Your growing
Your knowing
It's okay your showing
It's a blessing and a curse
Can it get any worse?
I know, i know that I'm fool and so slow
That i didn't think how you feel.
When i say something low.
I should know what you feel
Is it hard or is it real
That I'm blind from the truth
That's it's always been you
That i see ever night
In my dreams ain't it right?
It feels so good I can't deny
That i want you by my side.

Waking up hearing, looking up seeing. What am I doing? Nothing important.
But why am I hearing this voice in my head. Could it be something I wanted instead?
Her voice, her lips, her eyes, it's all the above. Nothing is better then what she does.
She courageous and determined I see you girl.
I wonder where have been in this world? You like a star light that always shine. Wanting something more everytime.
I see you and I like it, it's so **** fine. Your what I wanted all this time.

I'm trying so hard not to do anything to myself.
But its really hard cause it was all my fault.
Writing this is all I got.
Expressing myself is all I got.
I feel so empty why is it me..
Why couldnt I be the one for you.
I'm crying while I'm writing this I'm such a *****
Its all I can do about thinking of a switch.
To end everything now and not go further.
I wish I can forget it and move forward..
I don't think ill be writing anymore more poems.
This might be my last one so I hope its a forum.
For you guys to understand and know its hard.
For liking someone so much that can tear you apart.
Its killing me day by day.
I wish I can handle it and go along with my day.
Everythings my fault and I can't bring it back.
I wanna keep going but its like heart attack.
Sooner or later I'm just gonna go.
Where I belong in a ******* hole.

Honesty why couldn't I do it.
Something that small why did I ***** it.
Being alone in my room shows me why I'm stupid.
Won't learn ever ill be alone forever.
Walking day and night such beautiful weather.
Reminds me what I had of me and you together.
All I can do is cry and show why I'm under the weather. Friends tell me it will be okay and tell me to get better. But I bet they never had a girl that changed them forever. Most of the time I want to give up and do nothing better. But ill keep going until ill get back my weather.
That's beautiful in all ways.
And can't deny but show her my ways.
Of expressing myself in any way.
Her smile shine brighter then the sun.
Man where have you been all along.
You are my favorite weather.
Wish I can stand out outside and feel us together.

Beautiful girl where have you been all my life.
Can't believe its been so much time.
Not ever seeing you was all the time.
But didn't stop me from loving you all this time.
Being happy, laughs, falling even more was something called destiny. Maybe one day we can be with eachother let's wait and see. Months past, we fight and argue but its part of life. In the end we stay together for all time.
We made goals and told what we want to do in life.
I was happy to have met this girl in my life.
Beautiful girl why did I have to hurt you so much.
I wish I can get punched for the times I broke us up. Being honest is important an a relationship. Should have told you so I wouldn't deal with this ****. Of hurting this girl Thats changed me and became a part of my life. Not believing you was a crime. She made me a man I can never Thought I can be. Should have be honest so I wouldn't feel this pain. Of losing this beautiful girl that ill never be with again. Beautiful girl I want you to know I lied to you about my situation. But you was the honest thing of my entire nation. Caring, loving was something we had. Couldn't and wouldn't think of another girl I want to be with in the end. I'm the luckiest guy that can have such a beautiful girl. Cant believe I had to ***** up and not tell her more. Crying non stop of why I couldn't tell the truth. If you loved this girl why couldn't you make this true. Baby its my fault for tearing us apart. Writing this is all In my heart. I won't find another beautiful girl like you. Somebody that has made me move to something I thought wasnt true. Love I Thought you couldn't be real. Being attractive to this girl isn't what went wrong. Not thinking to be real with her was all my fault. Beautiful girl this is what I have to say to you. Im gonna be better man for me and you. The day may never happen and I accept that. But I won't stop loving you cause its all I had. Best girl I have ever met. Always will keep it like that. You'll be in my heart til my life ends. Beautiful girl you are my end.