I’m getting old
So no one wants me
Soon I’ll be all on my own

I’m losing hope
Now I cannot see
A family worth calling my home

Ugly children get the bench
Disorders make me jump the fence
The words that never get to live
No talents nor a look to give

Haven’t had an interview in years
All because I look through tears
Of pain and loss that I still fear
My parents’ death is all I see

I’m up in my dreams
Losing it all in memory

It feels like my life’s trapped in quicksand
The more that I try, the worse that I get
The more I believe that I can escape
The closer I feel to death

It’s almost like I’m surrounded by ocean
The longer I swim, the farther I get
The more that I see that there’s no sign of land
The closer I get to an end

It’s kinda like my life’s in the furnace
The longer I stay, the hotter it gets
The more that I feed it with coal and some air
The closer I feel to hell

It’s somewhat like I’m starting to lose it
The longer I look, the harder it gets
The more I believe that it was never there
The closer I get to forget

It’s almost like I’ve got dementia
The more that I think, the less I remember
The longer I live the further I get
From knowing ways I could escape from death

Necessity gets the best of me
Impossible to secure my needs
Without responsibility
That I refuse to see

Never had a job
Never wanted one
Yet I look for someone
Who’s more responsible than me

Spoil me with your livelihood
Spoil me with money
Spoil me with kindness
That I’ll so easily abuse

I’ll drop you if you don’t give me
What I always wanted to
I know my words aren’t so great
But without me you would go faint
With your stupid friendly kind of hate

You never give me your money
You never give me your livelihood
You never give me your money
So I’ll drop you like it’s funny

A teen on the train tracks
He  very well welcomes death
But I will save him

I’ll be a martyr
I’ll be me
If I save this man
I will be free

I run to the train tracks
Before the train hits
I push him away
And I take the hit

Never knew the man
Never known who he was
Just goes to show
I've done what he does

The conductor cries
The family mourns
They say that I’ve killed myself
When I just saved a life that was

Gone are the days
That I wouldn’t change
Gone are the ways
That I could have changed
Gone are my friends
Who got through the day
Gone is my hope
That kept me from pain

It’s too late to make amends
My insignificant life is at wits end
I can’t get up from off my bed
I can’t believe it’s all in my head

The memories live through me
By the scars of irresponsibility
They all come back to haunt me
Yet again

“Billionaire died”
The newspaper says
“Father of two”
The obituary read

Sometimes I wonder
What are his regrets?
He lived a life
That most men respect

Many envied
His position
Yet now he’s dead
And in perdition

He had the money
To save millions
He had the power
To affect billions

Yet he sat up in his mansion
Crying over his possessions

Yet in the end
He made himself dead
From nothing to something
From something to nothing

I’ve lied so much
I believe my own lies
Is this some sort of delusion
Or is it my time to die?

I lie to get places
I lie to get in
I lie to my wife
And I lie to the kids

My life’s a facade
I can’t tell who's who
But whatever you know me as
Is everything but true

I can’t tell if I lied
In the time that we’ve spoken
All I know is a story
That is very broken

I’m a killer
I’m a sinner
I’m a loser
Claimed a winner

I’m on the loose
They don’t know the real me
The real me is dead
Backed by lies of my youth

Just as much as the old me
My victims are dead
For I’m the real criminal
Behind all you dread