"They don't like me"
"They hate me"
"They killed me"
"They took me over"
"They wanted me"
"They were me"

It's raining again
I try to catch a drop
But I don't even know
if it fell from heaven
or my cheek

Winter is almost there
My gloves won't hide the scars
The cold breeze will stroke my hair
And it will make my tears freeze
Before they can fall on my lap

The bonfire climbs up the sky
The smoke makes me think of a cigarette
How they make you warm from the inside
But eventually they **** you too
And that's what I want

If I'm dead, I will never be alone again
The flowers, the ants, the ground
Will give me some company
Or will I be thrown away,
My whole life burnt into black ash?

It's snowing again
I can feel you looking at me
I try to stay focused on myself
But my eyes can't resist the beautiful human being
That's dying inside of me

I want to just feel how you hold my hand
How you would try to save me
When I get caught by the monster under
My miserable bed
I want to know if you have scars
On your arms or on your heart
If it's broken or bent or
Something inbetween, like mine

Tears land on your chest
When you tell me how pretty I am
But who loves a girl that is in
Such a big struggle with herself
That she doesn't have the courage
To give her heart for the fullest

But it's teared apart already
So if you hurt me I won't react
Like your typical girl next door
Because my pain solves itself
By hiding in the dark

Everyone searches but
Not everyone finds
Hearts fade away
By the simple breeze of
A cold soul
Trust is broken, all
Because of the unfinished
Truth and the infinite
Lies.

Everyone fights but
Not everyone survives
Closing your eyes doesn't
Mean giving up, it
Means taking away your
Own pain and forget
About everything for a
Second or more.

They told us dreams can
Come true
But forgot to mention that
Nightmares
**are dreams too

diving into the deepest
everything feels good
popular songs are on
roses bloom in the sun
enthusiasm feels good
summer lasts forever
swinging through life
endings are happy
d**reams do come true

i'm out
she wrote
on a little
white paper
she laid it
down on
the counter

i'm sick
she wrote
on a blue
sheet of
paper
she gave
it to the
janitor
at school

i'm high
she wrote
on the
***** door
of the
restroom
she took
a pink pill
out of
her pocket

i'm dead
she wrote
on a little
white paper
she laid it
down on
the counter
while she
took another
swig of
the brown
liquid that
would
make her
blood
stop running

I wander in my mind again
Searching for the one little spot where you are hiding
I think I won't be able to sleep tonight

You stare at me, looking right through my skin
You see my veins, fulled with alcohol
Most of the people I know can only think straight
When they're sober
But as I'm always drunk, my mind is prepared

Can't you just grab my hand and take me to wonderland
Save me from my death,
Tickle me until I'm out of breath

I hear you walking in
Your footsteps are planted in my remembrance
They wander in my brain,
Leave their marks on my retina

Winter goes to summer,
Long sleeves go to t-shirts
Our love still comes from one side,
Trying to break through

As I open my eyes, I see you laying next to me
My imagination took over again
But dreams do come true, they say
So just promise me you'll love me today

You hope they don't see you
shift your sleeves
You hope they believe you
when you tell them
the red sweep on your wrist
are from the elastic band

I hope he believes me
when I tell him I love him
because I never
believe myself

You hope he would notice
if you never looked
in his eyes again
You hope he would miss you
if you never said
'I miss you' again

I hope people will remember me
by the good things I said and did
and not by the sad face
I always ruffled up

How is it possible that friends
Fade away like a flower in fall
Follow the popular ones like
They are made of pure gold
Forget about their values
And wonder why you look
So sad

Can't everybody just accept the fact
That you should be loyal
You can't always be the king
But you can open your heart
To people whom you thought
**would never like you anyway

my conscience tries to keep me away from your love
take a step back she says,
don't get too close, or you'll hurt yourself

What if one day,  
Luck is for the weak ones

For the teenagers in highschool
That get bullied every
Single
Day

For the kids that can't play
Because they have to work
And they don't even know
How to be young

For the adults that are getting
Threated like animals

For the older people around us
That simply are
Forgotten

For the unborn
That can't choose their home

For the people on our planet
That aren't that lucky
Who cry themselves to sleep quite often

That miss someone so much
They've lost themselves
In their search for happiness

Because after every hurricane
There are still drops

Why are people so mean
to the most precious feathers
Who will never hurt anyone
Can someone please explain that to me?

Why can't people realize what they're having,
not what they might lose?
Not everyone will be in your favor,
but most of your enemies don't even exist.

How comes that nobody notices pain,
but everyone notices bad things?
People who only think about their own feelings,
and don't know the whole world loves them?
Calm down, the world doesn't revolve around you

I drop my bag on the floor and run to my room
The only place where the real me lives

I turn on the radio and listen to sad tunes
The weather reflects my emotions

I look at myself in the mirror and see a girl
But what's inside of me stays invisible

Humans are monsters, they told me
But I'm not quite sure if I'm human

Because humans smile and humans cry
And that last thing is the only thing I seem to do

Other feelings, other emotions get turned off
It's like my monster contains of rain

Sad and slow, falling on the ground
Drowning in its self,
Trying to swim

Drops fall of my scars
I've cut them open again
Because my monster
Needs to cry too

When I was younger I
Used to think
Growing up didn't
Take so long
You would learn about
Things you need
In life,
And get a bigger brain
And a bigger
Heart

But being an adult
Isn't a job
Nobody understands
What to do
Because we don't learn
About responsability

Our hearts stay the
Same size,
Only the cracks
Start to show

I know I do have a heart
I know it pumps to keep me alive
But I don't feel it

I know I do have a brain
I know it makes descisions for me
But I don't agree with them

You were born an individual,
But from the inside we're all the same
They say be yourself,
Although you shouldn't be different

Boom boom boom boom
I can hear my heart,
But others can't

My brain controls itself,
Others don't

I am myself,
But everyone is
So what's the meaning of being you,
If everyone can be me?