my mind telling me he's not my only
just to leave me crying and lonely.
my heart is breaking and running from me
though he's the only one I want for me.

confused, I tell myself that this can't be
distancing myself from the ones who truly love me.
my heart refuses to take what I truly need
for the only thing I wish to have is the one whom is most dear to me.

what is the reason for my trouble?
why can't my mind believe
that all these thoughts are not truly part of me?
am I afraid to accept this love
or am I in denial- refusing to turn away the ones whom I touch?

the only thing I want in this life is to be freed
from the suffocation of this mind.
crushing, burning, drowning, hurting
I am a victim of myself.