Sacked and dragged to an endless room
Still awaiting impending doom
Thought I’d see a crazed old man
But instead the men in black, they stand

Shackled in chains
Mouth shut, duct tape
Dragged down in vain
Try to stay sane

They put me in front of an old TV
They roll the tape in front of me
They shot my dog for all to see

They electrocute me on odd intervals
They torture me as if I’m the evil one
They gain pleasure from my distress
Once blood dripped down
They say I’ve made a mess

I’ve done nothing wrong
I have nothing to hide
But If they won’t believe me
I’d much rather die

They want answers that I don’t know
They’ve gone too far to let me go
They’ll break my bones from head to toe
They’ll reap a harvest never sown

Salvaging what’s left of me
But I don’t even know what I’m looking for
I’m trying to get back to it
But there was nothing really left to it

I can’t describe how empty I feel
Trying to put my life back together
I can’t survive if nothing gets better
So I look to the stars and I kneel

Salvage the joy that I once felt
Salvage the memories that I still repent
Salvage the ways that keep me okay
For nothing really ends just the same

I can’t describe how empty I feel
Trying to put my life back together
I can’t survive if nothing gets better
So I look to the stars and I kneel

There’s nothing there
There’s nothing left
There’s nothing
Nothing

Too little people
Roam the land
Questioning things
That most defend

Hang the gallows
Distort the truth
Extort the money
Corrupt the youth

Most ignore it
As false prophets do
The communication
Of ignorant fools

Among the few
Who oppose the many
We wonder who’s left
Or even if any

We continue to try
Yet we know it’s too late
Now and forever
All for the state

When dreams feel more real than life itself
You know you’re living a nightmare

I couldn’t tell you
What is real

I Board up the windows
So I can be free
I can’t tell you what time
‘Cause TV’s the only light I’ll ever see

Dopamine from endless dreams
No life, no soul, no way to leave
It’s almost like I don’t wanna breathe

…

Hanging from the chandelier
The noose and I are getting near
I’m fading out, I cannot hear
I cannot tell you if I’m here

Why must I live through medication?
Why can’t I live with my temptation?
To give up on prescription drugs
And live life as it was

Why can’t I find a normal way
To get through the day
Without draining away
In insufferable pain?

Why can’t I eat like I used to?
When I wanted to
Just looking at food
Makes me want to hurl

Wasting away to get through the day
It’s nothing but pain, just to stay sane
I don’t want to die old and afraid
Just let me be me and make me insane

Let me pretend
That you are my friend
Let me believe
That you would have grieved
‘Cause when I am dead
There is no pretend
And there will be no end

You don’t exist
It’s all in my head
But when I am with you
We can pretend

Leave me be
He can’t hurt me
There’s nothing you can do
To follow through
‘Cause he’ll never leave me
So what if I have no one true

I don’t exist
It’s all in your head
But when you are with me
You are my friend

Come with me
Hide the truth
It’s time for you
To go…

I evermore know now
That Christ’s wounds will suffice
I shall wound myself no further
For He bore them all for me

A lifetime of sin contrived
Yet He has payed the price
I sing you now a requiem
For a suicide that will never be