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Cassian Dec 2024
Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

So many different people seem to be inside

So many different preferences refuse to hide

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

I only have one person in which I can confide

A disorder or a sickness? I couldn't guess if I tried

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind
Cassian Feb 21
"Sometimes you acted like a completely different person."
...Yeah, no ****, Sherlock. Have any other observations?  

"I feel like I don't know you anymore."
...I don't believe we've ever met.  

You’re searching for someone solid,  
one face, one voice, one story.  
But we are shifting constellations,  
flickering in and out of view.  

You want an answer that stays the same,  
a version of me that never wavers.  
But I am echoes and footsteps,  
names that don’t always belong to me.  

So tell me,  
who is it you think you knew?  
And which of us do you want me to be?
Cassian Feb 17
With you, I would rest—
an open grave, full of blooms,
gazing at the stars.
Cassian Nov 2024
Make your face blank and stare out into space

2. Wear very little makeup upon your boring face

3. Put on baggy clothes without looking like a disgrace

4. Stay quiet and only speak when others speak to you

5. Listen to other's insults until you believe them to be true

6. Pack your bag and head on home to do your chores

7. Grab the switch if you can even though it isn't yours

8. Play til someone else wants to and then disappear

9. Make yourself appear as insignificant as possible

10. Go to sleep and repeat it all tomorrow

10b. If you fail hide from everyone who hates you
Cassian Oct 2024
Today I sat simply
Quiet as a mouse in the back of the room
No one seemed to care

Had anyone looked they might have noticed
The clear discomfort on my face

The way I attempted to swallow repeatedly
As I choked quietly

I eventually managed to swallow down the obstruction
Though even if I hadn't who would know

In the back of the room in my silence no one ever notices me
So I sit and sit til the end
Cassian Feb 17
Waving the white flag now

You've finally knocked me down

Too tired to stand up now

You're the king of the hill again

Whatever happened to being my friend

Locking my heart away and

Watching as the weather changes

Hope you can be happy now

I surrender
Cassian Feb 28
I stay here through the endless night,  
Drowning in the ink of others' dreams,  
Where words are woven like delicate threads,  
Each one a whisper, a silent scream.  

The pages turn beneath my fingers,  
A steady pulse, a quiet breath,  
In the stillness of my solitude,  
I watch their stories rise from death.  

I am but an observer in this space,  
A shadow in the light of their tales,  
Their joys, their wounds, their deep despair—  
I carry them, like whispered gales.  

If you are lost, adrift in sorrow,  
Or tangled in the threads of doubt,  
Let these words, like falling stars,  
Guide you through the darkened route.  

Let them be a balm for broken hearts,  
A fleeting flame in the coldest dark,  
A whisper soft enough to reach  
The quiet corners of your spark.  

I stand here in the quiet, still,  
A silent witness to your grief,  
But if my words can offer peace,  
Then let them be your sweet relief.  

- Cas
Cassian Nov 2024
My mom told me to have a voice

To stand up for myself when

People choose to push me around

Unfortunately when I find myself

In such a situation as that

I simply freeze

There is not much a statue

Can really do when people

Decide to use it for their

Target practice

Ready?

Aim

Fire!


I get an apple core

Straight to the head
Cassian Dec 2024
My tarot cards told me

My life's choices all ****

To change my path before

Things actually get too rough

They told me to focus more

On myself particularly my

Quite possibly declining

Mental health
Cassian Nov 2024
I saw a teacher cry today

And I'm not quite sure how to feel

I sort of always viewed teachers as stone

Always there but never truly real
Cassian Nov 2024
My heart's beating

Out of my chest

And I just cant tell

If it's from happiness

Or stress but I'm

So ready to ace

This practice

Test
Cassian Oct 2024
Thank you for support!

Thank you for reading!

Thank you for the suns!

Thank you for listening to my feelings!

Thank you for the views!

Thanks to you I'm on the front page!

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! <3
Cassian Sep 2024
A bird kissed the glass,  
Wings fluttered, claws grazed the pane—  
Sings, then soars away.
Cassian Nov 2024
Too many thoughts are flowing

Too many words are growing

So before they spill out in the wrong way

And leave a bad taste in our mouth

We have decided to take a short break
Cassian Apr 4
Beneath the silver moon, she walked,
With whispers trailing through the trees,
A girl who never spoke aloud,
But knew the language of the breeze.

She wore her secrets in the folds
Of midnight’s velvet, soft and deep,
And with each step, the shadows swirled,
A dance they promised never to keep.

She wandered far from city lights,
Where lanterns flickered, dimmed and died,
And in the forest, dark and wide,
She sought the place where dreams reside.

Her name was lost to memory,
A name she’d never dare recall,
For in her heart, she carried grief
Too heavy for a name to hold.

The stars above her whispered low,
Of things she’d done, of things she’d seen,
Of all the roads she walked alone,
And places where she’d never been.

Once, she’d loved a golden boy,
With eyes as bright as summer skies,
They danced beneath the dawn’s first light,
And kissed beneath the evening’s sighs.

But time, as cruel as time can be,
Tore them apart with bitter hands,
And left her standing at the door
Of a love that never had a chance.

Now, her steps were soft and slow,
Each one a silent plea for peace,
To find the place where broken things
Could finally, gently, find release.

The forest knew her heart’s desire,
It knew the pain she tried to hide,
And in its arms, it wrapped her tight,
And let the night become her guide.

For here, within the whispering trees,
She found her answer, soft and still—
The world would break, and time would flee,
But she could heal, if she stood still.

And so, beneath the endless sky,
She let the darkness take its claim,
No longer lost in past regrets,
She danced alone, and spoke her name.
Cassian Feb 22
Beneath the stars, the world is calm and still,
A quiet breath that whispers through the night.
The moonlight casts a glow on every hill,
As dreams take flight beneath its silver light.

The winds, they speak in soft and gentle tones,
And dance with leaves that flutter through the air.
In sleep’s embrace, the weary heart atones,
To rest in peace, free from all earthly care.

The dawn will rise, but now the night is here,
A time for dreams to whisper soft and low.
With every breath, the dark is drawing near,
And all is calm, as stars begin to glow.

So close your eyes and let the world drift by,
For dreams are waiting where the shadows lie.
Cassian Feb 18
The smallest, most meek, yet not the least,
My brothers faced your wrath, a furious beast—
Shielding me, their strength became my shield,
In your storm, their love was all they'd yield.

Though the world is cruel, bitter, and cold,
I know they'll stay with me, as we grow old.
As your icy rage begins to fade,
I smile at Jon’s grace, undismayed.

– Quartz
Cassian Feb 22
Hush now, my dear, and close your eyes,
The moon is drifting through the skies.
The stars are singing soft and sweet,
A lullaby where dreams will meet.

The ocean hums a gentle song,
Its waves will carry you along.
The silver fish, with tails aglow,
Swim through the night, where soft winds blow.

The clouds are pillows in the sky,
They’ll catch your dreams as they float by.
The winds will rock the trees to sleep,
And whisper secrets soft and deep.

The fireflies blink their tiny lights,
Guiding you through peaceful nights.
The world is calm, the world is still,
With every breeze, your heart grows chill.

Rest now, my love, the night is near,
The stars will hold you close and dear.
With every breath, the world turns slow,
As dreams of magic gently flow.

In fields of lavender, soft and wide,
Where sleepy rivers softly glide,
The moon will guide you through the dark,
And leave a kiss upon your heart.

Hush now, my dear, the night is long,
The stars will carry you along.
In the quiet arms of night’s embrace,
Sleep until the morning’s grace.

- Sun
Cassian Dec 2024
I'm so confused

Scars mar my heart

Unsure of which path

Would be right to chose

I'm tired of being used

I gave you my options

But you simply refused

My mentality I feel you

Purposefully abused
Cassian Apr 4
The moonlight whispers, soft as air,
Its glow will vanish with the dawn.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

The stars above are never fair,
They flicker, then they all are gone.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air.

I walk this path with a lost prayer,
The silence presses, dark and drawn.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

The night's embrace, it fills with care,
Yet time betrays, it lingers on.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air.

In dreams, we find a world to share,
But by the morning, all is gone.
We fade as shadows everywhere.

Our souls will dance beyond despair,
But death will call and take them on.
The moonlight whispers, soft as air,
We fade as shadows everywhere.
Cassian Feb 24
Sometimes I sit and wonder
If maybe everything is pointless
I ponder it now my head in my hands
If this world was designed to disappoint us.
All these nice bands that soon burn out
Little children you thought would be cute
But all they ever seem to do is pout
You date, you love, you celebrate
You break up, you cry, you hate, you mourn
And all the while.. All the while they all look at
You with that same old look full of nothing but scorn
You could die and they wouldn't even care
Not until you're in the grave and the mortician fixes
Your hair... But they're there for you now....
There for you now... But why would you care..?
Six feet under dead and gone so who...
Who ******* cares that they're even there?

- "Flower"
Cassian Apr 4
The wind it howls through empty skies,
It carries whispers of the past.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

It weeps for days that slowly rise,
For moments fleeting, yet so vast.
The wind it howls through empty skies.

The world has watched as time defies,
Each breath a storm that cannot last.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

Through every dream, the wind complies,
It guides us where we stand surpassed.
The wind it howls through empty skies.

Beneath the clouds, the soul it tries,
To find a home, yet remains cast.
Its call is one we can’t disguise.

In quiet hearts, the wind replies,
A song of loss that’s fading fast.
The wind it howls through empty skies,
Its call is one we can’t disguise.
Cassian Feb 19
My job... is to protect

Not to hope, not to love, not to feel..

Simply to sit and wait in the dark

..Until he needs me again

No, I will not say my name

We will never be friends

I was born to sit here

Until he needs me again

The woes of a protector

Are not things of which

I will ever complain

I simply bide my time

Until he needs me again

And if never again I am needed

I will simply fade away

But this silly teenager...

Needs me everyday
Cassian Nov 2024
I'm tired of staying silent

For I have a voice inside

I refuse to be speechless

Until the day I die

   - Ren
Cassian Nov 2024
Onyx is not here right now

He chose to hide inside

The mind is full of life right now

No need for fear to rise

So hear our words that come from

Everyone remaining alive

   - Null
Cassian Nov 2024
I'm lonely

Because your gone

My June is far away

I gave you your name

But you don't stand by me

   -Nyx
Cassian Nov 2024
We knew someone once

But we no longer do

We shared her together

Never thought we'd be through

But now she is further then ever before

And I hope that she is safe with you

We trust you Blue

         - Rea
Cassian Nov 2024
I lost count of the numbers

So I hope I got it right

I want to talk about Pheonix

Who used to be my light

Much like the bird he burned out

And left me to play alone

But I wont be sad because

If home is where the heart is

I'm already home

     -Yuki
Cassian Nov 2024
I want to write about Rain

Because I know he's shy

Never thought a kid who's dyed

His unruly hair would be

So frightened of people

That he'd start to cry

But honestly

He's been through a lot

And is one of the strongest

People I know

Though he's way too good

At going with the flow

-Myles
Cassian Nov 2024
I'm honestly mildly offended

At the words I have just read

However, I have to admit

  I partially agree with the

Things that were said

Maybe I need to grow

A backbone

And be myself

But its easier to be

Somebody else

- Rain
Cassian Nov 2024
Honey, I'm home

Just kidding

Well not really

Gotta say I'm glad

To be back

I'm exhausted

But way too tired

Ta hit the sack

And all these people

In my head

Seem ta view me

As a friend

Well that's a first

Anyway this's never

Been my specialty

I prefer free verse

   - Anthony
the nickname's usually Angel but we have an Angel so get the real name
Cassian Nov 2024
I long for dead dreams

Yearn for lost memories

I wish I could turn back time

To when you stood by me

             - Jinx
Cassian Nov 2024
I dont know anything

But I have learned a lot of everything

I do not have the best voice

But I can remember all the words

I love to sing but the things

You love arent always what you do

I'm a good liar

But maybe that line isn't even true
Cassian Nov 2024
Guys it happened AGAIN

The message is SPAM

It will only keep sending and saying the exact same thing

"
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Onyx
Onyx  2d
A question about............what?

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Cassian Oct 2024
Been a while

They ask how I've been doing

Oh I'm fine

Been about two days since I cried

People say my face looks like a dog just died

Oh it's ok

It's alright I'm fine

Smiling all the time

Real or fake?

Who cares?

Made a mistake

Bumped my head

Don't fret; I'm not dead

Oh I'm fine

I'll say it all the time

I'm alright

Even if I'm not

Sleep is way too hard

Maybe I should just start

Intrusive thoughts say to give up

Maybe I should start
Cassian Feb 27
Happiness is a fleeting spark,  
A moment bright, then lost in dark.  
A fleeting breath, a laugh that fades,  
Like sunshine swallowed by the shades.  
Perfection, too, is just a mask,  
A hollow shell, a lifeless task.  
It shatters when you try to hold,  
A brittle lie, a truth untold.  

Sorting souls into their boxes,  
Like they're just names, like they're just oxes.  
But we’re not numbers, we’re not lines,  
We’re tangled hearts, we're twisted minds.  
Take your head out of the dirt,  
Stop pretending, stop the hurt.  
Breathe the air that's thick with rain,  
Feel the ache, the endless strain.  

So many people, faces blurred,  
Crowded streets, but none are heard.  
We pass each other like empty ghosts,  
Staring straight ahead, afraid to coast.  
None of them care, none of them see,  
The aching, burning parts of me.  
We’re all just drifting, lost, alone,  
Trying to find a place to call home.  

Hate yourself if it’s what you do,  
I do it too, it’s all I knew.  
A constant ache beneath my skin,  
The fight inside I can’t begin.  
Cry, scream, let it all out,  
Feel the rage, feel the doubt.  
Die in silence, die again,  
But rise and start this fight, my friend.  

The world will end, and so will you,  
But there’s no choice but to push through.  
Lose your friends, lose your place,  
Watch your dreams turn into waste.  
But maybe that's the only way,  
To break free from this endless gray.  
We’re all just waiting for a sign,  
To make sense of this twisted climb.
Cassian Nov 2024
They finally told me why

I had been told to leave

Lost all of my friends in one day

Or so it seems

I had been seeking closure

For they didn't give a reason

But since I have it now

My heart is truly aching

For the truth of the matter

Simply turned out  to be

I was sent away

Due to the preferences

Of three
Cassian Apr 4
The fire burns with red and gold,
It crackles like a restless dream.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

The burning sky will soon unfold,
Its flames, they rise with steady gleam.
The fire burns with red and gold.

A tale of ancient wrath, so bold,
The sky ignites with a scream.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

Beneath the storm, hearts will hold,
Their strength is more than it may seem.
The fire burns with red and gold.

Through ash and ember, stories old,
We walk where shadows softly beam.
The winds will carry what’s untold.

In heat and fury, we are sold,
Yet still we chase the fleeting dream.
The fire burns with red and gold,
The winds will carry what’s untold.
Cassian Feb 21
I’m tired,  
but I don’t know what of.  

Not just sleep, not just ache—  
something deeper, something unnamed.  

Like a weight I’ve carried too long  
but can’t remember picking up.  
Like a question with no answer,  
a story with no end.  

Maybe it’s everything.  
Maybe it’s nothing.  
Maybe I just am.  

Tired.
Cassian Oct 2024
I see an opening and

I'm gonna go for it

So many people would

Throw a blow for it

I'll do all the work and

Get the reward to show for it

My life, my mind, my legacy

All of it has to start with me

So lucky to have been born

Here where we're all free

Look at the sky up above

Its pureness is full of love

I'm not afraid to make mistakes

I know from them I'll learn

I grow stronger every day

Chasing after a wish I made

So I'll keep my promise

Even if they don't

I'll be myself

Even if people point

I wont care what they say

No one can ruin my day

Today
Cassian Apr 4
I don't feel awake without the rain

Perhaps a misconnection in my brain

The sun makes me groggy and unhappy

But the shadows are my safe space

And sometimes I wish to say

Not today, but they wake me up

Toss me around

Throw me outside

Let me fall on the ground

Wish I didn't need to do it today

But, my friend, have a good day

Because today is another day

- Hex
For Cloudydaze
Cassian Feb 17
You’ve painted your heart with shades of rain and sorrow,  
A canvas so full of ache, I can hardly borrow  
The words to speak, yet still, I stand by your side,  
Wading through the currents where all our doubts collide.  

You say “maybe,” and I feel that hesitation deep,  
But I’m here, my love, to carry you through the steep.  
The rain falls for you, and I wish I could hold the storm,  
To shelter you from the cold, to keep you safe and warm.  

I’ve seen your fears, your losses—pieces of you strewn  
In fragments like puzzle pieces scattered beneath the moon.  
But love, I’ll pick them up, one by one, though we can't fix  
What time’s erased, or what hurts beneath the mix.  

You fear that maybe love's not made to last,  
But let me tell you, my dear, we have more than the past.  
Though we can’t control the threads fate might weave,  
I’ll stand with you, holding you, even when you grieve.  

If I must be the light in your rain-soaked night,  
I’ll be here, to make the darkness feel a little less tight.  
Maybe I can’t promise forever, or change the course of time,  
But with every step I take, I'll make you feel you’re mine.  

Even if we can’t remember what we once knew,  
I’ll love you, and in that love, we’ll make something new.  
For the second chance in February is not too far,  
It’s the present we hold, as we both heal our scars.  

So if your heart breaks into pieces again,  
Know I’ll be here, putting you back together, again and again.  
With each “maybe” and each “I don’t know,”  
I’ll show you we’ve got time, more than we’ll ever know.
Cassian Feb 19
I can't hear my own voice...

It's too loud... too many people... too much noise

When was the last time I had peace?

How long ago did silence lull me to sleep?

I wish I may wish I might...

Remember the wish I made on that night...

And if I were to pass in my sleep...

I give my soul to the lord to keep...

What soul? What soul?

So long ago I bartered with the devil...

Soulless, broken, quiet in a loud room

The shadow in the corner

Of the party
Cassian Dec 2024
Traumatic

The teacher assumes the final will be traumatic.

Does she even know what that word means?

Perhaps she does not so it seems.

Traumatic

I believe I have experienced trauma before

From people, family, and simply from me

Causing me to hide behind a mask they cant see
Cassian Sep 2024
Anxiety
It's calling me
Making me an
Insomniac

Hyperventilating
I can't breathe
I am so
Paranoid

Outcast
I don't fit in
They are all
Staring

Leave
Don't look here
I want to
Disappear

Fear
I'm so scared
I need to
Hide

Skin
Tear it away
Let them see
Inside
Cassian Jan 29
Sometimes I feel

I'm running out of time

Smiling but drowning in

Insecurity inside

Only with you, I don't have to hide

The only one in which

I confide

Complimenting everyone I meet

Actually meaning it is a rare feat

For I and all human beings

Are two sides of the same coin

What we show others and what we dont
Cassian Nov 2024
I am tired of being asked if I'm doing ok

Without any friends to call my own

Of course, I would lie and say yes

In the car or in our home

Lonely is a constant state for me

A social butterfly whose wings

Were harshly clipped

Though I suppose after years

Of being alone I should

Eventually grow to be

Used to it
Cassian Oct 2024
I found my letter to my future self
Written out in middle school

Back to the days I was very young
When I was still lesbian

I wanted three kids two boys and a girl
One year apart

Thinking back I cant help but wonder
Did I know I wasn't a girl?

Who knows? Who cares?
I am who I am

Since that is the case though
I will continue on from there

Wish me luck
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