He's sound asleep
But I am wide awake

The tighter his embrace
the more lonely I become

Trying to wipe away the tears
before the salty, fat drops reach his skin
revealing my darkest secrets

Revealing the loneliness that consumes me

The loneliness that haunts me

The loneliness that fails to be conquered...
even by the tenderness in his eyes

Revealing the loneliness...
that will lead to my demise

It’s the happiest people
That are often the saddest

It’s in the quietest places
Our screams are the loudest

It’s on the sunniest days
The dark depression rolls in

It’s in the deepest waters
We find out we can’t swim

It’s from the ones we love most
We try our best to hide

And it’s through the fakest smiles
We tell white little lies

No matter how hard
I continue to try

I can never repress
The self-loathing inside

Cascading colors
Like paint on a canvas
Dripping, melting, and morphing
In the caress of the cool evening breeze, I lie
Drinking in the summer sky

I watch as the warm reds, oranges, and yellows fade
Cooler shades slowly sneaking in from behind
Royal purples, midnight blues
Banishing the warmth from the realm of night
Taking with them, celestial light

Darkness fighting desperately; seeking to forever dominate
Morning light breaking through the black chains of despair
Angelic white light crashing through the nighttime terrors
Golden sunshine lending hope to the world once more
Watching blue skies, while black birds soar

Colors
Swirling through the skies
Always out of reach
The world so much bigger than I
Made obvious by the colors of the sky

The sun shone so brightly
it washed out the sparkle in her eyes
or maybe I just couldn’t bring myself to look
As I was telling her goodbye

You see, I felt for her so lovingly
My heart breaking into two
Tears softly trickling down my face
Hoping she didn’t have a clue

I gave her a quick embrace
Then turned around and walked away
It was hard, but I didn’t look back
Kept my eyes forward, praying to make it through this day

She had held my heart with an iron grip
I could hardly breathe
But to her I was as replaceable
As a daisy on a summer’s eve

I wish I could mean more to her
But it’s always been this way
Nothing more than a friend to the girl I love
Never able to make her stay

She boarded the train to London
Adventure in her soul
I used to smile at the sound of her laughter
Now everything seems dull

Gray skies, gray sea, gray sidewalk
The train rumbles down the track
I ignore the stares of strangers
I so desperately want her back

Why is it, love has to be this way
That sometimes it’s not returned
To fall in love with someone so deeply
For you my broken heart will always yearn

I hope you find your happiness
As I will continue to search too
For someone who shines as brightly
As brightly as my girl called, Lou <3

Isn't it funny..

how sometimes the most intimate thoughts..

can only be shared with the strangest of strangers?

Why, it’s a masquerade my dear
Everyone here knows
You’re a fool to pretend differently
Now show some control

They’ll torture you
They’ll tease you
They won’t understand
Now come dear darling, please show some control

Why my dear, don’t be silly
Stop being yourself
Put that mask on your face
And show some control

Look at them dance
How they fall into step
The dance is continuous
We must show control

Like gears and like cogs
Watch how they move
How well they’ve been trained
They all show control

There’s no room to be different
Not in this dance
For if you make a wild move
There will be no control

So my darling, I plead
Put that mask back on
For if they know you are different
There will be no control

"Do you believe in Magic?" I asked him.

He replied, "More than I believe in my very own existence."