I should stop the caffeine
I can feel my heart in my throat
And headaches
The spins that I get
Just to wake me up
Put me back down, I wanna sleep
The air here’s too heavy

I wonder if you’ve got the best of me
Fertile seeds and ****** hands
Planting gardens in my head
The way you cultivated conspiracies in place of better ends
What did you find beneath the dirt
Sleep well inside your place
Waking up to nightmares growing strong
Thriving in the pots
Stalks as stiff as the ulcer in my gut
What did you find beneath the dirt
It’s been buried away for so long
I would have guessed it’d be gone
Taken by the earth
Sunken hollow in my chest

I’m sick and tired of being trapped in my head
With just me and you
But mostly me
And only sometimes you
If you’re gonna visit
Why not stay a while
Have a seat and kick up your feet
Because the time you spend here ain’t doin' enough for me
But it does enough to me
To feel that aching presence
That you’re gone

Too little, too late
I’ve gone and made a mess of things
And now you’re gone
While I’m stuck right here
All the hauntings of things I hold near
How do I occupy a home
When all it ever is
A collection of rooms
Blueprints laid by another
Memories stained into the carpet

I still don't know your name

Well I'm drunk again
At only half past two
The window's open and filled with cigarette smoke
I can hear cicadas chirping
And the I-15 going north, it's filling up
So I reach for the bottle that's been empty
But I still put it to my lips and tip it back
Every time it goes up I'm reminded that it's only half past two

I've returned
Like a lazy tide
Too bored to stand still
And too scared to change pace