This is the moment of self desire
of the meeting the morning's end
of the going back before the long push forward
of the reconnect to the grand defend

The origins of one's own truth
the many faces called my own
the unnecessary yet oh so needed
before the claim to the thrown

You meet the many with desire
and hope they'll give love in return
and you throw back one last glance
at the ropes you long to spurn

Boy has turned to a man
looking to turn once more
peace bought with the killing
with all the blood but not the gore

Still looking for that oh so missing
the puzzle piece you dare not force
here's to hoping, the actors actions
do not falter, and stay their course

You oh so treasure truth's beginning
and look back at tales of yore
and try to be, that from which
the long forgotten story tore

Lives are lives, and so are deaths
With death in mind, life takes last breath
A little slower time to saver
Now that the end is known
The fetal life set to begin
That moment the old lets truth set in
Too short of lives these have been
Too many times to have died
To think too much of this lifes near end
Numbed to all this pain
For pain there is not anymore
Anxiety too has bid farewell
Just the ** hum death
And quiet rebirth
Of a new life who’s death is near

these twist and turns
of agony's long ride
bring fear yet hope and joy

the angles of life
sharp
clear
wrench at the fabric of faith

the giving up so you don't give in
the tearing pain that makes you free again
all enclosed in wrappings thin
that rips revealing more than skin

as interwoven motives force
that strong grips release
of what it once wanted most
the disenfranchised feelings
make their anguished pleas

yet feelings quaint
are left out of thought
for cold and calculated is the ravished soul

be still sweat soul
do what you're told
and onward do you go

We never know for what to ask
for what we really need
and I try not to wear this mask
yet words speak louder than deed
the gentle lonely
the harshest of all
the burning that fills the brain
I'd trade in everything but the pain
for that is what with which I live
with which my soul doth feed

When the city cries and dreams of peace
And the world laughs and brings it war
A lovers quarrel and baby’s tears
Still matter to the heart they’re for
Here we see a sense of longing
Here we see we don’t belong
But as none of us do and it’s all the same
For walls of steal encase our hearts
But yet the pain won’t stay away

tomorrow ends today
no time to join the fray
as we drink
as we cry
the little boys smile and die
and so their brides
and still born babes
are flushed down the well of time
tomorrow ends to yesterdays glee
and today the pain
comforts me

when the last star shines
and fades away
in favor of
the dark of day
remember your promise
remember your soul
and return to the arms
of who you're fighting for
as life and death take their turns
each willing to stand aside
for death loves life
for life killed death
and now life will take dying in stride
and the souls do whisper
but they get no answer
for the body their after
found another master
the dark of day
does shine so bright
but my body still yearns
for the lights of night