i was supposed to grow up to be happy
what happened
-c.a

my nightmares come
in the shape of innocence lost
-c.a

these cotton sheets keep me warm at night
but the memory of you still sends shivers down my spine
-c.a

i cant tell you things will get better
because i am here
glued to this ground crumbling beneath me
but tell me if theres a light ahead
i can't see it
i've hit bottom
goodnight
-c.a

with every smile 
an earthquake erupts in my knees
and i catch myself
before i fall in love again
-c.a

my wrist is a canvas
and i am the painter
the blood streams down my arm
like a river of pain
that calms me with each ripple
the rush of adrenaline
like cliff diving into a lake of sadness below
it hurts
but the beautiful art created by the razor
makes my heart beat fast
and the people who admire from afar
know that i am pained
and i am a beautiful
my scars are a masterpiece
-c.a

swallow your pain
try to hide the shame
because under the fake smiles
and white lies
no one really cares
-c.a