Waking up at night tears shedding from my eyes
Lets out screams, cuts, and whys
Try to keep it in but I know I cant
I know I tell you everything but
This time I can't

I know you really don't care
But, you act like it to see me smile
I know you mimic me when we're on the phone
Because, you've heard my **** before
And, I don't wanna be the one to bother others

Sometimes I yet wonder
Why won't anyone be straight forward
Are you not trying to hurt me
Are you thinking I'm over reacting
Tell me please~~

So I stop bothering you and you randomly visits
"What are you doing"
I'm cutting can't you see
"Why"
Cause I told you I'm not a bother

"Are you  thinking of suicide"
Well **** obviously
" You know I'm here for you"
I can't tell I need you do you need me
"Yes we all do"

Just leave me alone
"You're life is precious"
JUST ******* GO!
An hour later things starts getting hectic
I don't know what to do

I tried crying
I tried singing
I tried talking
I just couldn't do it
Boom~

I don't wanna be a bother

I dress a certain way
Now I'm a lame?
I listen to a certain type of music
Now I'm insane?
If I don't get the hottest outfit
I'm out dated?

Let me ask you something...
Do you have your own mind?
No response...
Are you being a follower or leader?
No response..
Have you ever even tried being yourself?

Have you ever decided to think outside the box?
I'm letting you know
I'm Me
I'm Me
That's all I can be

Do you know yourself?
Do you know what your heart is made of?
Or are you just following the media?
Because, you're definitely not me.
And, I'm not absent minded like you.
Guess what
Guess what

I'm me....