My emotions are alive
But I suppress, I repress
It's all I know how to do
I've been doing it my whole life

My heart is in pain
It's hurting and it's crying
For the warmth of its twin flame
To align our souls in eternal embrace

Cold as the night swallowing the sky
The heart transforms from fire to ice
Burning passions that fueled the soul are nothing but ashes and dust
Senses are blurred and meaningless days go by through a mind unaware
Of the vibrating beauty this Earth bleeds out

Artificial highs and natural lows become steady waves in rhythm
Intoxicating remedies that alleviate the symptoms but never fulfill
The cure is love and love alone
Alone in love to love alone
Because first it is us we must trust
To be truly content with everything else and set the heart ablaze again

Noble-hearted woman
Fiercely loyal to her family
Possessing a wisdom far superior to us all
Carefully shaped through challenging experiences
Her hardships display her bravery and strength
Naturally selfless, sacrificing everything
Reaping what she sows, a luscious green forest continuing to grow
She's a God-fearing soul embodying pure love
I can only dream of one day to be
Half the woman she is today

A rush of pending dread washed over me
Drowning out my feelings to numbness
The moment you said you finally found someone

A supersonic boom burst inside me
The quiet external impact echoed and rang
So deafening against the chambers of my heart
Leaving nothing behind but a cratered imprint - a hollow emptiness

Perhaps there is meaning behind our dreams
A preparation for the inevitable

I feel the love but I'm still unhappy
Hardening of the heart, a dulling of hopes
Beats too loud, for the wrong possessor
Someday I'll get it right, someday I'll make you proud

You're the star of my sky
Illuminating my darkness
The fire that ignites my soul...the warmth that courses through my body You're my only sun; The brightest burning light in this world

My soul still longs for the seal to this void
Singing sad songs of dark loneliness
You're everywhere and nowhere
Unconsciously conscious
Between dreams and reality where I see you again
But it's all from me and not from you
This time and effort that wastes away
Because to you I'm just a drop in your magnificent sea
But to me you are the moon: master of the tides that succumb to your love

Our world is strung by sorrowful tales
Hovered in space, yet buried by void:
The desolate shells we seek refugee in
That lovers defy through melody highs
Ringing true chords of sweet harmony

Intricate lives weave into the mess
Testing the spiraling web of design
Perfectly made to spin chaotically  
Fortified through the quality thread

Friends, like lovers, float by in song
Crafting a colorful tune in suspense
Splattering beauty to enrich the peace
Completing the ultimate symphony piece

How persistent those thoughts that keep haunting me are
Tainting and shattering my glimpses of happiness
Uncontrollably surfacing with the worst possible timing
Breaking my spirit again and again
What I would do to forget those nightmares
Unfolding and replaying in pure consciousness
Those unwanted thoughts can't be cast away
I long for the day I can obliterate them all
Only then will I be free to love freely