Casaria NightShade

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Blood

Blood.
Red.
Murky.
Lovely.
All these words of truth are bound.
Just like the chains on my neck.
They keep me home bound.

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Pages

I look forward to the night.
Nothing wrong, nothing real inside.

You look at me with grieving might.
WIth our blood on our bodies.

Together.

Both of our knives inside us.
Our love is tough.
Sweet lust and cuts.

Blood spills on pages of poem and love letters
To a different man.
That I once killed...

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Gazed

Help me here.
Leave me there.
All you have to do is stare.
Help me through this winding maze.
But your still in such a gaze.

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Every Lie Exposed

You want this perfect life.
All I see is a perfect lie.
So fed up.
With the flaws, the hicks.
It makes me sick.
Im slowly about to die.
Im slowly losing my own mind.
For ***** sake.
MY OWN LIFE IS AT STAKE!

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Diamonds They Fade

You know it ain't easy.
For my thoughts to mislead me.
There's no words to describe it.
In French or in English.
Because diamonds they fade.
And flowers they die.
And I'm telling you.
This pain just won't go away.
It has been pushing me out a ways.
It has been knocking' me out, babe.
Whenever your gonna leave me.
These feelings won't go away.
I keep thinking in a moment that.
Time will take the pain away.
But won't go away.

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Sick

Im sick, they wont let me stay home. Im falling asleep at my job. Im falling asleep as I type this...

SO TIRED!!!

I get called out at school for falling asleep. Im just tired of life.
I just need to get some sleep.

My mom wants me to work at my job but its my job not hers. I think she wants a part of my own money.
Money that I work for.

Im sick.
MY heart aches.
MY chest burns.
My eyes are shot.
I look dead.
Like this zombie that needs to be shot.

******* MOTHER IT'S MY MONEY!
Cant you see that i am sick.
That I need you to care for me, instead of you "blogging and playing" on you phone?

Casaria NightShade Oct 2013

Just Fade Away

Just fading hurt me ever so badly….
It hurt me so kindly as well.
It made me die.
So peacefully, so harshly.
You whisper you love me.
You whisper you hate me.
Holding onto what I'm feeling.
Thickening the air I'm breathing.
Blood written in blood.
Saints written by saints.
Fade.
Stay away.