Not in sell for noone
for nothing.

The most  beautiful part of you is your strange way of thinking

It took me time to realize i am my bigest love, my priority and the only thing i need

7,594 billion humans in this earth and you think i will cry for your mistakes? Honey think again.

No te enamores de una mujer como yo, que soy de esas que llaman "locas", que no quiero cuerdas por que no me gusta que me aten, que yo no quiero atar a nadie, que  si me atas, átame a la cama.

Si me atas que sea para levantarme hasta el cielo, que si me das cuerda sea para llegar mas alto o ir mas lejos, que las locas como yo ven esta vida para amar con todo lo que vibra en mi, que las locas como yo no llevamos corazónes, llevamos soles!
Que alumbran la noche en esos callejones oscuros, que el miedo se vuelve amor, y que la compañía se vuelve amistad, que el dolor se vuelven aprendizajes, que la vida se vuelve amor.

No te enamores de una loca poeta, como yo, que que si me lastimas, te dejo en el olvido lentamente te vuelves un recuerdo te voy destrozando con letras, entre las lineas de poesía en mi libreta, que las locas como yo amamos con locura, vivimos con locura, todo a limite que nos vaya llevando a la lejanía de la cordura y que soy de esas locas que si te quedas te puedo prometer una vida entera.

Y con el tiempo lo vi
llevamos fantasmas
los cargamos con nosotros
nos dejaron heridas
llevamos fantasmas y los andamos buscando

Este otoño escucho a los arboles cantar la canción del desapego al compas del aire en la escala de sol

make peace with all the broken pieces, make peace with all your chaos and madness.

He ask me: Where is the most beautiful place you have ever been in your life?
And only one place come to my mind: My mother's womb

1: De los reclamos no sale nada bueno
2: De los celos no sale nada bueno
3: Todo pasa por algo
4: El agradecimiento cura el alma
5:Dejar que el agua corra, soltar, sin controlar, es la entrada a la libertad
6:Con amor y paciencia todo se cura
7: El día que plantas la semilla no es el día que te comes el fruto
8: El alma sabe lo que la mente ignora
9: Observar las heridas es el comienzo para poder sanarlas
10: Todos somos espejos, refleja amor

Tu cordura cura mi locura

se puede compartir la libertad

There was a guy who gave me a box full of pain, doubts and hate, I didn't see it in that moment but this also, was such a beautiful gift, with this i learn a magic trick to make pain into roses, it is such a beautiful gift.

It took me time to realise that the person i want it to save was no other than myself

maybe is not life or death
maybe is that part in between

He was not dead, he was just playing Shavasana, and he play it really well.

espero que mi arte nunca te harte

me gustan los poemas así cuando no riman, no tienen sentido no llevan a nada, pero son.

Do you miss him?
I mean sometimes i miss his dog, you know it was more loyal

"Speak soft to me", the mirror ask me

Ojala que la muerte me agarre en medio de un ataque de risa

Y esa sonrisa que llevas en la cara, es tuya o es prestada?
Y si me la robo a besos? y si me la arrancas para que la lleves tu de regreso? y si la compartimos?

In which moment *** becomes less intimate than taking a coffee with a stranger and talk about life, or hugging in the middle of the bar with all the music and people jumping, feeling the strong heart of a stranger in your chest and knowing that's sharing peace.
In which moment love become so difficult? is it because *** is so easy to get that love becomes so difficult?
Are we so disconnected of ourselves, of our feelings?
In which moment eye contact becomes more intimate than having someone inside of you?
What is happening with us, with love, with connection, why are we so afraid to give it all
to say: “look me in the eyes, i'm not going anywhere” to say “ lets get old together”  what happens to partners for life? what happened to unconditional love?, is it just our generation with this struggle?
Why are we afraid i have listen to manies: “ i don't want to lose my freedom”, “ i have been hurt before”, “ i don't want to open myself” “ trust no one” “ i can't be loyal”...
Love and *** become a game i don't know how to play, a game of express but not to much, feel but not too much, don't be intense, play it cool, see other people, don't put so much effort on a men, don't expect nothing from him. How can you build trust in this game?
So tell me what its next? Everybody wants to go to heaven but no one wants to die, Everybody wants to be in love but noone wants to fight for it.

I never want to take your freedom away, i want it for you and for me , i want it to give each other space, to balance our energy, to have friends, but with honesty, with commitment, with communication and with mutual trust, because with this is just peaceful to live our lives without the stress of what is this without any fear or stress in this,  the way we want knowing we can come back together in peace and trust. you say i give you mental stress with my messages,maybe because i express it all, or what can i know?, and i never want to do that to you, i want you to be happy.

I give myself the time to process emotions and Maybe one day you will understand the difference between sleeping with someone and
wanting to wake up next to someone, to know the smell of the person and only wanting to wake up to say good morning and kiss you that's something i didn't experience before and it's so nice to see the sun in the eyes of another person every morning.

Maybe one day you will see the difference between spending time with someone and investing time to someone.
Maybe one day you will understand that if you want another person to let you be you need to be transparent and accept the other person as it is, let the person feel as it want to feel, be as it want to be to enjoy it, to not be so afraid to feel.
The difference between being there to get company and being there because you don't want no one else in that place, the difference between being an option and being sure if you have the chance you will chose to be there every time.

The difference between holding a body and holding a soul,  The difference between intimacy getting a naked bodies and having naked soul, is not the same to have *** than make love to someone.
To let a person in , showing everything as it is , let know your fears, dreams, regrets, pain, memories,  to put the past in the earth and stop putting water to death flowers, to let another person help you control your demons, to really be better person.
That scars and all the suffer are opportunities for growing, like scars that shows you survive its a way of showing where it hurt and where it got heal, suffering is opportunities to be a better human, we can be misserable or we can be stronger it takes the same energy to build any of this

I really put trust in you, you don't know how much is that for me. I think trust is something that can be broke so fast, it doesnt take the love away but it hurts to trust and recive lies.
You came to open old wounds for me and i think i did the same for you, i need to learn to watch my emotions and process them, and i need to protect a lot my heart, to learn to read the intentions of people.

i did everything with a lot of love and i did it because i want it and i dont regret nothing i did, maybe i will not do it that way next time, but definitely i was super happy, i wish we could be 100% because i can't give less and you cant give more and its okay, i was happy meanwhile we got it, i kind wish you were better with me, patience with me, and i kind wish i can go back i was really lost in you, you ask me to many times how can you feel so much in so short time, you dont know me, but i told you felt i do, and for me it was just easy to love you.


You want to enter to the water but you dont want to get wet, thats not living, is going in the water like a death fish,Maybe one day you will understand the difference between feeling the water taking it all in breathing and feeling it in your skin and just getting wet, maybe one day you will realized avoiding your feeling is like a loop you will just go back to the same point, that if you avoid the emotions, lessons and inner demons they will just come in different ways, people, circumstances.
It's so important to learn from lessons of life so it doesn't come over and over again, and to not carry all alone, to let yourself trust and not feel alone, i don't mean in a ****** way i mean in an emotional way .

Maybe one day you will understand that if you are expecting the perfect wave, you will lose it, because life is what you make with it, and it's how you learn to get in the waves. That if you want to try everything you will never really have anything. That lifes is made for enjoying and taking the best of every situation, is a constant learning.

Maybe one day you will understand the difference having someone in your arms and huging so close hearing your heart and think that's mine and i want my heart to go on the same rhythm, wanting to heal every part of that heart. to be chosen and not consider . maybe one day you will see

my best lessons are the things that hurt me, my last mistakes, and i hope you learn so much from this and from all. You remind me so much to a person i loved and death took away from me and  i think this is a reason for me to be so patience with you, maybe it's another reason i open so fast, and i fall so *******, it's so difficult to say goodby to you, and it's so difficult to stay angry with you i really want the best for you, and i think that's a reason i really give you the best, it was really easy to love you, to know you, to hear you.
i wish you so much healing. i want it to love you  in freedom, the thing is you don't want love . i feel super lonely right know you become my home in berlin, and i will not replace you, it was a beautiful home, but i know i will come back to me.


What if i never send you this message?, What if i keep it to myself?, What if ? Maybe i am the one who is gonna learn, and when i want to send you this messege, then im gonna wait. Until i learn this. Until i learn.

You leave peaces of yourself around the world, where your friends are, where your family is.
With your heart everywhere, the complete world becomes, slowly.. home.

i will make sure every world i give to persons are the sweetest and honest ones, i know they can be the last ones, so one more time to you : " i want to see you shine" " i love you" " lets be happy" " tomorrow is promessed to knowone" " you only live once"" lets make death so jealouse of this life

sometimes i miss a person who never existed

thanks for letting me be, thanks for showing me how to free my mind from myself.

"Experience"

Donde duela...ahí es donde quiero que arda, que sangre, que queme
Para que mañana no me vuelva a doler mas, pero por ahora deja que duela.

Ojala que muera nuestro **** presidente.

Am i the only one who wants to be naked all this quarantine?

You put your hand in mine and took me out of hell, because you know the way back to heaven. You understand my mind better than anyone my pain, my deepest secrets, and my feelings; and i  know yours too, no lies, just as we are we learn to love each other without judging., We drink different poisons to cure our souls but we can't stand the idea of seeing each other destroy ourselves., You are a part of me, always have and always will.My funny man. I hope one day you look at yourself in the mirror and fall in love so good and so deeply that all the broken parts get put back together with one look., I know one day you will see your real worth you deserve nothing but the best, baby boy.

There Will be places i will never come back
for example your body.

- the day i say goodbye

consumistas
consumistas de objetos, de la falsa dulzura del azucar, consumistas de necesidades sociales, aceptaciones, consumismo pidiendo mas,consumismo pidiendo mas, consumismo consumiéndonos.
Que pasaría si tuviéramos sed de  recuerdos, momentos, sonrisas, si tuviéramos necesidad de escuchar carcajadas, de amor, de respeto, si entendiéramos que este mundo solo andamos de visita,  esta hecho para cuidar y no para consumir.

Regalame libros, poesía y arte

Me has enseñado tanto, me has dado los momentos mas hermosos de mi vida, y también me has destrozado al punto de estar en el suelo con el corazón tirado en la calle, conmigo has hecho lo que querías, me has abierto de piernas me has dolido, me has tomado y me has dejado, me has utilizado, me has hecho sentir nada.
también admito que me has hecho sentir viva, me has hecho sentir todo, me has enseñado a callar, aunque también me has enseñado a desahogarme con penas, con baile, con lagrimas, con fiesta, me has hecho sentir sola, me has vuelto loca, he manejado con lagrimas en los ojos por tu culpa, he vivido buscándote pensando que eras de una forma para darme cuenta que no te encuentro en las formas que sueño, te encuentro pero ya no quiero buscarte, ya no se si te quiero, me tienes harta, juegas conmigo, me escupes en la cara, me mias encima, me tomas por un juego mientras solo quiero cuidarte, que esperas que quieres de mi? que tantas putas lecciones quieres darme?
quieres que mi alma se rompa, lo lograste
quieres que mi confianza se destrose, hecho
que quieres de mi?
quieres que tenga fe en ti para volver a perderla una y otra y otra vez
lo has logrado
quieres que me abra de piernas rapido lo has logrado te he confundido con tantos rostros y te he buscado en tantos cuerpos ya ni si quiera se como te verias si te tuviera enfrente
quieres que me espere, que te espere a llegar para que incluso asi decidas no aparecerte
lo tienes.
que mierda quieres de mi
sabes que ya no importa lo que tu quieras de mi, te voy a decir lo que yo quiero de ti ahora
estos son mis terminos amor
estas son mis condiciones
mi corazon esta abierto para ellos que han estado siempre. mi corazon y mi vulnerabilidad es de ellos.
no esperes que te espere, no esperes que quiera que llegas a rescatarme, por que te digo ahorita las reglas cambiaron me rescato sola yo ya no te espero, siendo honesta ni si quiera se si pudiera aceptarte, si pudiera quererte, me la has jugado tantas putas veces. te aviso que me hartaste, te aviso que ya no te quiero, te aviso que ya no te necesito
te aviso que te bajo del pedestal donde te tuve y que mi soledad me la pongo como, un vestido ajustado con los labios bien pintados y la cara en alto.
He perdido tanto sabes? tu crees que voy a tener miedo a perderte? el miedo tu me lo quitaste hace mucho.
te aviso que me perdiste
te aviso que no te espero
te aviso amor que ya no te siento.

I want you to love me in freedom, love me but leave me wild, love me for what i am and not what you want me to be, please dont put me on a pedestal, dont talk to me about soulmates or the love of your life, dont ask me about my past, is all in the past, i want you, like i didnt with anyone, for first time im so sure but please don't put presure on me, for the future or my past, let me be your lover, your fantacy, your family,your friend…. love my light but please learn to love more in my dark days.
Learn to understand my silence, my energy, my space. Before ask you this..  let me learn how to love you the way i want you to love me.

Six years ago a bird die in my hands, i felt the last breath, the last heartbeat in my hands, one drop felt in my eye, it die because it was a wild animal, not made for cages, i think this was a message of the universe, noting is designed to be in a cage, everything need freedom, to bloom, to fly, to grow, to love, to feel, to live.

Is so poetic is the only one who only happens ones,
and i promess when you arrive i will acept you with open arms.

everytime a girl in the street smile back i feel we are sharing a secret a something like “ im here for you i got your back to”

This place smell like memories
and it taste like the past.