I have cried.
I have cried.

Just like you.
Just like you.

For how long?
For how long?

Must I bleed, when I know your watching.

I know there's something wrong.

Your concrete heart isn't beating.
And you've tried to.
Make it come alive.
For me.
But we both know will not work.

The shadows.
Red lights.
Now your here to rescue me.

No!

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm losing life.

You can't apologize for what I know.

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive
I can not apologize.

So silent.
The violence.
Inside my head.
So loud and clear.

You're screaming.
You're screaming.

Covered up with a smile I've learned to fear.

No sunshine.
And dark skies.
Is this all we get for living here?

Come fire.
Come fire.

Let it burn and love come racing through!

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.
You can not apologize, for what I know.

I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.

I cannot apologize, no...

I've learned to lose.
I've learned to win.
You turned my face with the wind.
This is what I get for what I lose to you.

I will move fast.
I will move slow.
Take me where I have to go.

Oh I'm not alive.
I'm not alive.
I cannot apologize, no.

Again.
Ditched to the side.

He plays around.
Watching in the front lines.

But this is the last time.

I'm tired.
I'm sleepless.
I'm sick.

I'm done.

I am not a toy.
I am nothing but a lady.

A lady who had bad luck.

If I have to get over you..
I have too forget about you.

And...

Our smiles.
Our laughs.

And...

Our tears.
Our fears.

But that's what I have too do...

Just to forget about you...
But I can't.

No matter how much pain and regret I have.
I am still in this untwining bind.
The string attached, the chains holding me down.

Your a big part of who I am.
In the present and hopefully my future.

Your the fog in my eyes, the sight I have.
My heart was pure, but your welcoming blackness took over.
Your the voice in my mind, controlling what I think.

Just know I'm on my brink.

When being a little girl...
You dream of unicorns and flowers...

But I dreamt on the lights that were my stars.
For a quiet night with no gunshots and cop car sirens.

When being a little girl...
You wish for cakes and ponies...

I wished on mommy coming home from spinning on a metal pole...
Seeing her safe...
She used to light up my ghetto girl face.

But now...

I'm shot down.


*shot dead

He did it again!

Selling my soul.
But life takes it toll.

On a young woman, such as I.

But time flies by.
So its do or die.

From the words you sang...
From the hearts you break...

Nothing we can do.

Well...
Nothing I can do...

So I let him do it again...

Well why not...?

Why not love.
Why not lust.

Well why not?