Chelsea

Chelsea Jul 2014

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a lot of the time i feel sad for no reason. which i personally think is the worst because you can't fix it. so sometimes i watch a sad movie to give myself a reason to be sad.
it's actually pretty,,, *sad

Chelsea Jul 2014

Thinking

i think a lot
too much in fact
i think about what my future entails
i think about what i may have for breakfast
but i especially think a lot when i am in public, waiting to cross the street
because one more step and i could possibly be gone
so much power in that one little step

Chelsea Feb 2014

not sure

how do you express yourself,
how does words flow out your mouth, like the petals down the stream
there is no flow to when i speak
it is like the chips and chops of wood
scattered

Chelsea Feb 2014

following me

I feel bad that I can't do certain things because of my anxiety
It's gotten to the point that I sometimes I can't even make eye contact with my friends or go to a concert I really want to go to but I know I just can't
It's like a coffee stain on your grey shirt, it lingers with you the whole day.
It may not be too visible, but it's there.
Following me.

Chelsea Dec 2013

"I'm Done"

I guess people don't take it seriously when i say " I'm done"
But I literally am
School's too much and I've barely started , it terrifies me
home is no better either
but i have this guilt inside of me
like i shouldn't be feeling like this and i can't help it,
it's eating away at me.
like the sun melting the snow as the days get warmer
and I really don't know what to do
and part of me doesn't really care because
"I'm done"

Chelsea Nov 2013

I hate it

I can't talk to anyone about my feelings because i feel like they think i want attention

and i hate it, i hate having to be so scared about things i have no control over
it's not my fault but i can't take my own advice

Chelsea Nov 2013

What do i say?

It's getting worst
but i don't say anything
because i don't know
what to say