Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann Mar 2019

It happens when
you step outside
bracing for the cold,
but the only biting you feel is a subtle ache in your barefoot feet
And as your lungs fill with solid air
warm sun gently pierces the tips of your cheeks
as the birds chatter past 5 p.m.

It's moments like these where you find the energy to run,
or the desire to dip your toes in a cold lake despite the temperature,
or you refuse to wear a coat because of the date, not the weather,
because for the first time in months, the world has awaken,
and you can feel the new life seeping into your bones.

Meredith Ann Feb 2019

4:24 A.M.

Somewhere along the line, I decided
that losing hours of rest was better
then lying in silence and thinking of you.
So I lie here drifting in and out of consciousness,
as spinning images confuse my tired eye,
and gunshots are punctuated by familiar laughter.

Yet even in the pauses,
your essence comes creeping in.

Meredith Ann Feb 2019

A random memory.

“Velocity is squared in centrifugal force”
You yelled, as you grabbed my knee,
Your goofy face begging me to laugh.

Feb 2019

lemons and rain

uncomfortable IV

when Uncomfortable comes,
he crawls in through my mouth
and makes a home on my tongue.
his breath stains my numb teeth
and burns the back of my throat.

when Uncomfortable asks me
to stay a little longer,
with his frail hands over mine,
there is only humming and I am
back in front of the tv, watching static.

when Uncomfortable stands
with his arms out, in the shape of a cross,
there is only smoke filling everything
as I bow my head and pray
to wake up free.

january 2019