My sponge,
I squeeze what I need and run the tap again
A bunch of empty jars are what we have in the end
Am I chained to loving men who are sick like this?
Is this how a baby finds her end in a ditch?
Well I don't wish I didn't,
But I'd never do it again
Cut carefully now, put the scars where they'll count
Now the tissue is thick
It's better like this

Thanks for the bite marks, *******

She's screaming, she's crying
"**** this system! They don't even know us, lets go **** em!"
The moon never rises like it did last summer
And even though it's good
It can always get better
He's yelling, he's shouting
"You're a **** liar! Got into his car, who knows what happened?!"
Hey I know a place
It's so **** nice
All you gotta do is take it
Then blackout, you're fine
The stars always come out
To play card games with you
And there ain't nobody
To tell you what to do
The air smells like honey
And your skin will start to glow
Sugar dont think about it
That's just the way it goes

Even clues that aren’t about you,
You apply them to us
So I guess I don’t have to worry about the digs I drop
For you to find in the moss

Lover, I thought my life was going to melt
And fall off the bone
Instead it flashed before my eyes,
Now I’d rather be alone

Oh the beauty of a beating heart,
So red and instead,
Never to bed,
Always promising just a little bit longer
And oh the curiosity of crickets when it's light out,
Like rain in a sun town,
Dressing up to ride around

I keep my clothes on the floor
And my head in the clouds
My heart in the music
My eyes in the crowd

My skin in the silk,
Sun and warm water
My toes in the rings
My fingers in lacquer

My soul in the streets,
My wrists in the sheets
My hair in the glow
My baby in my dreams

You never deserved this palpitating heart that keeps me up in the darkest dark, the brand new you I created was so much better, so much better that you hated him and hated me for creating him and forcing you to see you could choose greatness, and the things for which greatness is made, and the incredible orange happiness of mornings waking up with a yawn into my neck and hair. You hate him because he is the you that you chose against again and again and it is him who sleeps with me at night.

The hours always pass faster when it's dark outside, so why do we hurt the best things in our lives?

Going to hell and the rich way to get there

I would love you in a war
I would love you in a fire fight and on the bathroom floor

Did you heal me overnight?
Or did I do it on my own,
Just like I crafted the rest of this show
Is there something you just won’t say?
Or millions of them
Let’s spend a night in Vancouver
And take turns testing, then
You soak it up just like me
Everything you are is everything I see
I’ll take my time
I’ll linger while we say goodnight

Clinking ice all in our glasses
Tapping heels, darkened lashes
And the lights are all out for you
I swore they'd winked knowing what we were up to
"Free all night for a smile like yours."
Well they coughed their drinks
Us dancin the fake shore
And that bikini was so Vegas
Did it anyway because they let us
"Free all night for eyes like yours"
I know what you wanna do
Bein bad is better
When it's laid out on a strip for you

Cobblestones
Each stone on its own
Walk over and over
Slower and slower
They get to hear the beach all the time
What a fine time to be a rock
I start to stare and they start to melt
One into the other
Like a fabric pattern
Reminds me of a jet engine
Seems like everything reminds me of planes these days
What a day

Don't have to worry,
Boys to drive us, drink up
Tasting like liquor and missing
Kisses kisses I'm so into this thing
Houses like castles
Pools all over
With my sisters party goers

You're everything I want,
Because like my favorite song,
You're everything I'm not
You treat me good,
I'm all bad
You're the most undeserved thing
This spoiled brat has ever had
Is it worse to be unaware
Of the rubble left in your wake
Or see it just so clearly,
And do it anyway?

I hate feeling like an island with my thoughts, you know? Like you know that feeling where everyone you know is part of that thing you're thinking about that's kinda messed up and removed, and you know no matter who it is you talk to about whatever it is, there's a different point that each person will miss, so you can't actually talk about it with anyone but yourself and eventually it's just like bouncing a ball off a wall so it keeps coming back to you? I bet that's how people go crazy

I don't have time like a clock does
I'll tick you around till your heart stops
He said put down the scissors,
All I said was I miss her,
Oh, you better not
And you better stop
I needed to chill,
And I've done a good job
I'm so ******* sweet
And you're stupid, it seems
Like with me, you dream
You wake up and push your luck

I am Sun-roasted mahogany, and still warmed
Before the day even breaks
You are in the air and between every follicle
All amber, jungle-eyed, full of undiscovered life
Brand new species of whole love,
Growing from the body
Giving my preemptive brain honor to sleep
Rivers and roads abound in you,
Safe and a welcomed means of travel
To a Brand New World
To the place they always promised me

Though if war sprouted on the skyline,
You, the red mist,
I would gladly be a traitor
I would peacefully be ******

I hold too much water in me
There’s too much space to swim
Or so I’m told
An infinity of things that can go wrong,
When there’s that much room
For strange plants to grow
And who knows how far down it goes?
Or if the people in the village
Nestled right in by the waves edge
Would lose it all
If the tide came in too close
How in heaven,
Could we entrust our sons,
Could we entrust our boats?
After all that rocking and thrashing
After all the unpredictability she’s shown?
We’ve trashed and traumatized her sand and foam,
Left her thirsty and lapping at the shore she owns
Now she’s just a bit too close
A bit too vast to predict
Or control

Just a simple flick of your tongue in your wrist
To purge your mouth of all of this
To let you pretend that you forget
You tease me only to justify it
How you get set on fire
It’s easy to fib when you’re a ***** liar
But I love you so
Let’s find a high rise up in Toronto
Promise to hold me tight,
I’d do it for you, though I hate the snow  
Make sealed promises
See how it goes

Sugar shock
An after-credit song
Whatever, don't stop
I miss my sisters
I hate choir kids

Trials and trying times we have
Young hearts beating down a burnt race track
You know I’d bet on yours
The man with a plan kicked in a few locked doors,
And stumbled through the frame
The angel he’d seen in his dreams
Cried tears that fell to his name
Written on the floor
It’s nobody’s fault,
So what are we fighting for?
I would’ve given my all,
Then just a little bit more
Biting the hand that holds
Will turn it fair and cold
In defense

You’re bitter,
So you won’t pick up your phone
Is it the principle?
Or would you rather be alone?
I know I’m a whole lot
To swallow in one pill
But you made a promise
Keep it in your pocket
Or at least keep it close
Your silence at my spite is all I need
To know we love each other still

I want what I can't,
Want what I can't,
Always want what I can't have
There is no better side
No brighter eye of my heart
Well I'm gonna get something good
If I'm gonna get hurt
I'm gonna make it count,
I'll get what I want
If I'm gonna get down

Don't fall asleep with the dryer on
Don't fall asleep with your heating pad on
With your bed light on,
With the tv on
Don't fall asleep with your weeping on
Your sleep walking on
All the stereos on

I answer to the moon and the rain and my pacts with myself
Not to you or him or anyone else

Go ahead and let the bottom take you,
These pieces are better split apart
If there’s anything left that could be called ivory and innocent,
You’ve found it preserved, wrapped up on a shelf in the dark

Then, there are the million shades of green I’ve tasted
Sour, bright, unstable, often man-made
Take me far into something natural
Let me know when you get there safe

I will see you
And all will be still
You'll be standing at the end of the pier
Looking at the water
I will run to you
Your name tastes so sweet
And we will go

The list of reasons he gave me for staying was blanker than my stare

Drunk, ****** up
Stumbling through the house
Giggling now, trying to find the light
I'm sorry we woke you up
Woulda been passed out all night
And I know you never sleep
You can't, I know, trust me
And I'm always bringing my girls over
****, you've even got a collection
Of bobby pins
And I broke your downstem
And I'm always passing out in your bathroom
"God ****** Calli, what am I gonna do with you?"
Always smokin your hash, taking dabs
You let me do it, because you know what we have.
You don't treat them like you treat me
I'm invincible
I can kiss you and hit you and pull you and push you
Laugh and crash and cry and trash
So shut up, you know what's up
Because in the sheets and against the wall
I'm a bonfire, she's just a match
The way I heat you up makes up for all the crap
When you're saying something sick and I'm so enthralled
The way I nod my head because I get what you said
And I care and I want to hear more
It's different and we get it
Why won't you just admit it?
Haha, nevermind
That look says it all

What the hell is wrong?
What do you think I'm on?
I'd prefer a downer,
And that you forget about her
My hair is longer and golder
I look like a mermaid when it falls over your shoulder
My waist is small, I could give it all
A bad baby with an always broken heart
When you tell your stories I listen to every word
And I love your shampoo and your sadness
And you know how to read the method to my madness
And how to talk me down when I'm freakin out above this
And all the weird things you do, I do too
Since I was a little girl I didn't think I'd find it
A shooting star that knows how to rocket
Rock it, rock it, dance with me
Smarter than Miranda, prettier than Maddy
Darker than Zoe, sweeter than Bella
And I know it's true cause you always want more
I never get old, you never get bored
Make the smart decision boy, you're a genius
Here's a quarter and a scratch off ticket
Ill be under the first layer
You'll know when you see it

It’s fatal to twist my stomach this way,
Yet he leaves me to walk around
Having swallowed glass and nails
I’m both starving and so full, I spill over

Leave me
Leave me
Please, I’d hollow out this body
Rather than be a whole woman with a single piece of you still inside me
I’d rather crash this car while I’m young and sturdy
Than wait as you take four steps back for every five forward
Slipping skyward like running paint on the horizon
I was earthbound, I would’ve died trying
I believed in a tether we couldn’t see but it was only lights and strategic wiring
Our first night failed us, now it’s miserably dated
Every night I still ask it into my bed
I still sleep with it right next to my head

Wish I could get over you
Like I get over fences
But you, my brick wall, it's a free for all
And my brother started talking in his sleep
Or maybe it's just me
I don't know which is worse

No immunity
Cherry tree, cherry tree
Always sweet to me
I'm sorry I can't squeeze back
My girlfriend smile lacks
Don't turn the melody off
The concert, fun but rough
And I can't hear anymore

*******, punk isn't dead

I have a NEW m
Oh, and, I only liked you for your cats, and your back, and the pins on your hat. And guess what else? He has a jacuzzi, so ill let your mind run around wild with that, Loverboy.

It’s strange to taste a slap in the face
Feel it through my waist like a slow dance
I wonder if you plant those flowers at every house on the street

I couldn’t explain the way I wanted you

A painted purple rose
Where it stops nobody knows
A fright night glow
Midnight rock show
Favorite song on the radio
Tell him where his hands should go
Don't look at him at school
Make him think you're cool
Like an ice block on a golf course
All the Cali kids do it too
A failed math test
Meaning no but saying yes
Afternoon nap
Lipstick on your brand new hat
I don't wear lipstick

Even when I say what I want to say it's not what I wanted to ******* say

A shoot and miss in the dark,
I try to guess your thoughts
Hope it won’t hurt but will burn just enough
I beg you through silence and telephone lines
You take a shy bow,
And blow out three dozen lights
Grind me down ‘till I’m powder fine
Holding so steady and strong,
I beg you to try
Hold me close
Kiss me goodnight

If this black,
Blood red,
Billowing fire
Could rage any higher
Burn up the oxygen
Your false words selfishly syphon
Convinced they require
It would be a mighty
Heavenly force
Indeed
But within the grand canvas,
Quite a minor feat
For theatrical,
Impassioned,
Merciless me
Never so kind
As to stop at your feet
I’d bury you alive
Cut holes for your
Lying
Eyes  
Force you to watch
The horror of melting earth and trees  
The irony  
Of the rain so closely watching,
And choosing to leave

I returned home at 4 o clock
The latest time I’ve ever known
Through your voice I found my echo
Through your voice I found my home

And in the pitch black, hopeless moments
There’s one place I always go
Your fragile pulse pressed flush against me
Your soul making me it’s own

I don’t remember how I got from Southgate station to this corner market,
I was with you, smelling the leather of your coat
And scratching the tickle in the root of my scalp from where your chin sat
I reached my hand past the stubble and into the curls
The whole way home
I choose something sweet, cold
The refrigeration might bring me forward,
Instead my hand is now slipping in condensation,
I get into the car
Wet body and warm tongue,
Shaking and needing for food, forgetting what my own voice ever really sounded like
Just how you left me and how you will always find me again

I do not have much
Of your arms, or legs
Or fingers,
Enclosed,
Or opened wide
I do not have much of your naked eyes
Pooling wet around the green,
Specked with golden fireflies
I have not many of your lines,
Remembered well
Much less memorized
Much better
Is every word you tried
To skip across to me
A smooth stone from the lakeside
So that maybe
I could see the signs,
Come to know your heart
In my own way,
On my own time
Once I settled in with the crickets
To play the flute in our goodbye,
The saddest melody,
My only lullaby

The way you touch me
Like I’ve never been here before
Like every silent night,
Was just another door
To the way I take you in
To where heaven starts
When the space between us ends
Like a golden cracking thunder
You bend and pull entire rivers
How could I ever want another?
Just how could I ever be the same  
Do you see the twilight through the curtains,
How it lights up your name?
I say it softly into your neck  
Baby, all the power that you give
I’ll breathe it out and give it back again

I
hope
she's
worth
it

Wow
Friends
She dressed up
And I didn't
"I'm mad about a lot of things"
I thought about five
He can't be what you need
If he's eighteen