A century ago
The man would be an outcast
But now for the first time
He’s the last iconoclast

All humans perished
Through the ways of the last
All children slaughtered
The rest shortly passed

The belief that it’s wrong
To bring life to a place
As corrupt as the man
Who ended the race

He outlived the masses
With the wealth from his past
He oversaw every step
As the last iconoclast

As I lay my love
To rest upon my shoulder
I see a silhouette
Of when he is much older

Without a shadow of a doubt
I know he’ll suffer here throughout
And as for me, I’ll be in pain
Until the day that I’m without

I turn to him and say
“How can we live this way?”
He turned to me and said
“Just **** me instead”

And at his own behest
I lay my love to rest
Upon his ultimate beholder

The water was shallow
Yet you had me drown in it
Eyes set on the gallows
While my face had a frown on it

I see no connection here
No connection to the crime
The crime of existing
Will be punishment in time

Living with the fact that all your life
Was nothing but a dream
And now that you’re awake
You have nothing left to be

Hypocrisy reigns
With reason’s remains
And truth dies
Behind hands that are tied

Was the glass half empty
Or was it never full
Who’ll fill this glass
For my forsaken soul

Sometimes I cry myself to sleep
And I count scars instead of sheep
And I have nightmares when I’m sleeping
But I don’t weep until I’m thinking

Maybe if I lived in dreams
I wouldn’t be alive on the other end
“Dream big or go home” they say
Well I wish I had a place to call home

Believe me when I tell you
I hate every hour I’m awake
I don’t have anything to sell you
I know **** well I’m a mistake

Well I have a dream
It’s the big dream
And I want mine gone
I want it erased

No amount of change will fit you in
You’re unnervingly obscure
They’re already what you want to be
Yet you’ll never be what they want to see

Something is off about you
Only through romance has someone realized
That you’re a person too

And then all their faults become yours
And flawed is what you are
And you’re scared to look God in the eye

And you know what’s wrong
And you know it’s wrong
And you know you’re wrong

That’s why you’re repulsed at what you are
Yet you return to your own ***** like a dog
Just like that one kindergarten song

I view my actions from afar
A slave to weakness, I can’t defeat this
I feel trapped within a jar
And like a fly as time goes by
When the lid is open I cannot go far

I’m trapped by my own vices
Never told a soul
Pretend that it’s all okay
Just keep moving on

And again and again
I repeat, I repent, I offend
And I look away
Then back again

I’m the only one left
In the prison where I’ve been kept

The guards are dead
My guard is down
And I’ve forgotten how to frown
Can’t seem to get out of the cell in my own head

I’ve found comfort in my cage
The gate is open yet I’m not there
I’m on the floor beside my bed
Feeding off the guards that were
Convinced to end themselves

I’ll wither with this abandoned prison
Like the captain of a sinking ship

The caterpillar crawls
Leaves its broken shell behind
Slowly but assuredly
It finds some food and hides

Away in a manger
No crib for a bed
The hungry young larva
Sits still and plays dead

Like a caterpillar or a tadpole
Who’s gone before the big break
Never ever knowing anything
They live like small machines

Potential is irrelevant
The second you die
What isn’t is no different
Then what could have been

Seeing stars from in my bed
Repeating words inside my head
I seem to be forgetting things
The day before’s a mystery

All I have to know she’s there
Is an indentation of where she said her prayers
And why she left I’ll never know
And at her return I’ll know only to love her so

Light my past on fire
Throw it all in the pit
Like the one in my stomach
It’s pleading to be lit

You could pawn it off
But that won’t make it go away
You could throw it out
But it’ll be there the next day
To pull it out again

Dust it off
Wipe away the gunk
Put it back on the shelf
Stare at the piles of junk
Burn it all for good

Space cadet
Commander’s gone
Captain logs
“Another’s lost”

Wish we could erase
Our history
Why can I not trace
Your misery

With soap in your eyes
It stings
You cop a disguise
But still sing

Foaming at the mouth
In a park on the moon
Running at pigeons
They’re leaving so soon

Wish we could erase
Our past
Why such a distaste
In life lived at half-mast

A foamy beverage soothes you
While momentary loss consumes you
There’s nothing left
Nothing to do

The idea of being too far gone
Never able to return
Return to what? I don’t know
A blissful ignorance cannot be the only way to go

What are my actions but knee-**** reactions to the outside world?
What’s in the mirror is the face of something I don’t know
For nothing settles long enough for anything but fear to show

I lost myself in trying to find others
I lost my mind in trying to make sense of life
And now time is my best friend
Until the day I look back and realize that time was the one who sunk the knife in

Wasting away
One loss at a time
It’s been a long time since I could remember why I can’t just die

And I won’t so I can’t just yet
I’ll just have to wait it out
Either way, I don’t know if I’d be able to look back and not feel vandalized

The hand that was dealt to me
Is all that I’ve known
I play by the rules and I get no return
Stop putting your dominant left-hand out to be shaken
And at least pretend to look the person in the eyes

I go through the motions
And I learned to care what is normal
In hopes that someone would throw me a bone

All my life I’ve been doing an impression
Of what I thought I’d be like if I fit in
And now whenever someone says to, “just be yourself”
All I can think of is that false version of me
And that the impression I do isn’t even normal
For people still see me as weak

I’m walking on eggshells
Looking like a chicken with it’s head cut off
And then I wonder why I’m avoided

Like a blind man to his wife
All he can do is pray she’s by our side
And in this way I believe in Christ
And bear my cross in life

Her sightless spouse believes she’s beautiful
And as marvelous as the sun
And in this way I believe in God
And await his judgement call

And the unseeing groom believes she’s innocent
As gracious and pure as a dove
And in this way I believe in the Ghost
Which guides us from above

The husband doesn’t know what she sees in him
Yet there she is, to tuck him in
And in this way I believe that I
Can be made worthy of that place in the sky

And like the all-seeing bride who sits by his side
And wipes the tears off from his eyes
Yet unbeknownst to him
When he cries she cries

Like Jesus wept for Lazarus
And Mary wept when Jesus left
But he came back with open arms

And he’ll come again
When all’s been said
In the fullness of our time

Oil in a cup of water
I can’t blend in
I come out on the top
For the whole world to laugh at me

The only time
I’ll be the same
Is when everything I am
Is underground

I’ve seen just about everything
Under the sun
Yet I cannot imitate
Normal fun

Tell me what I can’t be
A life like mine
It does not seem to fit
Within your mind

People hurt me
I move on
I do not blame them
I’m where I don’t belong

I don’t hate humans
They’ve already won
Where aliens go
There will be none

Tell me what I can’t say
And I’ll prove you wrong
There is no meaning
Without thought

I hate aliens
Yet I am one
When humans know
They tend to run

Spacemen scream
“Don’t look at me”
I’m phoning home
To no reply

That’s what it means
Read it in my eyes
That I am alien
To life’s lies

Here I am in my stiff bed
Here I lay my uncomfortable head
No place I’d rather be instead
Where else absorbs the tears I shed?

Snot crusts and blood dries
Nowhere else I’d rather cry
I call out to no one
Receiving no reply

Panic swells and tires out
As my eyes suffer from drought
I cascade into slumber
Relieving every doubt

Here I wake in my stiff bed
Here I lay my uncomfortable head
No place I’d rather be instead
Where else absorbs the tears I shed?

The apple in your eyes
Fell hard from a tree
And smacked into my head
Which drove me to sleep

I dreamt of there after
Yet my mind’s always captured by you
Let me let go
Don’t reel me back

In a life without gravity
I’d make use of my apathy
And drift away
Let the vacuum wipe me out

The world is my Dedalus
And the blade is my sun
I’ll fly high like Icarus
With wings that burn off

Let me land on a palm tree
In an island far off
I’ll eat my own limbs
And I’ll end in a scoff

I became one big snake
As my organs unwound
Before I let go
Make sure I kiss the ground

They all light the flame
And laugh as I fly to it
I wish I knew another way
I wish I hadn’t flown astray

Everyone’s a butterfly
But me, I must run and hide
So far away from here

I’m the moth
I’m starving and alone
Nobody’s clothes are near to bite on
I wish I could pollenate with the other guys
Makes me want to lay and cry

Cut off my wings
Make it so I’ll have to give up
Can’t keep letting myself down

I want to be ugly like the moth
Then it will all make sense
But tell me I’m a butterfly
And then I’ll fly away
How could someone be so deranged as to like me?
Or soulless enough to lie

Magma spat out like the lukewarm
Now lava has become its name
For it moves in a way that seems its own
Yet in essence, nothing has changed

A life lived beside a volcano
Leaves a body preserved in its wake
Unknowingly so, they’ll walk over you
The second the ground supports them and their hideous head

My mind killed itself
But my body remains
The stars shone bright
But I could never find the moon at night

My life’s a broken satellite
Sending cryptic words to nowhere
And then one day I find
The path I’m on leads everywhere but here

Never want to be alone
Cannot seem to be atoned
For they already cast their stones at me

Please stop giving out directions
It’s throwing me off
I’ll find out someday

Please leave your skin at the door
And hang it on a rusty hanger
And lock us in so I can we do no wrong

Don’t let me feast
Don’t leave me be
Never let me out
Please hinder me
And render me for who I am…

Incomplete

I may seem tall, but I’m dying
And I’ll die quicker than the short ones
And I know it doesn’t matter
Once your on the floor screaming

So check your hair in the mirror
Hope that no one sees you trying
And I can’t pull this off on my own
And I’ll never pull the trigger

Well neither will they
‘Cause they’re not impatient
So carve out your time
Into brief condemnations

And punch a hole in the ceiling
And climb up through the cracks
And you know you shouldn’t be here
But you know you won’t be long

So close your eyes, there’s no difference
You can’t see in the dark
Just walk around in a circle
And you’re right back at the start

So fall through the hole in the floor
And collapse down on the ground
And you know you should’ve never left
‘Cause you knew you wouldn’t belong

Well now that your back where you started
Where you always knew you’d never fit in
You kept your eyes wide just to cry
You didn’t care when they stumbled on your tears

Well they never cared either
‘Cause you’re not their patient
So write the screenplay
To your own destination

And you know if you fight to the death
A part of you will die
Whether it’s you on the inside
Or the movie on the outside

So put a hole in your skull
And here it comes
You know you’re not the one
To lose the plot and turn the TV off

But I will not hurt you
But I might desert you
Just like I said
And just like you’ve done

And I’m gone
It only hurt a minute
But I’ve felt worse things
In the rough draft of the ending

Roll all the credits
All the names of the people who crossed me
All the names of the people I’ve crossed
And I knew it all along
I sold my script to a director

This was my destiny and destination
It couldn’t happen any different
I never was a fan sequels

Well I fell through the hole that I kicked in
I dug my grave with the devil
Well it looks like I’m going to hell
I wish they didn’t add a scene after the credits

From suburban homes
To the catacombs
Their parents have all tried their best
Yet kids live at their own behest

With long sleeves and short hair
They say that life is never fair
With allowance and stolen money
They run to a place that’s never sunny

A deal’s a deal
To break through the seal
The girls at the knife shop
Just want something to feel

The man at the counter accepts the cash
No receipt needed before the slash
They leave the store with smiles at best

Thinking the man could have never guessed

Adding to their collection
They trade and they sell
Adding to their digression
They confide not to tell

Business is booming
With scars always looming
The man at the knife shop
Knows just what they are doing

Where did my vision go?
Or is this just what happens
When your eyes die?
From the inside

I'm so used to being like stained glass
People, they stare, but can’t see their reflection in me
So what do they see?

Am I unaware I'm unaware?
Or aware of something that isn't there?
I can't tell

Is there something in the air?
Or something that will tear?
I wouldn't dare

Could I be squeezing at gelatin?
Hanging onto the one thing
That’ll be my noose?

Am I so used to nothing
That some things mean everything?
Or is it true?
I wish I knew

Is this the price of rose-colored glasses?
Is it you?
Is it true, love?

That face, I suppose
Nothing’s what I propose
Another sudden lie
Another weighted die

No conviction to speak of
Yet your lips still move
And nothing is true
Nothing is you

Whatever I thought you knew
You never knew
And I was a fool
To think you’d forgot

Everything is loose
Even the noose around your neck
Because there’s always a catch
I put a lock on your escape hatch

A power in numbers remain unused
And scattered are the whispers of the truth
Drawing parallels from the past
Another civilization fails to last

The prophets are all cast below
Yet myriad are the ones who know
The truth that still remains untold
Whilst those that roam are manifold

And many people claim to last
Yet generations came to pass
And all the remnants proceed to vote
To place the horns upon the goat

As beauty is chastised by elites
They replace the chasm with deceit
And spew their praises at the crone
Whilst demons elected to the throne

And when in power, we grow powerless
And this poisoned world became flowerless
And as each sin has turned to virtue
The credulous are all plagued to hurt you

Sloths slow elders to their grave
Whilst greed makes the wealthy cave
To envy is to be the same
As the homeless man who rants and raves

Yet lust consumes the weak of heart
And pride is taught right from the start
And wrath has learned to come in waves
And gluttons ***** through their days

And as the great deceiver lays his torch
The city has been set to scorch
Whilst some remain to seem unscathed
The multitude remain unsaved

Yet many turn to look the flame
And those that did did not remain
The refugees divide to sevens
As they seek refuge in the heavens