Lady Luck, what a dime
Hair of gold and legs so fine
Try to **** her, she's got nine lives
A bottle of poison and a rack of knives
They say out she comes when the moon is full
In robes of silver and diamonds fill her skull
Eyes like rubys that burn to the core
And a body like an oasis, you'll beg for more
She kills and steals and doesn't think twice
Never gets caught, illusive as night
No blood, just red wine, heart cold as ice
Skin so pale the stars cry
Whatever she wants, whatever she needs
Seems to come raining down in baskets with beads
Ribbons and gems and shiny things
Men pass out at her porcelain feet
Strings of pearls on her ankles and rings on her toes
Wherever she stops, nobody knows
A pirate disguised by her charm, what a queen
Beware Lady Luck, for she lurks in the steam

My dress your shirt all on the floor
From the bedroom to the door
Pants belt bra, but wait there's more
Skater boy hit it dont quit it I'm addicted
I need it more and more and more
Morphine ****** baby you name it
Ill be your ***** devil girl, you just gotta say it
Hit it real hard, leave a mark, no playin
Whatever's in your skin keeps me comin and stayin
Mmm, mhm, just like that
Till all the sheets rip and the bed frame cracks
And the floor starts to shake and the walls fall back
Jesus Christ baby where'd you learn to do that

I know those eyes
Those are your wanting eyes
Your "it's hot" eyes
Your "come here" eyes
I know that deep breathe
It's your "I need you" breathe
Your "help me breathe"
Your "I'm trying to control it" breathe
I know those hands
Those moving hands
Those are your anxious hands
Your "help me know what to do" hands
Your "where are your hips" hands
Your "distract us" hands
Mm

Red sucker on the move
Down the street, me and you
I would let you take me out, but ill be at the beach
Gettin so gone with the girls on my street
That flannel you love and bought from ten deep
It's next to my bed it belongs to me
Smells like fire so sick with desire
Won't you come and manhandle me?
**** that guitar, boy be a drummer
Your chords feel good but sticks hit it harder
I've always loved the bass more than the melody
Didn't I tell you to party with me?

Sylvia, Sylvia, tell me sweets
What was it like to write like that
And how did the oven feel
Were you scared? Was it hard?
Did Hughes hit you?
And how was McLean?
Will you pleaseeee tell me
I want to know
How things go
With a mind like that

She's screaming, she's crying
"**** this system! They don't even know us, lets go **** em!"
The moon never rises like it did last summer
And even though it's good
It can always get better
He's yelling, he's shouting
"You're a **** liar! Got into his car, who knows what happened?!"
Hey I know a place
It's so **** nice
All you gotta do is take it
Then blackout, you're fine
The stars always come out
To play card games with you
And there ain't nobody
To tell you what to do
The air smells like honey
And your skin will start to glow
Sugar dont think about it
That's just the way it goes

The crickets and the cars
And the heat of the stars
Running down the street
Hopping the bars
A trap beat
Rustling sheets
Wherever you may be
Rollin windows down as we speed around
Kendrick and Kesha and ATL
Mac and Butch Walker and Frank's Golden Girl
The smell of gasoline
Clink of rings on my feet
When they scream at us to get out of the street
Kisses and moans and gimme more's
Cash register chimes cause I bought one to match yours
Cryin in the bathroom and baby got sick
When I gotta fall asleep
That does the trick

We got Jäger speeding 90 in our veins
Because we bled out
So now we can't love you
And glitter in our hair
And street lights in our eyes
We're born knowing how to scream
And you learn to mix a drink at thirteen
Not a cherry goes un popped popped popped
Not the cherries in your Shirley temple
More of a ***** than the traffic
Like something that stings but you gotta have it
You're taught to flip your hair
Bat your eyes
Lie
If that's what it takes tonight
For the love of the party scene
Don't expect to marry me
We aren't for that
We're here to make you feel scared
Nocturnal and beautiful and we'll make you feel sick
But you'll love it

Idontknowidontknowidontknow
Why do I have to?
If only this glass could tell me
Tell me the answer, go on, tell me little glass
Filled to the tippy top
Pretty please with sugar on top
And cinnamon too just for you
Michael! Ugh Michael
I want to make you happyyyyy, and make you loveeeeee me
How silly really, really
Really? Really!
Really dude, really
Seriously girl, no kidding
Turn right here, go all the way down
Hit the pedal right outta this town

Up all night in your underwear
Up all night with Saturday hair
Up all night with the birds sittin there
With the clock tickin there
Why do you care
Sleep all day I don't wanna see
**** the sun baby
**** your dumb party
Momma come a knockin
Just to come hug me
I'm goin crazy
I can feel the heat
Fireball whiskey
And your tongue on me
That's my medicine
Yum yum yummy

Whip that hair
Malibu girl got a bottle of it too
Ruby red
All in the bed
Tangled in the sheets
Don't hit your head

Ooh boy so fine
What a man
Bang bang, choo choo train
Wind me up and ill do my thang
Hahaaaa remember that?
**** I feel it

So pretty girl, so slick
Like a Popsicle stick
And now your lips are all sweet
Tastes so good to me

Mmmm you're makin me blush

When it's not like the movies
Pour some yey in that girls nose
Hold it closed
She doesn't need an ambulance, shut up
Been doin this since I was eleven
A little *** girl, she's fine she's fine
Do you wanna get us ALL in trouble?
Haha girl, you're good
There she is!
Oh, maybe not
Get her in the tub, the tub
Cold water works best
Hold her head up
Haha fuckkk
Okay okay that's good get a towel
Get her in bed
Just wait a little bit she'll be up soon
You're so lucky you have me
Crazy *** Calli
Wild lil baby
Somebody get me a **** drink
Whew

When the clock hits 3
And stays that way
And I'm trying to hold on
To the pills that are wearing off
And I'm scared to open the door
I see you in the space between the ceiling and the dresser drawer
When the birds start to fly
In the corners of my bloodshot eyes
And the bunnies hop around
In patterns on the ground
I see you in the glare
Of the tv playing there
And I'm thinking about 2003, 4, 5
Three two one
Time to say goodnight

Shh don't breathe
It'll hurt trust me
This ones blue, I like purple too
Oh my dear girl! What have they done to you!?
Just like that, make it feel good
Oh I'm tired, oh this night
So then like, I said, and he said, and she said
Who's ready to party?!
Oh *******
The sand feels so good
This toe ring fits just like it should
Trippin in the bathroom
Blood stains, ball gowns
Electric neon kitty town
I hate you! I hate you!
Make this stop!
Oh man, oh boy
This **** rocks

Oh dear, what is going on
Small, big, all around
Curiouser and curiouser
Beware the jabberwocky!
Up and down and side to side
Colors and mirrors and ponies that glide
Bugs that sing and plants that cry
I love it! I love it! What is time?
Creepy but sweet but dark inside
Lewis knew how to play with the mind
*** and drugs and making fun of
Which theory is right
Or is it just a fairy tale
And the answer is none?

"Calli, Calli, I need your help
Vicky's passed out in my bed right now
I know I'm a **** and I know I've been a *****
But I need you to come over"
****.

Sad boy with the hurricane eyes
I know you're out there lookin at the sky
It's all an illusion
Slow down, what are you doin?
Loverboy with the tired smile
I know you're up now like you are every night
Oh what a ******
Oh what a summer

"Shh shh she's waking up"
"Oh false alarm"
"I wonder if she sees us"
"Hears us walking"
"Sometimes she looks at nothing"
"Oh I swear, one time she looked right at me!"
"Are we even real, momma?"
"Oh, of course we are dear"
"Then why doesn't she play with me?"
"Well have you asked her?"
"I tugged on her hair
And whispered her name
And she jumped up and turned the light on
And called a boy
And talked to him like she was real scared
What's wrong with me?"
"Oh nothing baby, she's crazy. It's all the drugs"
"Oh wait wait, shh she's waking up"
Hello?

The last man on Earth sits alone in a room
There's a knock at the door
What to do, what to do

**** your poetry
The same things, a broken record
And I bet you think you're so smart
So emotional and romantic cause you've been torn apart
So hurt and so sad and nice things make you mad
That's funny
Look how hard I'm laughing
Till I pass out and the room starts dancing
I wanna imagine what you mean
Don't say it
Don't write it
Tell me what you see in the stars when you press your eyes against your pillow
Love ain't real, I'm sorry to say
Better you learn now than some other day
When it's too ******* late
Body shattered like a plate
But you're still so heartbroken
Oh poor you, you miss him so much
Seen so much
Been through things so tough
Shut up

I forgot to tell you then
But here, ill tell you now
You get outside and it hits you like a brick
The humidity kills and your hands get slick
I worked out then burned out and it wasn't from no drugs
I missed his cologne and his big hard hugs
The lake and the snakes and the cake was great
I couldn't sleep those last two nights
And **** that power outage
Florida flicker n flash
I was up seein things and hearing their sounds
Baby's gon crazy
****** from the bud
Daddy, dad! I'm seein little birds!
Flyin in my line of sight, and the lights are startin to hurt!
Get back to LA and you'll be just fine
Get back to the laughs and the lights and the dry daytime

Michael hates Miranda and so does Jake
Diana moved away to a house with a gate
Skylar's boyfriend isn't new anymore
Poppin pills made my mind feel sore
Bradley and Calli haven't talked in months
She's still in love with M and it really ******* *****
Tomorrow is Monday but I don't have school
Rielly and Lilli are idiots, I'm tellin you
I traded all that addy for a pipe and some grass
Now in my eyes you'll see a girl so jaded and crass
Don't give a **** cause they'll never catch me
Don't be a *****
Come and party with me

Cobblestones
Each stone on its own
Walk over and over
Slower and slower
They get to hear the beach all the time
What a fine time to be a rock
I start to stare and they start to melt
One into the other
Like a fabric pattern
Reminds me of a jet engine
Seems like everything reminds me of planes these days
What a day

Friday
Wow, some Friday
M left
Vicky ain't my friend
Lilli, her 6th grade will never end
Even though we're fifteen
I just let the sweet fill my lungs
And **** it felt so good
But not really
Cause momma kicked me out
For smoking in the house
And on that Friday I looked in the mirror
So full of hate
Not my face
Black eyes
But mine are supposed to be brown
I know because I got em from daddy
But I wanted mommas green and blue and gold ones
And school is starting soon
Not for me, no, just for you
The endless summer
I have a shirt with that movie on it
And M's got a poster with that movie on it
Last night we made up like we always do
I knew we would

Flips flops hurt my feet
I can take it, I'll take em off
Walk in the street that's putting blisters on my feet
In my favorite grey tee
Our hands bumping but not touching
But I know you'll kiss me
You always do
I love these boys
That can rap so well
And the things they write make me feel so small
Michael I miss you
Daddy I miss you
This Florida trip might make it worse
I might begin to see things that'll make the burns hurt
My scars are bigger than yours
I'm a tough one
Don't touch me
I don't need your sympathy
I don't need a chair
Ill use a pen to tie up my hair
Manicures are a waste of money
Money I could use on us, honey
No, baby, you don't gotta carry me
I can take a bigger **** rip than any girl you'd meet
Ill show you

You looked like such a man
With those fireworks in your hand
And I saw as you laughed
That things like these make you happy
They make your eyes sparkle
I wanted to touch you
And tell you how strong you are
I wanted you to lay me down
Like you're so good at
And I know you love me
I knew as the explosion made us laugh
And we ran so fast up the porch
And I turned around
And your face
Pure joy and freedom
I sat back down in your room
With the stuff in my lap to make us feel good
And the boys I love like brothers
All panting and yelling and laughing
And you looking so pleased
And thought
"I am so in love with you"

I wanna look dark
Like mascara shadows under you eyes
After Friday night
And I want to wear night colors
And a sinister knowing smirk on my face
And the guys will be like
"**** I wonder"
"She looks poisonous"
And maybe I will be
And I wanna light the bowl
And flutter my eyes while I do it
And I'll look so jaded when I laugh
Black shorts dark top dark shoes
Dark room for dark me and you
I wanna have purple nails
And a nose ring!
Haha

Gave me spaghetti
And naughty tv
And went in the hotel bathroom
With his bleached blonde blondie
Yeah, shoot it up, does that feel good?
Don't got emotions, so he injects em
But oh, he bought me dolls! And toys! Candy!
Be good and sit still and quiet
Real nice like
"This is a new place, Daddy moved again."

My chest will not stop it
There's like a little baby woodpecker
Thump thump thumping on me
From the inside
Too many stimulants before bed
I watched a video on drugs
But I was listening to music the whole time
They can call me to discipline
As much as their hearts desire
But you'll be at that desk
Only the faces will change
And I'll be at a rock show with
Sharpie on my arm
And a ringing cell phone
That I won't have to answer

I almost walked down the street
In a black tank top
With my girls
And I almost got into a car
Where I almost smoked something gritty
Where I almost opened the window
Where I almost screamed and laughed at the street lamps
For standing still
When I almost jumped out
Because I wanted to feel it
Where I almost started to cry
Because I almost had you

If Ariel was born on land
She might have tattoos
And burn scars
And her nails might be
Painted black
And Prince Eric might hit her
And kiss her like a street baby
And tell her she looks so fine
In that leather dress
And buy her roses
That he leaves next to her favorite ashtray
And she might see a photo set of the sweet ocean
And wonder what it would be like
To live there

That boy has friends just like you
That girl hates her parents, too
The mailman has to feed his kids
His wife is dead
He has no bed
That girl was at a party last night
That's why her hairs a mess
She's in three different fights
And see those circles under her eyes?
Jack Daniels did that to her too
That woman has a therapist
Her husband won't give her a kiss
And all these people need something too
They're all living
Just like you

Michael ****** Miranda and now Jake is mad
Diana's freakin' out because her grades are bad
Skylar's new boyfriend is twice her age
Popping pills is all the rage
Bradley and Calli have a thing going on
But she's in love with someone, that's so wrong!
Mary and Solange got in a fight at school
"Rielly and Lilli think they're soooo cool"
I've taken adderall every day this week
The feels I'm feeling feel so sweet
Is she a ******? Oh my god, who!?
So blurred the walls don't even know what to do
Walk down the street and hope the cops don't see
C'mon baby and party with me

Wanna be chill
Like a cool lake that's melted
Into you
I wanna go up up up
And stay there
And hear your voice all around me
So teenage
He's the king in the clouds
I'm his faithful queen
Of the stars
He is light and I am dark
He allows me to see
And I bring him back down
To earth

A painted purple rose
Where it stops nobody knows
A fright night glow
Midnight rock show
Favorite song on the radio
Tell him where his hands should go
Don't look at him at school
Make him think you're cool
Like an ice block on a golf course
All the Cali kids do it too
A failed math test
Meaning no but saying yes
Afternoon nap
Lipstick on your brand new hat
I don't wear lipstick

"I love him, I do
I deserve it, it's true"
And he goes on slapping you
Making your skin turn as red as his
Because he's so mad at you
So beautiful
And you know you're mean
Under sheets with other boys
But you are lovely still
Senior girl
And he goes on hurting you
Leave this place now
He won't back down
Go to the music and happiness and love
That is not love that is bruising your body
Swelling those green eyes up tight
"But I love him!"

Oh love me, love me!
I want to make you happy
Be your pretty baby
I want to make you proud of me
Your blue eyes will jump
And become like lighthouses
Searching for mine
I'll dress real nice
And put mascara on my wide eyes
That look so expectantly at you
You say, goodnight my queen,
I will be your queen
I will live in your castle forever

It is not our time
It was nice while it lasted
In these two weeks
There was good and bad
Nice things said
Things said to best friends
When we were mad and high
Tweets posted and then taken down
When all was resolved
But I see that it's not my time to belong to someone
Or for someone to belong to me
We will float on
And you are still a king

"Love is kind, love is patient"
I read that at Moms wedding
On the beach
A cold California day
And it seemed so out of place
For it to be raining at the beach
But it was the day of homecoming
And I cried and said it shouldve been
In a church
With a white dress
And family
And a pastor
But I don't even believe in god
So what sense does that make
None
Just like my red mini dress
And the dance floor lights
That made my glitter heels blush and giggle
And the way they called my name
"Calli!"
Yep, just like the state

You are evil
Like a hidden tack in the carpet
And I hope that you
Drown
Or get arrested
Because you belong far away
Your words are not worth being heard
And you
Are disgusting
So much that I laugh
Because you don't see
How much this world
Resents you

I want to be delicate
Like sewing needles
On stilts
Held together
By baby pink yarn
I want my clothes
To graze my bones
Like a new couple holding hands
At the end of freshman year
I want my shoes to look big
On my bamboo ankles
Hollow like a flute
Pretty and silver
Clinking and plinking along
My footsteps will leave glitter in their wake

He asked me
If I wanted a tattoo
And if I did
Where
And I said I wanted a crescent moon
To remind me of September 9th
And how I held that Exit sign
Michael broke off for me
And I looked up
And Joey looked up
And I smiled
And said I want that
I want to capture that moon
And that feeling
On my skin
As a part of me on the outside
To reflect that part of me
On the inside

You made me a woman
On the second of December
You didn't let me smoke
You wanted me to feel
You
Jon saw you kiss me
Like you wanted him to see us
You don't think
Of how you were the first one
To touch me
And make my toes curl
It was your birthday present first
But turned into a present for me

Two blue eyes
Hot fire sign
All the songs bring you to mind
Now, tonight
You got mad at me for the first time
Because there wasn't enough
Time
I promise you Saturday
You can have the whole night
But promise me your lap
To fall into

You said you could cut the smoke with a knife
So do it
I think it's funny
How we don't notice patterns
But everything ends in
March