i wake up
but i dont want to get up

i get dressed
but i want to stay in my pj's

i go to school
but i want to stay home

i go home
i wonder what i going to do next

i hang in my room
being meself

i go to sleep

wondering

what i could have done better
what could i have done different

but i fall asleep thinking i need to do better
when i really know what i did is what im going to do tomorrow

i'm a gamer
i live in the same world as you

play almost everyday
it's my get away

i met new friends everyday
i help you
you help me

just because i'm a gamer
doesnt mean i dont life like you

we call and you never pick up

you know im 17 year old
and yet you act like im 5

you make it seem like your the victim
but i see what you do, im not stupid

you tell me you'll never been sent a picture of me
but i know mom sends one every year

you tell me your using new paper as ****** paper
yet you drink and smoke

nana when will you learn that its not all about you
haven't you done enough

its been a long time since i saw you
its been a longer time since we dated

i still look at you with all the love i still have for you
but know it can not be

i look away with sarrow in my eyes

but as turn away

i hear your voice cut through the silents and say
remember are plan

i turn around with shock and disbelief in my eyes
just to see you smiling

later that day you come to have lunch with me

and just before you walk out that door
you give me a kiss
and smile

deep down i still love you

but i know i can not show it

you try to make me jealous
you tell me you have another

and yet you say
i love you