Laughing internally

As three boys ask for my number

In a dumb attempt to bully me

They think they're the smart ones here

Trying that right after school

Though my parents did not raise a fool

Those wannabe "bullies" should go be

Busy worrying about finals instead of me

Traumatic

The teacher assumes the final will be traumatic.

Does she even know what that word means?

Perhaps she does not so it seems.

Traumatic

I believe I have experienced trauma before

From people, family, and simply from me

Causing me to hide behind a mask they cant see

Mother, dearest

I think you pretend to love me

You live so far away

Leaving your lost child to watch

Watching for a message that never comes

Why does it never come?

Why do you say you love me but never try?

It hurts you know

Being ignored by you could make me cry

Compared to my brothers living there

I wonder if perhaps you simply don't care

Your precious little girl

To you that's all I'll ever be

Though I confided in you

Back when I was questioning

I figured myself out

But for now, I will sit pretty

Because I'm my papa's little girl

Whether or not I want to be

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

So many different people seem to be inside

So many different preferences refuse to hide

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

I only have one person in which I can confide

A disorder or a sickness? I couldn't guess if I tried

Sometimes I wonder if I'm out of my mind

My tarot cards told me

My life's choices all ****

To change my path before

Things actually get too rough

They told me to focus more

On myself particularly my

Quite possibly declining

Mental health

Mum tells me that high school doesn't matter

The bullies get old and fat and the bullied get rich

Only 20% of the emo girls could actually be a witch

If only she knew how wrong she is

Classes don't matter but people do

Holding on to the closest who care 'bout you

Worrying about who to take to prom

I've got many different options to choose from

No, I'm not popular, and by many I am scorned

- Shiggi