Caress my body,
as you whisper
Meaningless sweet nothings
into the recess of my
Lifeless lonely soul...

Smile into my eyes,
as you watch
My relentless tears won't dry
falling into the ether
Leaving me blind...

I've folded so slowly into myself.
Tucked emotions into creases,
crinkled corners stained from ink.

Fingertips tingle from the need.
Yet my hands won't gather intent,
my heart just beats,
and I'm here....but I'm not.

I used to bleed through ink,
Now I linger on the edge of verses.
My clockwork heart on the tip of it all.

I buried myself so deeply,
sealed envelopes with no postmark.
Destination void.

I'm not the same person anymore,
sunshine no longer warms me.
Letters go unsent,
remain unopened.

Don't think you'd ever understand
The pain beneath my skin,
The hurt that crawls up like guilt
The promises splinted like my soul.
All and all but empty words
I cussed my stupidity,
Hating me for who I was
The failure I made of myself.
Why do I **** up
Why so perfectly
Why anyone, why me.

Sometimes I hear the music
Secretly paying in my ears;
Even when I cannot begin
To envision your presence.

Sometimes I see the stars
Wink at my tear stained face;
Even when there are in fact
No stars in the solemn sky.

Sometimes I feel your kiss
Lingering on my bare skin;
Even when you have long
Closed the door to you and I.

I walked out into the rain
It was always me wasn't it
I blamed the same person
It always wrote my name
I was never meant to be
It was an accident was me
I long used up my tears
It was my weakness I cried
I lost because I'm lost
It was my fault I chose to stay

You said to let go,
though you were the one.
I saw through your words
what i saw was no.
You just let pain run;
running through our lives.
why do people always lie
blinding each of us with ice...

no one could've given a better explanation
the end, was the end, was all it was
i was lost with all my misplaced puzzles...
we have all but forgotten our senses
none left, none lived, no one came out
i was gone all with the other;
just like my mistaken words
those broken sentences.
Heartache wallowed in my shallow mind
where leaves failed to survived
and we all craved to dig our graves...

My tears never fell
But I still felt it all
My smile didn't fade
But inside I drowned
My compose stood
But the chaos too
My love never left
But I just lost control