My skin feels like it's on fire
When your eyes fall on me
Should I happen to meet your gaze...
Oh, please spare me
Fully clothed I am vulnerable
Open completely to you
I see my secrets spilling forward
Dying to reveal themselves to you
They crawl toward the light
Your stare
I feel you looking into my soul
You smile as if you knew
Suddenly it all becomes clear
Seeing all that you do
What always exists
But others don't know it's there
What caused my sudden silence
The slightest pause in my speech
When I'm trying to close up
And shy away
Casting light into my darkest corners
With you is a safe place to be
It simply has to be true
When you tell me that you love me

The bruises and bite marks
Battle scars of love made
Longing gazes, pupils dilated
Not easily missed
A tangled mess in the sheets
Working together toward a grand finale
Silently competing
Wanting the other to surrender
A battle of wills too perfectly matched
Into the wee hours
Hands grabbing at flesh
Tangled hair
Flushed skin
Balling up the sheets in untamed fists
Two parts of a machine in perfect unison
Hearts race and beat
Inhaling your scent like I need it to breathe
Our bodies gleaning from the sheen of sweat
You collapse onto me
Tapping my heartbeat on my arm
Gently stroking your hair
That moment seemed to stretch into oblivion
I wish I could have lived there

I like to write about unrequited love.
The kind that escapes us,
destroys us.
The love we don't think we deserve.
The fulfillment we constantly search for
but never find
because we were too late
or not enough.
The things that ache in your bones
and echo your sorrows into your core
threading into your DNA
like it's belonged there all along.
You can't root it out.
You can't find the source.
Lo and behold
it was that poem that made you want to die
but had you running back for more
at the same time

You borrowed into me
diving harder, deeper.
I willingly gave into you
Always falling faster.
You hollowed out my core
I allowed it even still
as you fed on my vibrancy
making me dim and obsolete.
I fell into the background
there only to make you stand out.
I lived and breathed for you
slowly let you **** me
only because I loved you.

When you left me,
it was like ripping the meat from my bones.
The air in my lungs replaced by water
it was all I could do not to drown.
I didn't know how to live without you.
That's the sickening beauty of your game.
Without you I didn't want to.
I became a hollow shell
nothing to see behind my eyes
smile held up by safety pins.
Too broken to even cry
I couldn't shed a single tear.
You weren't there to tell me to.
I'm marionette on strings
and even in your absence
you're somehow still playing me.
I cannot seem to let you go.
You're the reason I want to live.
So I'll sit here waiting on the shelf
hoping someday you'll grow bored
and come to play me once more.

I would follow the lines of your hands,
The slopes of your muscles,
The curve of your spine,
The nape of your neck
Like the roads on a map.
Tracing them over with my fingertips
So my skin will remember
The way you feel in each and every place.
I would make an atlas of you.
You are a wonderful adventure
I am always dying to take.

Trying to be what you wanted
Ripping away my flesh
Shredding every piece of me
Remaking myself bit by bit
Forcing the pieces to fit
Trying desperately to be
What I imagine you want from me

I want to stay wrapped
In this sweet September morning.
It's cold and I'm trying to stay lost.
I need to stay far away from you.
If I'm found I will collapse.

On the nightstand
The sight of your face reminds me
I'm so alone.