles as I fear these tepid reaches of peace,
clutching at the last thrown thread.
But as the dead wind meekly blows I hear your voice,
I see you,
Your hands look weathered but your eyes true,
always true.
For a brief moment you’re here, and in this moment I’m free.

I crave your warm fluid love,
At war with your absence I balance on sharpened edges.
For In this winter your fire still burns,
And in this jailhouse of grief I will await my release,
To come and search the heavens to find you.

I long for your nostalgic scent,
Like the pine needles in the forest,
Like the bluebells in spring,
Your smile turns rock to rubble,
Your presence is my shelter,
The flame in my deepest winter **

For mum ❤️