The spark is back
Or is that in my head
You'll always be that temptation
There always be that hope

The arrow broke
Did it leave a piece behind
Is there still love in my blood
Am I the only one hit.
Did the arrow miss you

******* cupid the god of love
Is that hard to aim from above
Do you plan the out comes
Or do you just know that no matter what
You'll be stuck with that thought

What if
What now
How.
Where do we go
Who will we be
Will we be if so forever?

This is my good bye
I'm done sitting around giving you the power to make me cry. I hate you in a weird way. Because I'll never forget you.
You act so innocent like you treated me so good
And I just up in left.
Like you didn't push my buttions till I was in distress.
Like you never neglected me.
To pay attention to your phone  just to watch another girl moan.  
Like you never lied.
And called me out my name.
Don't act like you don't know why.
I felt out place.
I lost my mind.
But you just stated the obvious didn't try to support me and never thought to hold my hand.  To grab me and say please don't go.
No You let me go. !
So this is my good bye. You think you hurt.
I couldn't begin to explain. How it feels when someone  you love treats you like a puddle of mud.
Walks all over you
But when you had enough you take the walk of shame. It's all your fault.
Again you never put up a fight  
Don't act like a victim.  
So this is my goodbye.
I'll miss the laughs
The brownie steals.
I'll miss the wrestles and the countless tears.
I'll miss the all nighters to watch a series.
I'll miss the kiss when I am weary
I'll miss you I'll always love you.
this is my good bye.  
You'll miss me too
You'll understand my pain.
One day you'll see that even though I walked away....
You let me.

So this is my good bye.

Little girl afraid of the beach
Gets in to the ocean
Without a peep.
Oceans warmth and creatures
Around her feet.

Then a tide comes nd wraps underneath
Pulling her in by her feet.
She gasps for air until her faced is submerged.  
The air in her lungs slowly fades.
She feels even smaller .
The fight in her slowly disapates.  

The ocean calms and spits her on shore.
But the weirdest thing is she fears the ocean no more.
She experienced it at its ugliest.  
And survived.

Now the ocean seems so wonderful
And she is intrigued
She dives in again
Just to be taken in.
This time was worse she almost died.
You can say it was a fight for her life.

The ocean is still her favorite place.  
Because conquering you're fear is an amazing feat.
Calms her panics her makes her insain.
The challenge the ocean gives the love she receives makes the bad times enjoyable
And the ocean makes her heart skip a beat.

Sometimes the things we fear the most turn out to be the greatest hardest but most precious things.

Go completely insain
Change my name
Cry a billion tears
Tell you that I'm here.
What do I have to do
To make you choose me
Over the boose.

I guess it always hard to choose
from the things that destroy you the things
That tear you apart
The the things that make you
You again

What is our goal in life
Why do we hate the ones that fall
Cause I stumble trip face plant
Life didn't come with a map

And emotions are full of cap
Follow your heart and you will win
Ha. I guess they didn't know what it's like to be me then
Because my heart protects the ones I love more than myself
I end up alone in a pile of hell
I try but I'll never be good enough.
*** I give up on love
Cause I don't know what to do
When I make a choice I always loose

Always look back.
Why did I have to act like that
My dad my mom they left
I can't blame them forever
I make my own choices
And have to face the weather

How dare all of you judge me
You have no idea what my intentions might be
You don't understand the confusion
The need to people please
You have absolutely no idea what kind of strength
It takes to be me
A hell alot of **** ups and misery.

She used to be strong
You couldnt see her flaws
she used to be breathtaking amomgst
Them all untill she let you in.
You bring out the fear the insecurity
You make her feel beneath
The words you scream hit the core.  
You're making her contimplate death.
Acting like she's just crazy.
Remember when you used to call her baby.
When you said I love you no matter what.
That you would be there
We can get through anything
She ****** up yea, how bout all those times you asked for forgiveness.
Now you claim to wanna still be friends
Yet you write songs about her
That compelled love
And tell her you dont want revenge
You dont wanna hurt her.
Yet you always do.
The things you say the **** you do.
Youre a fool.
She thought she didnt deserve a man like you.
Now you make sure she wont be happy
Anytime She is you try to sweep her off her feet
Just to treat her like a stupid peice of meat.
She loves you you see.
Because what yall had was true
And your a good hearted man
A warm kiss at night
A protector of her  and you make her heart skip a beat. . But you hide youre heart or hate her or pretend she doesn't matter
Your a boy
Who thinks he has notuing to loose
But your loosing everything you see because she cant sleep in a puddle of tears
Wont eat or anything because you made her gave hope and then you took it all back
Acted like you found better
Said oh well.
Not knowing that she already hates heself not knowing shess a little to deppressed.
Nd you just keep digging her grave.
One day youll be the one closing her casket.

Maybe youre just my bad habit.

Frost bitten
Cross wearing
Lost her path
The map burned to a crisp
Probably now just smoke in the obis.
What was it that mad her crack like this

She takes a rest
Childhood memories attack
Remembers the lashes and the cigarette burns.
Hear the yells and gets chills down her back.

She wakes up
Looks in the mirror
And sees her mother
The image of exactly what she never wanted to be.
She trys to run free.
Exaping her past she Flys away to a much safer place.

She recuperated
Not thinking about the past
She made a name
Had a job.
Played no games.

looking back there was only one thing she left when she ran.
The loving warm touch of her dream man.
Longing The tight embrace of his gentle hands.
She did all she could.
One day she wish he understood.
She loves him.
But running has always been her chosen path.

Lost love
Crossed paths
Hope one day they will make it last.

Caught in the past
I see a hand that I can't grasp
Forced to act as if nothings wrong
So I just sit here and hum along

Corrupted by fear
Thoughts and questions
Fears of all my imperfections
Does that make me a perfectionist?

I just want it all to stop
Mind on reply
Just making only clear
That all along
All I am is made around fear

Strong because I'm scared to break
Stubborn for fear I might loose control
Independent so that I'll never fear when I end up alone.

Past . When will I ever stop thinking about it .
Ahh at last all that pain is in the past. Sad. Broken .
**** the past has once again spoken.

For when I think the end is near. The past reminds me it's only been a year.