Maybe if I post again
All the likes will make me forget
That you chose
Repeatedly
To not choose me
Maybe if you text again
I’ll have the strength
to not respond
to not relax into the comfortability
you provide and take away so easily
You have made me into a petulant child
Begging and crying for something sweet
Something that will make me happy right now
But will lead to rot and decay within me
Because no matter where I wish the fault would lie
It was always me who let you in

I said you didn’t have to
My mind was saying stop
I moved your hand
My mind was saying stop
I said we were in public
My mind was saying stop
I moved away from you
My mind was saying stop
My mind told me to think of something
Think of anything
This isn’t real
This isn’t happening
You’re ok
This isn’t real
This isn’t happening
You’ll be ok

You don’t get to do this
You don’t get to act like you never hurt me
You did
It meant a lot more to be than it did to you
You didn’t even remember
You don’t get to keep coming back when it’s convenient for you
Because you’re never convenient for me

I'm not sad that we're over
To that I can attest
I'm said because you've become a stranger, just one among the rest
I wish that we were friends
But I fear it'd be to hard
Now that I've left all our old wounds out to scar
I stayed away to long
It was difficult to meet
I left with a promise to stay in touch that I couldn't keep
I felt to bad to see you
I'd let you down so fast
I set off a bomb, but did not help you with the blast
It isn't that I didn't want you
I held you very dear
But I had to let you go, it was very clear
I couldn’t love you the way you deserved
Yet you couldn't see
I was saving you from something...
Me