I torcher myself everyday, thinking who would ever love me.
I'm broken inside, with no way of healing myself.
My heart is shattered into a million pieces and feel as though my soul is lost.
I want someone who will love me for who I am, with all my flaws and mistakes.
Who would heal my broken heart and find my soul.
But who would ever love me, for just me.
I want someone who won't abuse me, is that so wrong.
Someone who is kind, gentle, sweet, loving and caring.
Who would ever love me though, when I'm just a shell of who I once was.

It hurts to know we never had the chance to be happy.
It hurts to see you with another, knowing that I love you.
It hurts to think that we could've tried, but I was too afraid.
Knowing we would always have the same people trying to destroy us.
It hurts to know you don't love me the way I now know that I love you.
It hurts too much to see you and know that we can never be, now that you are with another.
Knowing that you love her and not me.
It hurts to know that we can only be friends and nothing more.
It hurts so much, that we will never have the chance again because I was too blind to see what we could've had.
Knowing you are still in my life, if it is only as just a friend is better than not having you in my life at all.
It hurts to know the pain and heartache I feel, but I will hopefully get over it in time.

I thought we were finally going to have our chance at happiness,
That we didn't get to have before.
But like a snap of a finger it was gone and I only have myself to blame,
I was blind and stupid to not see what I had.
Now I have lost you and my heart aches,
Wishing I could turn back time and redo what I didn't do or say before.
I am just a **** up, broken and damaged. A lost soul longing for the love I thought I could've had with you.
Now I see why I deserve to be alone, I destroy everything I touch.
Run...
Run as far and as fast as you can away from me, before I **** up your life.
You are better off without somebody like me, you want to help me but there is no helping somebody like me.
**** My Life...