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cherma berdida Jul 2015
It was February 14,
When you promised me one thing
That you are gonna be mine
Till the end of time.

That day alone you had become my companion
I knew then, I would never be alone
You showed me so much care
A love that no one can compare

But I guess I was wrong
Because now it is February 14
And I am attending your wedding
With another groom
My mentor spoke to me of two rivals,
Once, they had been friends in some distant past.
But the years have eaten their love and made grudges manifest.
|The two shattered into broken glass

To my wise master I asked only one,
One question... In all my range.
One question I asked:
“What changed?”

In the outskirts, at the home of my daughter
Where you can stare at the stars or passing cars
None more brighter than the other,
We share memories of my grandmother.
In the photographs, she looks so much younger.
Not frail, but a fighter, lover and saintly|

To me, she asks plainly,
One question, and one question only.
Sifting through the ages of years past:
“What Changed?”

At the kitchen table, feeling inadequate,
My lover screaming and frustrated,
I recall memories when we had been intimate.
Times when movement was made for desire and not duty
|A calendar of nights left in confused abstinence

I interrupt.
She delays rage.
I beg,
“What Changed?”

_

In the last few hours of night
The dawn reaches me at last.
I had locked moments-
Literal seconds of time as the truth.
But it was always changing
In flux and morphing.
Turning into something new
Just for a moment, and then on again
“What Changed?”
Everything.
Always.
cherma berdida Jul 2015
I hate myself for loving you.
I hate myself  for caring for you.
And I hate myself for being a holy fool
That had been fallen in-love with JUDAS
But what can I do?
If in your arms...
My heart smiles
cherma berdida Jul 2015
Joy, a friend of mine way back before
Now a person, I don't know anymore
Smile, a work that, I used to do
Now a household chore that I don't do

I don't know what happened
Why did I forget those things
Maybe because I am still carrying those burden
That is why I am still feeling the pain

If only I can go back to the past
And correct the mistakes we did
Maybe I can smile again
Without a sign of any pain
cherma berdida Jul 2015
Someday...
I will be living happy each day
With no doubts, regrets nor vain.

Someday...
I can reach the stars above
The shining one and be one of them.

But for now, let that someday
Remains an unread history
But, I know that someday will come..

Someday...
cherma berdida Jul 2015
I look into your eyes
To see what it hides
Loneliness is what I see inside
I tried not to care
But every time you are near
I just wish, I can lessen the burden
To ease pain.
But what can I do?
If I myself too suffers.
cherma berdida Jul 2015
Every night and day
I tried to take away
This feeling that is killing me softly
Yet making me gay.

Every time you are near
My heart shivers
I hope to you it does not matter
But it seems you don't care.

If only my heart can tell you
What does it really wanna do
Would you go?
Or just say "I LOVE YOU"

— The End —