Play pool like you do
With me tippin over next to you
Grab me by my jeans, in your T, unsweet
Kiss me with your whiskey
I know that you miss me
In a cloud of smoke, we'll go up
I get the king chair
With the quilt showing off my hair
In the middle of the room
Everything in view
Metal walls, I have it all
Sound system and the air kissin
The lights inside keep it lookin like my favorite season
Year round, won't turn down
My favorite place on this side of town
In the way back past the gate
A swing hangin from the prettiest tree I've ever seen
How I love to play

I use a lot of commas because my thoughts never end, they never have a finish point to them they just bleed and bleed into each other, like ******* shooters all sharing needles, **** all my thoughts probably have aids

Firefly I had hoped to catch,
A light in a bottle, I'd dreamt like mad
I want what I've lost and destroy what I have
And you found love in a flower patch
Tending to delicate,
Like you know so well
Its late and I've found my unafraid self,
You were there to water the ground
Don't be restless, don't wish for rain
There's still a drought in this gorgeous place

Feel like ****, and they say I'm the ****
Like Calli, what's up? Come hit this
And mommy and dad aren't together anymore
So now when she looks at me she just sees a broken promise
And I love that walked out the door
Mornings aren't fresh anymore
At least Fridays are more exciting than before
What do you do when they don't get you?
If wonderland was real, you know where I'd be
Maybe it is
Guess I don't have the right eyes to see
And I feel like I'm crazy
Ill have something in my hand
And the next second it's gone,
Right into thin air
My lungs must hate me
I know my liver does
And this boy just loves me
But he's not the one I want
And my writing isn't as good as it used to be
Ever since he slipped from me
I hate this poem
Whatever

There was an apple
Of ruby and gold
In a town of pigeons, young and old
It was sad, and wanted love
But all the pigeons had to think with,
Were stones
They jumped and flapped,
For they couldn't see
Just how precious a golden apple could be

Drive me off a cliff
Drive me crazy
"Forever and ever"
LA apartments made me
Make me laugh
Make me cry
And when the news goes around,
You'll ask yourself why
Tell me a story
Tell me a lie
It's what you're best at,
And I always catch em
But for a minute I believe
Every ******* time

"What happened to you guys after the party last night?"
"Oh, sorry James, we just had to deal with some....business"

I don't believe you when you say you love me,
So I don't believe anything

The hours always pass faster when it's dark outside, so why do we hurt the best things in our lives?

Going to hell and the rich way to get there

I would love you in a war
I would love you in a fire fight and on the bathroom floor

Truth be told, it's getting old
Couldn't decide whether to toss you
Or cross you
Lips like limes and cyanide
Slip a thread around my neck
Press the dimmer in my eyes
With every lie, every lie
Every look, "until next time"
Put me to rest, I love your bed
Miss sleepy head
Since when did I have a bed time?

Cops came three nights ago
I was being...... bad
Haha, so bad
Tried to leave, and momma hit me
So I layed on my bed
Turned on Degrassi
Feelin so much like Darcy
And she's crying into the phone
"She's out of control!"
And Officer whatever the ****
Came in my room
"Miss, this is enough"
Haha, you're dumb
It's never enough
Ill never have enough
"Have you seen this show? It's really good"
"Your mom says you've lost it. Have you gone crazy?"
"Mm, I think so."

We party, we rage, ain't it all so great?
So much fun, so above
But now Sugey and Seb, they're both dead
And pretty Savannah is in a hospital bed
Wires and tubes, I think of me and you
How it coulda been us, under an unforgiving moon
The car on fire, hot with teen desire
To run around, don't come down
All alone all together in a masked- up city
But this time the morning after is way worse than ******
"You and me Soph, we got invited there"
And I had put on mascara and done my hair
So crazy, so surreal
And it happened so quick
Now pretty party-queen Savannah?
She has to live with it

"Calli, Calli, I need your help
Vicky's passed out in my bed right now
I know I'm a **** and I know I've been a *****
But I need you to come over"
****.

A failed math test
Meaning no but saying yes
The folded part on a fruit roll up
You're my smoke, but I've given up
A coffee grinder
Bathtub spider
It smells like donuts at four a.m.

One loves his bike, the other has a car
Neither one gets very far
I hope it feels nice wherever he is
Because today was the first day we really had wind
Meet me in the alley right before three
My favorite boy still won't party with me

Stab me,
Oh baby just **** me
Take all I said in a moment of trusting
*******, throw it back at me
Prove me right again, lemme have it
Toss my head around, fantastic
Nail me to the wall,
I'm bleeding, but laughing
Make yourself sick
With your lie soaked spit
I'll still get what I want
You may be a quitter,
But I'm not

I wish you could see the steel-*****
ribs I carry
My backbone of shiny titanium
The diamond whites of my eyes
You can’t imagine how fast I’ve had to hold
How tight I’ve clutched my very soul
Close
Just how thoroughly strong I had to be
To become this delicate for you

I wish I wasn't so vindictive,
I wish I wasn't so into hurting,
Then kissing
One small slip, I'm in a cold sweat
Waiting with a knife,
Ready for the lies,
All I know is things missing
Never the one,
Or just having fun,
You'll have to talk me through it, I'm shaking
Always on the edge,
Painted blue and red

It's dark
I... can't.. I can't see
And the walls talk
And say its not worth it
It's so not worth it
I wish I knew what happened
After you breathe, say goodbye
And they ask me why
Because the moon isn't as bright
And he doesn't look at me the same
And the summer was such a hot one
"You're gonna burn up, girl"
Oh please, please
Burn me up
Backed into a corner, she cries
They get mad when she catches their lies
Behind her back, ratta tat tat
Metal on wood, it hurts more than it should
Where to go, what to do
Up at 4am, lashes wet and thick as glue
So hot your sheets are soaked through
I want to do it
But I don't want it to hurt
But sticking around
Would be even worse

Instead of a headache or a twist in my lungs
I'm popping plastic caps till the love wears off
Till the hum wears off
Traffic, stop and push
That's how we are
Bang and bang till my fists are sore
So much purple and blue but I still want more
Purple and blue,
All for you

"I love him, I do
I deserve it, it's true"
And he goes on slapping you
Making your skin turn as red as his
Because he's so mad at you
So beautiful
And you know you're mean
Under sheets with other boys
But you are lovely still
Senior girl
And he goes on hurting you
Leave this place now
He won't back down
Go to the music and happiness and love
That is not love that is bruising your body
Swelling those green eyes up tight
"But I love him!"

My poems about you do the best
Today you pulled up on the string
My yo yo string
Up, up I went
Like a child's toy, butterfly
This song makes me cry
And happy endings are so boring
Maybe that's why

Thanks for the bite marks, *******

What did he say?
Piano starts to play
My favorite song and I can't sing along
Tidal wave, my blood and veins
Little girl just playing games
Chutes and ladders,
Still chasing after
A green sky
And the light that's leaving his eyes
Notes, I need you, play for me
Drag me under
Quiet this tide

Sugar
Maybe it was the drugs
Or maybe it was the devil sharing our shoulders
Maybe the air got too thick
Sheets in a cold sweat
Maybe the power turned out
Maybe the music got too loud
But as long as hell is still burning
I will want you back
"Condemn yourself with this nonsense,
And sure as hell I still love you."

He thinks on such big scales
And like a dragon, he's got scales
I reflect in all of them
Given up,
I just fall into it
Just in love
So in love

I'm evil and I glitter
I love their screams
Nails in deep,
You just love the heat
I know I did something bad
Cause my mouth taste sweet
Better than cherry juice
Worse than lovin you
Jennifer Check can't touch this
I've got the sick
Gimme a kiss

Talking myself into trees
k-i-s-s-i-n-g
Angry you,
Crazy me
Writing in the sheet seams
And ceiling beams
Pretty ****** up if you ask me
Sweet, red forbidden fruit
In the tree I talked myself into

It starts snowing in your room
Soaking the carpet, your socks
The sound you hear isn't pumping blood
It's a tin cup falling
Waking up with a sore throat
And the covers ripped off
Tossing and turning, tossing some more
Toss October right out the door
Erase the words, erase your mind
I go back there all the time
All I have is a memory
Of her laughing through the screen door
Something you said
You did it again
Baby, she's got dark eyes like me
If only she knew what my pair have seen

I knew, I knew he would, I knew and I did nothing, I did everything

We coulda burned this whole city to the ground. Our heat was like a pride of tigers, and they ripped through every canvas wall and tore them to shreds. We were hot. An electric telephone wire engulfed. We coulda melted them, baby.

If I was a dog, I'd bite
And you may be one now,
But at least you're right
And if I was a cat, I'd scratch
Pouncing on air,
Just missing your lap
Babe if I was a bird, I'd sing
I'd be the kind of canary
You'd be too afraid
To send into a mine,
That's what you are at all times
Even when I seem unsure
I'm a maybe at best,
For sure

The sweetest music, making me weep
Wanting to scream but unable to speak
I'm tired but oh so rushed
Shaking hands, too late is enough
And I'm scared and aware,
And I know what's up
But I'd rather it now than before
Now he's calling my name,
Kicking in the door
Can't get into a room without one,
So what are they trying for?
I care, I care
I say it at least
An exhaustion immune to a good nights sleep

I want to drown in you
Because if I'm not six feet deep,
If I'm not surrounded and submerged,
I don't do well in empty space
Well let's just say,
When I have room to move,
I'm a wolf in the herd

Oh the beauty of a beating heart,
So red and instead,
Never to bed,
Always promising just a little bit longer
And oh the curiosity of crickets when it's light out,
Like rain in a sun town,
Dressing up to ride around

You're so mad,
And I'm so sad
But there's so much more fun to be had

This sweat isn't for you
Got a whole lot of lyin to do
I mean thanks for the bottle,  I like it I do
It'll really be good when the boys roll through
When it slides down my throat
When it spills on the floor
When the scent of cinnamon slips out the door
What? Did you think we'd drink it together?
I like it much better when 'forever' is 'fornever'
Dinner? With you? Sure I'd love to
Take me out and show me around
Ill get high after so I won't come down
Ill be a polite lady just for you
But only if you get me a bottle
Or two

Assassin,
I'm a china doll
No, I don't need
I want it all
Stay back, my skins only mine
feel me now and take your time
I'm tired, just go
come in the window
I need to think
i can't sleep alone
Never a man, never again
your number one ******* fan
My knees love me, when I need them they stand
holding me limp in your confection hands
The shadows and alleys are all I need
*tell me it's okay and to get some sleep

I could never fight you, pretty
My co-first command
My right hand man
They couldn't catch us
You watch the door and I pick the lock,
Giggle and sip while he grinds his jaw
Clasp your hands together,
So I can step up
Split it in half so we'll both get enough
It's been a year
Still can't find us

Trying to love and feel again,
Like lighting a match in the wind
I could blame the stars,
Or the people they are
I could blame myself
And the installed iron bars
Baby I could blame you
Yeah that's probably best
Id probably get the car,
And the money with that guess
Yeah, it's all on you
The boy in blue
But who really knows in the end

Lips on my back
Hands round my waist
We're probably gonna crash
But going out,
I wouldn't want it
Any
Other
Way
Nini, in the pass seat
Laughin in between screams
What a good dream
It was just that, a dream

Baby I'm
A hot flicker in a glittering flame
From a cold night sweat, I call your name
I just can't stay in this place
It's all too much because it's all the same
Pull me in like I knew you would
I counted us out,
And now I can't get enough
I breathe in and out,
My own air chokes me now
Empty space
That you don't cut through
Is not the same


And I'll say it again,
For you this time
I ******* NEED you like the nights
Like pillows in a missile fight
I'm just shaking and rolling around,
You'd never let me go down

I know what can happen between the times we talk
And well,
This valley drought is ******* us
Drying and cracking the sidewalk
I guess no rain,
No pain,
But soon green will be gray
Let's hope by then I'll be dry of everything I want to say

Clicking ice meant almost time to go
Id bet on that, mama showed me so
In a swirl of lipstick and shimmer
Saw pretty ladies in the hall
Through my ordered dinner
Well I watched and was taught
Eventually I knew the drill
Nothing good comes
From party girls raising party girls

Angry is sad
When the drinks are strong n bad
You can't do this again
You can't baby, again
Not with her
Spare my wild soul

Under the covers,
You told me to come outside
See the sun, and his moon lover
Well I've always been a flame,
But now I'm unlike any other
As you light me up and say my name
Candles or the stove,
The soft saltwater glow
They're radiant all the same
You said come outside,
See the stars
Your eyes big as space

You looked like such a man
With those fireworks in your hand
And I saw as you laughed
That things like these make you happy
They make your eyes sparkle
I wanted to touch you
And tell you how strong you are
I wanted you to lay me down
Like you're so good at
And I know you love me
I knew as the explosion made us laugh
And we ran so fast up the porch
And I turned around
And your face
Pure joy and freedom
I sat back down in your room
With the stuff in my lap to make us feel good
And the boys I love like brothers
All panting and yelling and laughing
And you looking so pleased
And thought
"I am so in love with you"

My hair feels like spiders
Do you ever bite her?
I walked in,
You walked out
Feel it now?

A painted purple rose
Where it stops nobody knows
A fright night glow
Midnight rock show
Favorite song on the radio
Tell him where his hands should go
Don't look at him at school
Make him think you're cool
Like an ice block on a golf course
All the Cali kids do it too
A failed math test
Meaning no but saying yes
Afternoon nap
Lipstick on your brand new hat
I don't wear lipstick

You think you crazy?
LIL GIRL GO BACK TO BED
Close your always open mouth for once,
You ain't seen insane yet
I'm sick, a candy sweet *****
You want another cavity?
Come take a lick
I'm right on the edge,
Shut up, you know what I said
So now you hard? I guess now you'd rather be than receive
I'm borderline like Marilyn, Anna and Britney
Angie, Amy, and baby Lindsay
You so worn out,
Won't survive another trip to the washing machine
This ain't a poem, it's a rap
And you bout to be my afternoon snack
Maybe not, I'm trying to watch my fat
Not that i eat too much anyway,
Watchin you taught me better than that
Sit down,
You're a ****** joke
It's all in the lines,
Your past says so

"Girl, I can't wait to get our apartment. Only a couple more years."
"**** yeah. It'll have purple walls with our paintings on them, and our mattresses will be on the floor."
"Yes! And we'll have our bongs on the living room coffee table, and a stereo system and a velvet couch."
"And let's get little kittens!"
"Hell yeah baby girl, kittens rock."

I've got my heel to your throat.
Scream baby but the whole town knows
Do you know?
How're those plans comin?
Have those plants grown?
Like a spider with a busted leg,
Bad idea to be in my room all alone
I'm master,
You're just a SIDE SHOW
A top 40,
What a joke.