You are my soda bubbles
And, I love you
So sweet, you fizzle down
My tongue, my throat, around
Say goodbye to loverboy
He is okay
You are okay
Yay

My rock bottom is an endless abyss
A trainwreck that keeps going,
And deals with the hits
I'm a tiger, I'm a bull
A titanium doll
**** heart,
Leather, chains and all
Don't bother
It goes in one little ear,
Slinks out the other
Another drink goes down,
Disappears like the others
But I love my boys
My girls, my time
The same boy, the bumpy ride
They cry, I shine

Open the door before it pours
I don't even know you anymore
There are different shades of green
You've gone through them all
A kiss goodbye, not tonight
Turn the radio up
Don't wanna hear your noise
I can't remember what about this song
I ever liked
I can't remember what about this high
I ever liked

I'll fall for you like running in the dark
Fall into your quivering heart
Your crystal eyes, and they'll cling to mine
Like Cambria clouds tumble into the night
And the chords you play will clutch to me,
Pull us ever closer, like the fog and streets
Any white room turns green from you,
I would do anything you wanted me to

My favorite song after my favorite song
Each line, yeah we sang along
Me and M
At a show for my favorite band
The band that played while I wailed
And smoked
And snorted and choked
And broke down on the floor
And sang and wrote
And ran around, jumped up and down
Screamed and laughed, they were the background sound
And his eyes were so familiar again
And on my waist, his strong biker hand
And standing there with everything I wanted,
I missed you

I can't hear **** and I love it

Numbers on the back of your hand
A metal mental breakdown
"I go to bakeries all day long, there's a lack of sweetness in my life"
And the nights get colder and colder
Bodies get hotter and hotter
The full moon is never as exciting as the last one
Past one, almost two
Three, four, five, find something to do
Call the boys, call your girls
Sunday is funday, and Thursdays are my Fridays
Inhale fast to make it last
This is the best part of the song

Don't have to worry,
Boys to drive us, drink up
Tasting like liquor and missing
Kisses kisses I'm so into this thing
Houses like castles
Pools all over
With my sisters party goers

18
Eighteen
You legal but you ain't no man

You lay down with dogs,
You've got the worst flees
I lied down with you
Now there's dirt on my knees
I keep having dreams
With you in the rafters
And nightmares that maybe
I can't end our chapter
I keep seeing bikes
With boys on the top
And the lips in my hair
Say "you love him a lot"

The way you touch me
Like I’ve never been here before
Like every silent night,
Was just another door
To the way I take you in
To where heaven starts
When the space between us ends
Like a golden cracking thunder
You bend and pull entire rivers
How could I ever want another?
Just how could I ever be the same  
Do you see the twilight through the curtains,
How it lights up your name?
I say it softly into your neck  
Baby, all the power that you give
I’ll breathe it out and give it back again

I woke up with a stabbing pain in my stabbing pain
Tasting dryer sheets and your last name
You said "I'll see you later"
And I hate her for that
Tears on the good leather
Or nauseous days
Ill choose the latter
Baby dont flatter
Your misery

I know those eyes
Those are your wanting eyes
Your "it's hot" eyes
Your "come here" eyes
I know that deep breathe
It's your "I need you" breathe
Your "help me breathe"
Your "I'm trying to control it" breathe
I know those hands
Those moving hands
Those are your anxious hands
Your "help me know what to do" hands
Your "where are your hips" hands
Your "distract us" hands
Mm

You "fix it"
N change it back,
You're a water bed,
And my nails are in your
Yeah, your back
I can't stop
Like, why do I NEED chaos?
Your loss

Every once in a blue moon,
I'll try you

She's just breaking
My
*******
Heart
With this story
The story that should've been mine
And beating turns to glass cracking
And falling
Shattering
Always shattering

From the coast to the city,
Always sittin pretty
Your blue bug, all Malibu sand and dents  
Making a mess
Enabling and favoring,
My angel with red wings
Giggles like bells on string,
Ring a ling, ring a ling
Our three song soundtrack,
One for day, one for night
One for "I'm here, we'll be so fine"
And you saved me
Oh ***** you ******* saved me

City lights, city lights
Blink your bulbs, kiss me goodnight
You're my only hope when the moon comes out
Line the highway, show me the town
Pick me up, spin my skirt around
The Sunset Strip is scary, but it knows me
Blinking honking flashing shouting
Ever since I was a little baby
Rocked in the arms of the LA traffic
Mulholland Drive, my crib electric
**** your god, I got neon signs
And they look me in my giant pupils
"Cali girl, it's alright"

Oh aren't you everything I asked for
And like a hot, late dream,
Just like THAT girl in movies,
I'm tossing around with nothing on
Just so good feeling like lilies in your arms
It hasn't captured me,
This perfect buzz,
Yeah it's just enough
And if it comes crashing,
I hope you've had practice,
'Cause I'll be so comfortably numb

Hard to dress up
And put on a show
When  my supporting actor is in the third row
And tonight when he sees me
He'll give me a wink
And I'll smile so sweet
N' get another drink

I've never been inclined to tell a bad lie,
But you may have got me beat
You cut wool for my eyes,
Spun me thirteen times
Left me off balance like a newborn sheep
A few things I caught,
When you sweat, I could tell
'Cause I can spin a strong web
On any old shelf
But my love I confess,
My mind tricks me again
For my lies work best on myself

Calli the feeler,
And she does it best
Carmen is glitter in a blackout dress
Calli the artist,
Stuck wild in love
Carmen, the girl in all the rock songs
Calli the painter,
Writing on walls
Laughs in the mirror and the bathroom stall
Carmen the switchblade,
Sweet in satin and glass
In the darkest corner doin somethin bad
Calli the lover
Carmen doesn't care
Both on the phone in their underwear
Calli in purple
And rings on her toes
Amber eyes in the window and momma's model robe
Carmen the kisser who gets the deed done
I am them, we are one

Inside
You have jars of butterflies
Bending their wings with gloved hands,
You tell me they're already dead
And under the mattress, I can only imagine
But it's cleaner than the sheets
At least
You're the scientist and the priest
You're the jagged rocks beneath my feet
The horrific lie with a shining defense,
The proof that the middle is as low as it gets

Lined up like angels, the Bucharest lights
Your Catholic grasp on my shaking thigh
I’ll just take this
And forget the rest
You said you do it all for your perfect daughter
That for now is just a dream,
But someday will be walking
Confidently, faithfully
From the love you give her
I’ll take how you spoke to my eyes,
Like that could be our scene,
In a few years time
Baby I’ll take that,
And forget the rest
Turn, and turn again
From your spot on the outside of the street
Protecting me
Turn and do what we both want to me
Tell me that now, this is how it’s going to be
And forget all the rest

You don't want this,
And I'm telling you
Just like it is
An unsteady tower when the wind comes in,
That's what I am
Made of marble and glass and covered in sun
I'm at my best when the nights are long
But by the sea,
Temperamental place to be
I fear overcasts just teasing me
Yes it's the best,
I will admit
Just listen sailor, please
A beach house is perfectly
Troubled as can be

Give those minis a twirl
Lashes a curl,
Tambourine girl
In the back
Shimmer curtain, spotlight slack
All eyes are on you
One of the cities better views,
They say
What are you drowning?
You sat up silent
So he stood up and went
Quicksand with a layer of gold on top
Like the cymbals you clap
Against your hip, hop
He will be your drummer
Belle stunner

Michael hates Miranda and so does Jake
Diana moved away to a house with a gate
Skylar's boyfriend isn't new anymore
Poppin pills made my mind feel sore
Bradley and Calli haven't talked in months
She's still in love with M and it really ******* *****
Tomorrow is Monday but I don't have school
Rielly and Lilli are idiots, I'm tellin you
I traded all that addy for a pipe and some grass
Now in my eyes you'll see a girl so jaded and crass
Don't give a **** cause they'll never catch me
Don't be a *****
Come and party with me

I forgot to tell you then
But here, ill tell you now
You get outside and it hits you like a brick
The humidity kills and your hands get slick
I worked out then burned out and it wasn't from no drugs
I missed his cologne and his big hard hugs
The lake and the snakes and the cake was great
I couldn't sleep those last two nights
And **** that power outage
Florida flicker n flash
I was up seein things and hearing their sounds
Baby's gon crazy
****** from the bud
Daddy, dad! I'm seein little birds!
Flyin in my line of sight, and the lights are startin to hurt!
Get back to LA and you'll be just fine
Get back to the laughs and the lights and the dry daytime

So much hate, you take the cake
Compared to me, look at your winning streak
You're what all the kids are into
You're what all the girls have gotten into
Save it for the bedroom
Save it for the full moon
Not this place, we're on holiday
I can't help you through your cage

Ask me how I can say
That you’re my forever
You’re my Calvary soldier
I’m both the princess and the tower  
I tell you that I just know
As sure as the sun
And the white of my bones
Hot, fast and always
Is how I think of you
Like summer traffic in the city
Cool, dangerous, wet
Swimming in the east end streets
Right where my mouth and your fingers meet
Inside the velvet of a midnight train
You hold me close and we both take the blame
For this incredible, difficult, beautiful thing

You're everything I want,
Because like my favorite song,
You're everything I'm not
You treat me good,
I'm all bad
You're the most undeserved thing
This spoiled brat has ever had
Is it worse to be unaware
Of the rubble left in your wake
Or see it just so clearly,
And do it anyway?

I am red or blue,
silver or black
and you see purple and gray
I can be a liar,
I can be the biggest fault,
Knocking houses down
Maybe I get what I want,
But like an empty loft
I echo with footsteps
Even when they're soft
But never when you're there
You soak me up
You were never a quitter
And I'll fight all night
Because like you, I'm not

Hot water, lights out
Ten, eleven, twelve
I always come back again
My stomach, rolling and rolling
Pushing and pulling
Yelling and smashing
At me
Should I be sorry?
"The winter is just messing with me"
Messing with my head,
While I'm messing with the heater
I'm playing with my life
Just trying to be sweeter
Messing up the sheets,
Pulling them closer
Scratching at my skin,
The ceiling all in colors

If you take a lotta this,
You'll get a little that
Well anything to feel the love
And get him on his back

She's screaming, she's crying
"**** this system! They don't even know us, lets go **** em!"
The moon never rises like it did last summer
And even though it's good
It can always get better
He's yelling, he's shouting
"You're a **** liar! Got into his car, who knows what happened?!"
Hey I know a place
It's so **** nice
All you gotta do is take it
Then blackout, you're fine
The stars always come out
To play card games with you
And there ain't nobody
To tell you what to do
The air smells like honey
And your skin will start to glow
Sugar dont think about it
That's just the way it goes

I left my clothes at your house,
You left your drinks at mine
Oh and I wish you were here
Forty-five, now it's ten-o-nine
My ribs let go with you laying there
I catch every sigh
'Cause I listen with my eyes
We both feel a shift,
And ask the right thing
At the very right time
That's why
You know what I mean,
That's why

Lady pride won't stand aside
Even in flames and the rising tide  
In the eyes of a storm
Or a crashing car ride
For a wounded wing
Or another life

The phone lines
And chain fences
My love list
I miss cracked sidewalk
Dried weeds
Rusted cars and sticker trees
Southern Cali sunset red
Sugar buns and monkey bars
I couldn't speak Spanish, but I know who you are
Latin music
Cha cha cha
The best

I'm shaking again
Always rubbing my eyes hoping you'll appear again
How scattered can one girl get?
I was waiting for this
I was waiting for this

For them I am strong,
For you I am weak

I'm walking,
And all I see are little puddles of blue
Blue, how typical
Blue, that's tries to be red and green
Blue, that will never see into me
Where are the crazies?
My ocean of rainbows, deep?
I can't live with the roommates in my head
They like to fight over chores while I'm not sleeping in bed
My muse, she's a hider
Wants me to speak for her
I can, lady, I can
I always have
It's the words they don't understand

The crickets and the cars
And the heat of the stars
Running down the street
Hopping the bars
A trap beat
Rustling sheets
Wherever you may be
Rollin windows down as we speed around
Kendrick and Kesha and ATL
Mac and Butch Walker and Frank's Golden Girl
The smell of gasoline
Clink of rings on my feet
When they scream at us to get out of the street
Kisses and moans and gimme more's
Cash register chimes cause I bought one to match yours
Cryin in the bathroom and baby got sick
When I gotta fall asleep
That does the trick

Sad boy with the hurricane eyes
I know you're out there lookin at the sky
It's all an illusion
Slow down, what are you doin?
Loverboy with the tired smile
I know you're up now like you are every night
Oh what a ******
Oh what a summer

He still got it,
We still got it
And I know it, I've always known it
You'd come up every year or two,
Kept thinkin how I bet I still knew you
We were mad, little bads just havin fun
Summertime, only time we ever had free run
Just kids, n when they click it's real
Sandbox love, mhm, for real

Is it the truth that I just don't care?
If not, then at least I've learned
To let sleeping dogs lie where they fall
At least I know what I'll see and I don't indulge
I keep the wolves locked up and my chainsaw off
Of course he knew me after my worst,
Just his luck to escape the curse
Of broken windows
In the middle of the night
Waking up to a red torch light
You know I've got a tongue like a knife,
Tell me dear,
Is that your life or red wine?
Oh, the things I'd love to do to those arrogant eyes
But no, I've learned
You didn't mean much,
And it's not my turn

It's like, going to sleep every night is little naps, and then once you've been exhausted fully by life, you fall asleep for good and that is going to bed

Shh don't breathe
It'll hurt trust me
This ones blue, I like purple too
Oh my dear girl! What have they done to you!?
Just like that, make it feel good
Oh I'm tired, oh this night
So then like, I said, and he said, and she said
Who's ready to party?!
Oh *******
The sand feels so good
This toe ring fits just like it should
Trippin in the bathroom
Blood stains, ball gowns
Electric neon kitty town
I hate you! I hate you!
Make this stop!
Oh man, oh boy
This **** rocks

If only
My only
You look like all the pictures
Neck goes slack
Eyes all glass
Thinkin how I would touch ya
The scene, the dream
The destination screams
"What a perfect chance"
Someday soon I'll have you close
But for now I'll break the trance

You are right there and I cannot have you

I want to pretend it never happened
Like the monster you created between your slick bodies was never there
But she taunts me,
Taunts me like I am a puppy in a window
Like she could compare
As if a show pony would look across the stable to a goat
Forgetting its silken mane for a broken bleat
To think in a million years, in a thousand wildest dreams
That sand could stand
In place of pearl
Yet there was a reason
There was a pull
Yet,
She taunts me

It always hurts worse
When you use a dull blade
And I come home smelling
Like liquor and rain