I torcher myself everyday, thinking who would ever love me.
I'm broken inside, with no way of healing myself.
My heart is shattered into a million pieces and feel as though my soul is lost.
I want someone who will love me for who I am, with all my flaws and mistakes.
Who would heal my broken heart and find my soul.
But who would ever love me, for just me.
I want someone who won't abuse me, is that so wrong.
Someone who is kind, gentle, sweet, loving and caring.
Who would ever love me though, when I'm just a shell of who I once was.

You were my lover and my best friend,
Why did it even have to end.
I loved you with all my heart,
But then it all fell apart.
Maybe it was just fate,
I thought you were my soulmate.
I made many mistakes,
Why do I have to be so fake.
I wish I could have been strong,
I was so, so wrong.
Why is it hard for me to lust,
And even harder for me to trust.
Why do I keep everything bottled up inside,
Maybe I should just run away and hide.
Why can't I find a place to belong,
Is that so wrong.
I wish I didn't have to be here,
But my children need me near.
I want them to know,
That I love them so.
I hate who I am and what I've become,
Why must I think of myself as ugly, fat, and dumb.
Why couldn't I be someone else,
I should be by myself.
Why? Why? Why?
Who the HELL am I!!
Why do I have to be,
ME!!!