she, with an electric, gravitational pull
an affinity for crushing skulls
an attempt on her own
and even with me, she was alone

he, doesn't understand
i have mommy issues, not dad
though he has laid me in his palm
if crushed ill go off like a bomb

she, like coffee made my life bitter sweet
our hearts broke into a thousand pieces
just the way she wanted
like the beauty, she never flaunted

his, flaws reflect mine like a mirror
but his beauty could not be clearer
he has done nothing wrong
our mistakes dance like harmony in song

i've had my time alone
acknowledged, became fearless and grown
recently i had a break through
i want to watch Blue Planet with you

the people i loved are a problem
i love them still, but that's common
i have trouble saying goodbye
and you're too cute for me to lie

so I'll try to be good
but avoid the emotions that flood
when you ask, "who you texting?"
and i respond, "oh, my mom"

What we are doing right now,
breathing,
It's amazing.
We should be proud of ourselves.
We are amazing.

i'm so small!!!
i'm such a tiny little person
no one will mind if i take this second
to just be silly and small

Aren't you tired of fighting for every word or laugh
Aren't you tired of feeling different
You've felt different for so long
Every laugh leaves an echo
Ringing accompanied by loud silence
your own insecurity?
Or judgement woven in white noise
The voice in your head begs your mouth to close
You know imperfections shine
when you give them leave to speak
"Who cares what anyone thinks
You can be you"
sure
But aren't you tired of fighting

all i have to do is say yes
yes to the music in your head
yes to the books you've read
yes to sweet tone you use
when my behavior has you confused
yes to the laughter and smiles
yes to the 3000 miles
yes to you

but after that rant
ill tell you i can't
you need to be healthy
i can't be the motivation for your safety
heal, then ask me again
ill say yes