chills race threw the air color spurts from the trees the world around seems gray sniffles creep children giggle as they disapear in discarted leaves arms wrapped circled one another snuggling is a routene days shrink the sun plays hide and seek pull sweaters tight autumn is in the air
wind wrap your fingers in my hair air let me breathe you in sun warm my body birds sing my song leaves incircle me with your color chill remind me im human clouds take me away to better places.
demons encircle me in darkness my heart try's to shine bright these dark shadows follow me
my heart thunders as i struggle to breathe you all live so innocently not seeing these demons that attack these dark shadows harassing me at every turn
your all so innocent so immature do you not see these evil things working their way into my soul? me heart?
i envy you, your lives not a care in the world a mommy and a daddy who care not needing to grow up unlike me
these demons threaten me everyday they drink the happiness from my body feeding from me
exercise these demons someone please i beg of you rid them from my soul but i know you cant
they live along beside me attached to my soul forever to rid them i must rid myself of this world.
I know this isnt love but lust but feeling your body and hearing your voice is a must i try to ignore you to leave you be but when i close my eyes its you i see i know i dont mean alot to you but it doesnt get me down or make me feel blue i use you as much as you use me but that doesnt mean i want you to let me be
the hunger burns deep and aches in my stommache my mind is twirling my body gets weak i cry my knees fail to hold me its time to eat just enough to live and little enough to feel dead
drowning in what you call life chocking on what you call hope everyday i breathe in everything you say, everything you do
waiting for my big break speaking for what i think is right sprinting for my future
the barriers of time slow me down but never break what i have in my mind as my happy ever after. a life a job a family with the morals of our grandfathers
no matter the dirt you cover me in the hurt you throw upon my shoulders i will reach my happy ever after.
im at the bottom looking up theres no promise of clear skys but god has my back im gonna try try harder than i ever have before i have strong relationships and even stronger friends im done waiting for my family to get stronger its me its i who need to be strong to live the life i was meant to live to breathe to let everything shine and not give a care i need to heal.
here where my soul dies here where my eyes cry here where i take the blame here where you break cries from my throat here where i wish i could fly or float here where my personal hell resides here where my suffering has bagan here where i hope the suffereing will end here where the hate surrounds me here where i call my home.
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they sleep in the streets we sleep in our beds they starve we waste some fought for our country some took the wrong path we laugh we make fun they cry they plead they freeze while we cuddle by the fire we think we are better but if we were good we would help them we would save them some have kids that die from lack of what we throw away all the while we primp and cherish pets we dont even like we eat from silver and china they eat from the ground from what we throw away we are cowards while they brave the world the night with no where to hide we are the monsters of the world they are less fortunate and we roll with laughter because the mistakes we could of made they taught us not to by making them first.
i see homeless people all the time and people make fun of them and it kills me becuase they are people just like us.
the passion the heat the way you traced the lines of my body the shine of your skin in the dim lights the shudder of my breath as complete bliss surronds us the murmers of i love yous the touch of tenderness and love the kisses trailing down my body the urgentness as if one of us will dissapear the river of thoughts spilling from my mind i love you i never want to let you go please dont leave me i layed in your arms till the sun rose high still moving was unwanted
me, im diffrent me, im sad me, im the invisable girl me, im the one that bleeds me, im the one who crys me, im the one who screams your name to the heavens me, im the one who just took there last breath me, im dead and gone
the more trying the harder life becomes the more crying the sadder the world becomes the more dying the more inhumane this place becomes the more fake smiling the deeper your dispair becomes think of your future let your feelings bleed before dark your sight becomes
my tears filled eyes poor like falling rain nothing in this world compares to my pain my ability to feel happieness has died now im dark and cold inside piece by piece my heart has shattered my body bruised and battered these scars upon my stomache, legs and wrists are all my problems in a neat tidy list
As this snow withers bit by bit I pounder life and sit Staring out this frozen window Wondering if i could have been that low Low enough to show the hurt that should have been left hidden I should have left the view of myself to others golden Now i have all this dirt on my name And its myself i blame
one hit two i blow out the smoke not a worry in the world one line two on the bathroom floor my heart quickens my viens pulse one cut two i bleed out thinking of you
I am sad today but what day am I not? I am sad today tears are falling but what day are they not? I am sad today my armored heart bleeds but what day does it not? I am sad today crying does nothing but what day does it? I am sad today with no where turn. I remember days there was somewhere. I am sad today I am alone but what days am I not?
Please chair swallow me eat me whole Drown out those around me Soon it will all sink in Tears will fight to fall They all stare Is something wrong Please chair swallow me Eat me whole Hide me from these monsters It has sunk in The tears have fallen they have won There knowing glances burn Yet they know nothing I have done no wrong So swallow me chair Eat me whole Steal me from this judgemental world
the sun shines birds sing flowers raise there heads to the heavens the long grass sways in the blissful wind the sky goes dark drip drip drip the sun is gone birds hide the flowers begin to frown everything is black everything is dark the grass the flowers are all gone in its place is a fen of darkness a fen of hate and shallow graves i watch the ones i love faces appear in the hidden crypts i hear their screams of agony the happieness is gone hate now in place
the moment you realize your alone your in this fight alone no one is there for you no one loves you you have to sweat and work make it to the top there will be tears there will be scars this is my life surrounded but completly alone this is how it will be till the day i die this is when i prove to myself i am **strong
this moment music plays this moment we dance this moment you whisper lyrics in my ear this moment i feel happieness explode within me this moment a stone lodges its way into my throat this moment a warm tear forms in the corner of my eye this moment we both know we will never be excepted this moment we will always have this moment when everything in the world is good this moment when societies opinion doesnt matter this moment when eachother is all we have this moment when we both know how the other feels this moment when i realise ill never truley be over you this moment when i realise you are the reason i live the reason i get up in the morning this moment when i realise we can never truley be together and never truley be with one another forever.
i have these papers i hold this pen my smile tapers i think of my friends, my kin but this paper remains blank my mind spaced out i miss it my frown sank it gave me things to write about relapse means everything i know to take this route but i feel my will power aborting the offers, the pressure but still my will battled my strength i treasure but still this goes untitled
as my stomache aches my heart breaks as my lungs breathe my mind leaves as my spine tingles our fingers mingle i know this is wrong but ive waited for you so long we are not together but i will want you forever
i pull myself together i try so hard to hide this stormy weather i cant let them see this indincation of unhappiness but deep down inside im just a wrecked mess
I speak you dont listen I sing you scream i walk you run i cry you laugh i change you stay the same i say broken you say family i say nothing you say OKAY i frown you walk away like always
you hurt me with your kiss you hurt me with your touch you hurt me with your lies you hurt me with your smile you hurt me with your eyes you hurt me by breaking me heart.