I’m getting old
So no one wants me
Soon I’ll be all on my own

I’m losing hope
Now I cannot see
A family worth calling my home

Ugly children get the bench
Disorders make me jump the fence
The words that never get to live
No talents nor a look to give

Haven’t had an interview in years
All because I look through tears
Of pain and loss that I still fear
My parents’ death is all I see

I’m up in my dreams
Losing it all in memory

It feels like my life’s trapped in quicksand
The more that I try, the worse that I get
The more I believe that I can escape
The closer I feel to death

It’s almost like I’m surrounded by ocean
The longer I swim, the farther I get
The more that I see that there’s no sign of land
The closer I get to an end

It’s kinda like my life’s in the furnace
The longer I stay, the hotter it gets
The more that I feed it with coal and some air
The closer I feel to hell

It’s somewhat like I’m starting to lose it
The longer I look, the harder it gets
The more I believe that it was never there
The closer I get to forget

It’s almost like I’ve got dementia
The more that I think, the less I remember
The longer I live the further I get
From knowing ways I could escape from death

Necessity gets the best of me
Impossible to secure my needs
Without responsibility
That I refuse to see

Never had a job
Never wanted one
Yet I look for someone
Who’s more responsible than me

Spoil me with your livelihood
Spoil me with money
Spoil me with kindness
That I’ll so easily abuse

I’ll drop you if you don’t give me
What I always wanted to
I know my words aren’t so great
But without me you would go faint
With your stupid friendly kind of hate

You never give me your money
You never give me your livelihood
You never give me your money
So I’ll drop you like it’s funny

A teen on the train tracks
He  very well welcomes death
But I will save him

I’ll be a martyr
I’ll be me
If I save this man
I will be free

I run to the train tracks
Before the train hits
I push him away
And I take the hit

Never knew the man
Never known who he was
Just goes to show
I've done what he does

The conductor cries
The family mourns
They say that I’ve killed myself
When I just saved a life that was

Gone are the days
That I wouldn’t change
Gone are the ways
That I could have changed
Gone are my friends
Who got through the day
Gone is my hope
That kept me from pain

It’s too late to make amends
My insignificant life is at wits end
I can’t get up from off my bed
I can’t believe it’s all in my head

The memories live through me
By the scars of irresponsibility
They all come back to haunt me
Yet again

“Billionaire died”
The newspaper says
“Father of two”
The obituary read

Sometimes I wonder
What are his regrets?
He lived a life
That most men respect

Many envied
His position
Yet now he’s dead
And in perdition

He had the money
To save millions
He had the power
To affect billions

Yet he sat up in his mansion
Crying over his possessions

Yet in the end
He made himself dead
From nothing to something
From something to nothing

I’ve lied so much
I believe my own lies
Is this some sort of delusion
Or is it my time to die?

I lie to get places
I lie to get in
I lie to my wife
And I lie to the kids

My life’s a facade
I can’t tell who's who
But whatever you know me as
Is everything but true

I can’t tell if I lied
In the time that we’ve spoken
All I know is a story
That is very broken

I’m a killer
I’m a sinner
I’m a loser
Claimed a winner

I’m on the loose
They don’t know the real me
The real me is dead
Backed by lies of my youth

Just as much as the old me
My victims are dead
For I’m the real criminal
Behind all you dread

I want to die without pain
I don’t care that it’s in vain
I can’t stand living in this world
I hope this is the last time

I’m living a nightmare
I’ll condemn myself to hell
Because that’s what I deserve
I hope this is my last life

I’m tired of crying
I’ll confine myself today
I hate watching my tears dry
I hope this is the last time

Why do I have to wait?
We’ll all die sometime!
Why do I have to hate?
Each day of my ****** life!

I’m on a path to isolation
I’m never gonna speak again
I have no need for communication
‘Cause in the end it’s all in our head

I’m gonna shut you out
I’m gonna leave school
I’m gonna go to bed
And never get out

If you want to help me
Slide some food beneath the door
I’ll no longer ask you
Cause then I’d have to speak again

I’ll just do nothing
I’ll sleep and cry and cry again
I’ll just lie there and think
At least I’m not the one who's dead

I’ll never get up
I’ll wither my way into hell
I know I’m not living
All I know is I’m not dead

Force all the thoughts out
I don’t want to feel good
I just want to shut out
The world and everything that could

Forget that I’m living
Just make sure to feed me while I’m here
I’ll lock the door now
And you’ll pretend that I’m not here

You’ve got me mixed up
With another man
I did not take what he’s taken
I do not understand
You’ve gotta be mistaken

I’ve never went to jail
But now my ship has sailed
I’ve never stolen anything
Yet now they’ve stolen me

What makes you think it’s me?
When there is no evidence to be
I try and try and try to plea
But they don’t really care about me

The other man is free
To do and think as he sees
Yet here I am as you see
There’s nothing more to me

Finally lost it
In the middle of class
I guess it was the straw
That broke the camel’s back

I throw my chair
Through the window
Nothing matters
I jump out with it

Second floor was not so bad
I survived and now I’m glad

Expulsion was the price
Of and for my wasted life
I cannot wait to be alone
I’ll live my life without a home

Keep on driving
Don’t stop moving
This is a threat
This is a threat

The taxi’s driving in the rain
The tensions driving me insane
I just don’t wanna die in vain
Yet still I’m running from the pain

Drop me off
Drop me off by the bridge
Wake me up
Wake me up when I sleep

It’ll be a long way ‘til the drop
Nothing’s gonna make me stop
Gonna listen to the sounds
As I fall and hit the ground

Water isn’t gonna save me
There’s nothing you can to do to stop me
This is a threat, this is a threat

We reach the bridge and I jump off
But looking up I see the man
The driver’s falling off as well

Looks like he felt a similar pain
Guess we’ll both just die in vain

Goodbye mister taxi man

The products of a marriage
Divided against themselves
The children split in half
Between two separate houses

The children are the dividend
The half-lives of divorce
No one wants to admit
That they are not at fault

They will never deserve this
Flopped dead like a fish
Evening out the bruises
As a means to an end

Caught up in logistics
They’ll never really know
The reason of divorce
Is nothing but their own

Let the kids down
Let the kids pout
Let the kids drown
Let the kids out

Why should I participate?
In this pointless chase
If I am such a waste

I am no one’s favorite person
I am nothing to myself
I'm not living like I’m sane
I'm just living life in vain

Why should I try to get a life?
When life’s the one thing I don’t like

It’s not about the “if” and “why”
It’s about the when and how I die
There’s just no reason to say goodbye

One day I’ll be gone forever
No one should say never means never
One day I’ll be gone forever
No one should say never means never

I’ll lose it on a dime
It’s only a matter of time
‘Til the glorious day I die

Going on my nighttime walk
I find a freshly squashed dead moth
It reminds me of my impending doom
Yet I continue my walk
And disregard the moth
And thus fall back into my cocoon

Maybe when I grow old
I’ll be scared and cold
But tonight I’m just a sickly snail
Right now I’m not old
And I’m warm not cold
I guess I’m just one big fail

Why must I hide the truth
And conform to you
I’m nothing but a grain of sand
Why can’t I ignore the truth?
And pretend that I’m of my youth
By now I’m just a sad old man

Everything I’ve ever done has led to this moment
This moment in time where I breakdown and cry
Nobody ever seems to care until it’s too late

Hopelessly sleeping and wasting away
Hopelessly dreaming of life not this way
Hopelessly feeding on nothing but pain
Hopelessly living with nothing to say

They mourn for the dead even though they can’t hear
Yet they laugh in the face of those that are here
As if resting in peace is living in hell

Hopelessly sleeping and wasting away
Hopelessly dreaming of life not this way
Hopelessly feeding on nothing but pain
Hopelessly living with nothing to say

Step one foot out the door and dart straight back in
The world is too ****** up to be living in
So I’ll stay in in my room, listing out sins

I do not wish to be forgiven
I do not want to be forgiven
I do not wish to be forgiven
I just want a life worth living

We grow close
We grow old
I will crumble
Under shattered souls

Betrayal derailed whatever we had
I’m gone now, a blast from the past
You stab my back until I can’t get up
I’ll never be me again

Stained glass in new church windows
Grab a stone and break some widows
It’s never too late to stick the knife in
You’ll never be sane again

We disperse
We divide
I will fall
And you will rise

The days roll by
Yet they end in a sigh
Like salt from an hourglass
Upon the wounds of my time

For my heart is bleeding
For the death that’s proceeding
Yet after all of these years
I can’t change my ways

For as long as I’m breathing
My mind will be pleading
For an end to all days
And the passing away

When this day shall end
Another shall rise
So what’s left to do but to cry
‘Til the day that I die

Watching my life cave in
Never was a pretty sight to see
Record all my pain on tape
And drown it out with TV

I’m not dead
Just not living
Inside my cocoon
It’s never forgiving

Just like the bible said
“People will seek death,
but death will flee from them”
Just be or be condemned

I’m not here
I’m just drifting
Wish I could give up
On life and existing

Just is not enough
Justice never wrongs
It’s just us left
No need to conceal

I’m not okay
There’s nowhere to hide
Can’t escape from this dream
It’s an endless cry

I want it lost
I want it erased
I want it gone
Removed from my brain

There’s nothing worth remembering
I’ve seen it all and I want out
I want a fresh start
I don’t want to be wrong

It isn’t my fault
I’m more than unlucky
Open wound with salt
I wanna restart

I watched my world burn
Straight from these eyes
Everyone I’ve ever known
Is no longer alive

Now that I am very old and weak in all my senses
I cannot smell the flesh that surrounds me
Deep within the morgue

Every time I stared into the eyes of the deceased
I grew more and more used to it
And I became numb to the thought
That they all had lives

But now it’s my turn and it’s my time to die
But I don’t want to say goodbye
For the fate of me will be nothing more
Than the fate of those whom I’ve sacrificed

I’ve embalmed all me family
Dug the grave where they’ll rot
But now that it’s my turn
I’ll dig my own spot

Staring down into the hole
In which I’ll be forgotten
Forever and ever and nothing more

It should be deep enough to keep me around
I have many regrets that will weigh me down

I jump, I cry, I lie there
Deep within the ground

I am the only one
The only one that knows
I refuse to eat
I sit with my lunch alone

I only want what I can’t have
I’ll push away the thoughts at hand
Always waiting in a line
The only one without a life

Standing alone in the rain
Crying just to stay sane
If I’ll always be the only one
Then I’d be better dead

I am the only one
The only one that knows
That I won’t last another minute
Standing in the cold

No one cares
Not even me

I need help
And I need you
But if you go
I will too

Stay with me
No need to worry
Just don’t leave
Or you’ll be sorry

Make one wrong move
And it’ll be your last
I’ve got you now
And I’ll get you back

Why are you crying?
Was it something I said?
What are you waiting for?
Go ahead and play dead

I know I’ve done wrong
I know I’ve messed up
I’m ready to go
And I’m sorry

You’re a scab that never heals
The more I try to help you
The less I have to feel

It’ll never go away
For as long as I pick away
I want to tear you out
I need to help get out

For as long as I peel
The scars will never heal
No need to conceal
The scabs that make me squeal

I know it’s wrong
But it’s what I do
I don’t complain
I’ll laugh at you