Most nightmares involve a shooting or a some kind of realistic event. My nightmare is living a life where I'm barley floating, the anchor to my ship never sunk. The shackles on my wrist prevent me from my best and tell me I'll never be good enough. This man with a suit tells me I will never get there, my life will be full of lies and torment. My nightmare shows my mother dying a slow and painful death, the feeling is watching a beautiful flower try to blossom but can never find the sun.  I'm trapped in these white walls that scream of the hatred words that fill my mind with the thought of never waking. These nightmares are the same, they never stop and I never seem to wake up.

December 22
On December 22 5:24am, I realized you were gone, The hospital felt cold and lonely. People crying and telling me it will be ok. My heart sinking but still floating with a chance of hope cause you always find hope on days like these right?  These pains I get affect me like a stab in the heart that won't heal, a puzzle where the pieces just don't quite fit. This puzzle I just can't fix I try and try but everything just seems wrong. What will I do without you. You were there for me when nobody was.  led me to believe that I was never alone, but now all I feel is like a depressed piece of the puzzle but can't find it's match.
                  
            
            (C.L)

December 22
On December 22 5:24am, I realized you were gone., The hospital felt cold and lonely. People crying and telling me it will ok. My heart sinking but still floating with a chance of hope cause you always find hope on days like these right?  These pains I get affect me like a stab in the heart that won't heal, a puzzle where the  pieces just don't quite fit. This puzzle I just can't fix I try and try but everything just seems wrong. What will I do without you. You were there for me when nobody believed. You led me to believe that I was never alone, but now all I can feel is like a lonely piece of the puzzle but can't find it's match.