What is your greatest fear?
Do you worry about the past
The present, the future?
Do yesterdays woes play on your mind?
Or the worries of tomorrow?
How about the angsts of today?
What is your greatest fear?
Does money concern you?
Do you envision that a lack of material wealth will make you a lesser person?
Or that you won't be able to provide
For your mother, wife or children?
What is your greatest fear?
Do you fear great adventure?
From missions across treacherous terrains,
To learning something new.
Or maybe the unknown?
Does a non-existent threat debilitate and paralyse you?
What is your greatest fear?
I would say mine own is the fading of a great ability
To make words dance across a page as if they possess a life of their own
To link together phrases, to bring life to seemingly dreary monologues
To paint pictures with nouns and adjectives
Record films with verbs and adverbs
This is a gift I have been blessed with
Yet
I am scared
For I do not know when my time will come
And this pushes me
But until then?
I shall do what I know best
I shall write, query and ponder all the great questions life has for us
So I ask you
What is your greatest fear?

You were different
As you repeatedly pointed out
You weren't quite like the others
You possessed a quietness which only titillated me further
We had moments which will lie etched in memory forever
We were different
Together
But then, like twigs under the feet of a giant
You broke me.
You may be the one I thought I desired
You may be the one I thought I required
But you are not
Nor are you the only one for me
There are plenty of fish in the sea
Should I choose to go fishing.
For now, the rods must stay in the barn;
I have bigger fish to fry.
Like changing the world, for instance
Which to you is a preposterous and fanatical notion
To me, is another thing to tick off my to do list
I am different
Knocking me down did not serve any purpose but to strengthen my resolve
I rose slowly, like a flower amongst weeds of pain
I came through, bigger, better, scarred but stronger
Oh look what you've done
I wish you no harm
But I'm not exactly rooting for team ** anymore
You're on your own there
And rest assured, give me a few more years,
And I'll show you just what you are missing.
In that moment, poetic justice will truly be served.

Let's go on adventure
Deep into our minds
Running with child-like curiosity
Where there is no issue of time
Or money
Appearances
Perception
There is merely the world to explore
Schedule me for the lifelong tour
I want to see anything and everything
If possible
But of course there is
For there are no limits
Or so I believe
But this is not what they say
Instead it is 'Play it safe'
Or 'Settle down'
Or 'Find a routine'
To which I scream back
'Where is your sense of adventure!?'
When did you lose your spontaneous spark
When did you lose your will to love
To learn
To live.
When did you decide that mediocrity was safer than the extraordinary?
Was it not you who reminded me to dream big
To take action
To take the risks for the great reward?
Shame on you!
But alas, I cannot lambast
For there is no right way or wrong way
You have yours and I have mine
But I know which I prefer.
If life is either a daring adventure,
Or nothing at all
I shall take the adventure option.

I worry
About it all.
You know
Life, death, success, failure, joy, misery
For me
For you
For Him, her, them
I carry the weight of the world on my shoulders
Like I'm off on a vacation divine in nature
At first its light but time takes it's toll
And not even my supposedly omnipotent self can handle
The pressures on and I crack
No diamonds will come from these coals
But why they ask? Can he not do it all?
Is he not the man he was before, the tall, the cool
The great, the extraordinary?
Was it not this man who we put on a pedestal?
He had all the answers without all the questions,
Someone high up had truly blessed him
So we flooded and flocked and fought
For his advice, true knowledge we sought
A father figure, Granddad even
His ability seemed to have no ceiling
But now where is he?
It is I, reluctantly I reply
It was I whom you placed up in the sky
Showered with gifts and love and affection
For I would solve all your afflictions
But soon it all became too much
Too fast, too soon
The pile drowned me
Submerged me in an abyss filled with despair
And of course, God can handle it
But I am only human
So all I can do is worry.

A hole
You left one
Ripped through my soul
The contents leak out
Quickly at first
So they tell me to fill it, immerse myself
In anything and everything
And so I try, and so I fail,
Unfocused, distracted
Wandering thoughts keep wandering back
As if they've been given a map
Directing to my problems and pain
Going insane
Crazy, ******, asylum to follow
This house is not a home
How can I feel so alone
Yet I'm surrounded by the masses
People I know, friends, acquaintances
The sea of smiling faces and compassion encircle me
But all I feel is the pain, poking at me like a blunt sword,
Again and again
Nothing excruciating, but never letting me forget
How I let you in
And you dug your way out
And left a hole

I'm strong
As an ox
Courageous, Bold
Fearless,
Nothing can hold me back
Try and break me
I dare you
Because like a diamond in out of the rough
I refuse to be crushed
 
I'm strong
Rolling with the punches
Going all in on hunches
Not scared to fail
No need to bail
Not stuck in a prison, no limits
Can't remember the last time I felt timid
 
I'm strong
But today I feel weak
Feel like folding
Crawling into a hole
Today looks bleak
Encased in the prison of my own mind
Hits so hard
I'm going blind
Darkness is all I see
I embrace it
Hug the pain
I stand outside in the rain
I allow myself to get wet, get soaked
And this makes me strong