More and more
This water full of
mercy, distasteful, foul water
Creeps up
Inside of my lungs
Drowning my organs

I can feel the fear
As if it is physically manifesting
In my stomach, side, back, head
It's getting to be too much

How much more can I take
before I break ?

This fear - is filled with little fears
that may or may not predict
what is to come

I cannot help but let it consume me
I just pray
It won't consume my situation

I must confess
Lately, I've been surrounded
By miserable, failed
and rapidly charring
beings

Their utter sadness
And experience of dread
When it comes to disconnecting
From a love
Is quite scary

Should I be scared?
Is this the fear that will bring
me back to reality?

Or should I feel lucky
and better off than everyone else
that I have found such
a fond person
to love?

How can I ever suffer the way
I once did

Now that I have felt
the blissful kiss of a soft
pink rose

Wraping myself in sunshine
delight

Feeling the butterflies tickling
my bones.

If all of this ends, or
comes burning down

I will never suffer the way
I did

I will breakdown into tiny pieces
breaking down what you have
blossomed within

So please,
Don't ever break me
But keep me shining
In the blissfun sun.

Who I was before: Nothing.

Before nothing, I was a glimpse
of dread.

Then I was nothing.

My senses, time itself shattered.

Now: I have been sculpted into Someone.

Someone who is ready to embrace the
masterpiece of life.

My heart and mind have been faithfully and fatefully
recharged.

It's knowing and feeling, and excited to be.

Utter greatness. Ready to shine
even when darkness comes.

In these difficult times,
He is the clear vision,
Pulling me closer to bliss

In these tough times,
He is the thread
Keeping me alive